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Adam is on the other side of the park playing with my sister, when she heard it was him she was so excited. Liam walks over to me and says, "So I see your father took it well" I look at my dad who is also playing with them and say "yea, I was a bit scared when he freaked out, but I just had a feeling that he would be fine with it so I told him and thankfully I was right". Kayden "I feel like I've been to this park before" Liam "You have, this park used to be where you and me played when we were little and we came here with Adam once to, you guys weren't dating yet because you both were oblivious to the fact that you liked each other". Kayden "C-can you tell me what else I don't remember" Liam "Are you sure you want me to, most of the stuff you don't remember are times you had with Adam, so I think it's better if you ask him". Kayden "*sigh* okay" Liam "Also did anything happen with you guys when you went to the bathroom" Liam says nudging me in the side with his elbow, Kayden "N-nothing" I say that but I can feel my face getting hot, Liam smirks and says "Sureeee, hmmm, maybe, I should ask Adam what happened" Kayden "WHAT!?!NO!!" Liam "ADAM!!" I cover Liam's mouth with my hand but it's too late Adam is walking over to me and Liam with a confused expression on his face. Adam "Yea?" Kayden "Nothing it's nothing *nervous laugh* haha, don't worry about it" Liam takes my hand away from his mouth and says "So what happened with you two in the bathroom the other day" Kayden "NOTHING ABSOLUTELY NOTHING" I yell, I look at Adam, thinking I would see shock or anything else but no, he's looking at me with a sad/mad expression. D-did it bother him that I didn't want to tell Liam about it?. I didn't mean to hurt him, I was just embarrassed. Adam looks at Liam and says, "Yea, we did "absolutely nothing '', he says repeating my words, he starts walking away and I feel a pain in my chest, I call out to him but he just answers saying "Just leave it, it doesn't matter". I look at Liam and say "It wasn't my intention to hurt him" Liam "I know that, but you should probably work on telling him that not me, after your dad goes home I suggest you tell him that". I nod. I don't know why I reacted that way. It's not like I can't not trust Liam. I look up at the sky and the sun is about to set and I get a flashback, it's when me, Liam and Adam are here at this park running around playing tag and after we went to this gas station and got drinks and talked about going to a party. Having these flashbacks is good but I can't help but think about, would me and Adam's relationship gotten worse from what I heard and remembered he did or would it get stronger. All I know is, is that even if I didn't remember anything I would fall for Adam all over again just like I did now, I just can't picture myself with anyone else but him. And I guess I just made him think I didn't want him. We stay at the park until it's completely dark and then my dad and sister are getting ready to leave, sis "Will you come visit more often" I answer saying "Of course" I give her a tight hug and then stand to hug my dad he hugs me back and says "Take care and call if you need anything, and make sure you do visit more often, okay" Kayden "Okay" Dad "Bye" Kayden "Bye dad". Me Liam and Adam are walking home. We come to a fork in the road and Liam says "Okay, I'll see you guys at school this is where I have to part" Kayden "Okay see you" Adam "Yea see you". We wave bye and then it's just me and Adam. I try to find the right words to explain my outburst earlier but nothing seems right. We walk in silence for a while and when I open my mouth to finally say something Adam says "Are you embarrassed of what we did?". And by the time he says that we're in front of our houses and my mind is blank.