memories~

Kayden, "W-what", Adam *Sigh* "Do you want to go inside my house to talk about it, so we don't have to stand here" Kayden "S-sure". We walked inside his house and I remembered a moment when we were on his couch talking about the dinner he had to have with his parents that day and we kissed. Snapping me back to reality, Adam says "So would you like to tell me what that was about with Liam, are you embarrassed about what we are or what we do?" Kayden "NO...…, yes, I don't know" Adam "Ever since your accident our relationship has changed tremendously I wish it was back to the way it was, I miss that Kayden the shy cute Kayden and he'd still be here if it weren't for me". With that Adam goes to sit on his couch I follow, "I'm trying" Adam "I know, and I don't want you to force yourself to remember but sometimes I want you to". He looks down and I crouch down in front of him and say, "Tell me then" Adam "Huh?" Kayden "Tell me what I forgot, so I can remember, so I can remember us" Adam "I don't want to overload you with this stuff". I put my hand in his knee and he looked up. I looked into his eyes and replied saying "It's okay I want to know". He lets out a long breath "Okay". I sit next to him on the couch and he turns to face me. Adam "I'll start from the very beginning, so the first day of school" Kayden "Okay" I fix myself so I am facing him as well. Adam "The first day of school I was a new student to the school everyone swarmed me the guys and the girls, you were sitting in the back the only one who didn't get up *haha*. After A few classes I found you in the hall and asked if you wanted to have lunch together. You said yes so we sat and we had a lot in common. It felt like we knew each for years. We walked home together and found out we were neighbors. The second day of school this girl also new came to our class and her name was Chelsea since we were both new I decided to be nice to her so we sat together in class at lunch I tried to sit with you but she called me over and I didn't want to be rude so I did, you called out my name I looked back and you had tears in your eyes I didn't know why Chelsea pulled me away and you ran out of the cafeteria. Later I found you and pulled you in the bathroom to see what was wrong. You refused to tell me at first but then I kept pushing you to tell me and you yelled at me saying you liked me, I forze and you got away. I thought it was just something you said so you could get away. I was pretty dense haha. *ahem* Anyways A little bit after that me and you went to go hang out and Chelsea came out of nowhere and without invitation she hung out with us. we went to the carnival and at one point we went to the ferris wheel and me and her sat together and you sat by yourself me and her got off first I waited for you and without warning she pulled me into a kiss I pulled away but you saw a misunderstood you told me it was fine and to just hang out with her and you left. We didn't talk for a bit after that and I still did not understand. I just thought you were mad at the fact that I was hanging out with her more. You didn't come to school for a while and a bit after I went to your house to give you work you missed and stayed so we could study and I ended up spending the night *cough* I um we slept and I held you while we did, that morning *COUGH* haha um we won't talk about what I did that morning you don't need to know. Kayden "Okay?" Adam "Anyways so that day we went to the movies and watched a scary movie you got scared at one part and grabbed my hand. A bit after that we went back to my house and we were on the bed and we were about to kiss and I got a call, at the time I didn't tell you who it was but it was my mom calling telling me I needed to go home to talk about the business. So I did and I was gone for awhile I don't know what you did during that time but when I came back you had your childhood friend with you Liam you talked about me with him because he said "so your Adam" haha I don't know what you told him but you punched him in the arm when he said that but at the time I didn't find it funny because I was jealous. That day Chelsea invited me to a party so the next day me, you, and Liam went to the park and it was the park you and Liam used to play at when you guys were little we played tag it was fun. After that we went to the gas station, got some drinks and talked. I told you both about the party. You didn't know if you wanted to go or not. A while after we had the talk I confessed my feelings for you and kissed you. I told you I knew you were straight and I ran after doing that. The day of the party I was with Chelsea, I was dating her at the time because I wanted to get over you because I didn't think we had a chance. You came in and saw us together and that night you drank so much and I am pretty sure that was your first time drinking and I guess it was my fault. I looked around for you when you disappeared and when I found you this guy was trying to take advantage of you. After the guy left you asked me why I was with Chelsea and what did you do and you passed out in my arms. So I took you to my house because I didn't have to key to your house I put you in my bed and you woke up and we were talking about how I was dating Chelsea and I told you why and you asked me to say I like you again and I did and we kissed and you passed out again. The next day you didn't remember anything and that made me a bit mad. I also broke up with Chelsea the following day . At one point I had hard time because my mom came to my house and we talked about the business and my brother who died and how she wanted me to be like him and how she didn't care about me it was just to overwhelming for me and I didn't want to live anymore So i cut myself on both arms and was bleeding so much I blacked out I woke up the next morning in a pool of blood and I washed my arms off and put a long sleeve shirt on thinking no one would notice and during the day someone tapped me and I winced in pain and I looked to you hoping you didn't see but you did I immediately asked to go to the bathroom thankfully the teacher didn't notice after the bell rang you came into the bathroom I was in with my backpack in your hands and you dropped it and ran to me because you saw my my arm and you tried to see it and I yanked it away in anger because I didn't want you to see me like that. At one point I backed out and I woke up in the hospital. I don't know how you got me there but thank you I don't think I said that last time. When I woke up we talked and I told you about my abusive mom and how my dad is just absent all the time and how my brother died in a car crash and all that. I felt like I had no one but you proved me wrong. You pulled me into a hug that day tight but not too tight to hurt me. That day is the day we started dating. After that I had to deal with the dinner and I had to bring Chelsea and you know what happened after that". It was so much to take in, hearing it all made every memory come back like a huge wave hitting me, my dad, my family, Liam and everything that happened between me and Adam. It was so much to take in that I passed out.