Chapter 6

I told them how Shawn and I had been in a relationship and how he slowly started to demand more and more of my time than how the yelling started than the making me feel useless unloved and worthless. Than how He progressed onto hitting me and having to go to work embarrased about the bruises. Than finally the straw that broke the camels back the one thing that I haven't even told My dearest best friends. I told them how "one day after taking several pregnancy test at work I had found out I was expecting. So I got off earlier than normal and went grocerie shopping got all the fixings for Shawn's favorite meal and a bottle of red wine and some long stemmed white candles and a boque of Lily and roses. I was going to surprise him with the news over a nice dinner. When I got home I started everything. So it would get done by the time Shawn got home. While I was waiting I decided to get some of Shawn's favorite music out of our room to play since He loved contemporary jazz. I than heard it the moaning of two voices behind our bed room door..."

I stoped right their and looked straight into my parents eyes they had a look of pure shock and horror. I knew they didn't want me to finish. I had to I had to let go of this secret I was holding on to like a selfish child with the last piece of candy.

Officer Cole placed her hand on mine and asked "can you continue with your story? Or do you need a break?" the pain in her eyes where telling me her heart was breaking for me I knew she had guessed.

Letting out the breath I was holding and looking down at the hand that I hadn't noticed before was intwined with mine. I continued knowing Brandon was in his own way giving me some of his strength threw our entwined hands.

" the Monnings on the other side of the door where of Shawn and my ex bestie Cherry. I had opened the door on them having sex. When they realised I was standing there Cherry jumped off of Shawn and ran to the connecting restroom. Shawn was angery I had came home to him cheeting and decided I needed to pay. So, He started hitting me and screaming how I Am so useless that I can't even pleasure him right. so has to go and find other woman to do it. then he starts to kick me in the stomach and all I can think is our baby... our baby is going to die if he doesn't quit kicking me. then it came the blood the blood was everywhere I don't know where he found the knife. he started to cut me if it wasn't for cherry coming out the bathroom and getting her phone I would be dead right now. the last thing I remember before passing out is him banging on the bathroom door him telling her to come out. I think she called the police. I don't know. when I woke up I was in a hospital and I was bandaged from head to toe. he had broken three ribs, both of my legs the little bones in one of my foot, my toes on the other foot and he had cracked my skull, dislocated my jaw, and he had killed our child that was the worst pain then the actual physical pain is knowing my child was dead. The depression was so sever I was on suicide watch. This happend a little over a year ago but to me it felt like a life time ago."

My mom started to cry and my father kept shaking his head saying "I should have known something was wrong." he said this over and over.

Officer Cole looked at me with unused tears in her eyes and said " Babe if you want to continue with this interview tomorrow , you can I know this is hard for you to tell us."

I shook my head no and continued with my story telling everyone at the table about going threw rehab by myself because I was embarrased to tell anyone what happend and talking to the police about Shawn and pressing charges only to have him get his hand slapped with 500 hrs community service probation and a restraining order. I knew everyone just thought I was going threw a bad break up with a stalker they didn't know to what extent how bad it was.

I told them how I used a friends name to get my plane tickets and move.

I kept talking until my mom put a plate of meatloaf, mashed potatoes, gravy, corn on the cob, and a sweet roll in front of me.

I had talked until it was 7:30 P.M. dinner time.

I took a bite and smiled feeling the weight lift as I chewed on my mothers good cooking.

Once I was done I kept telling my story until it was Finnished.