New feelings

I just shifted a little closer to Noah and said," Noah, Please just relax.. you don't seem fine"

he said," Just go to Damon, I don't want to take your time," I was angry Now! he should know he means everything to me...

"Noah, listen to me! You will always be the most important person In my life, no doubt!"

His expression softened a little and he came close to me. His faces was inches from me and if I was normal, I would feel weird and hate it but something in me wanted to not move, just stay there with him.. But I guess I was too worked up from all the dancing!

my subconscious was like," No girl! don't lie to yourself!" and that was when Damon called my name and came running back to me.. I was out of my trans and Noah was looking at me differently like he wanted to say some thing but couldn't...

Damon clapped his hands in front of my face and said," Back to earth, love! come on let's go.." I did wanna dance but there was a part of me that didn't want to leave Noah but then I always wanted to be around him right?

My subconscious said," You are so stupid! Just realize it already!" and before I could think anymore, Noah stood up and said," Bye, I will see you tomorrow..." and I was upset that he left in such a mood. Then, it was just Damon and me.. Suddenly, he said," Bella, can I ask you something?" and I said yes

He asked me," You never dated Noah?" I said,no no... But why did I sound upset about it! I shouldn't!

before I could realize what was happening, Damon's hands were around my waist and he was kissing me deeply. I could feel his heat on my body. I didn't like that I was still not forgetting Noah... but I was determined to put stupid thoughts out of my brain! I needed to sleep... Damon looked at me and I felt different.. soon, I bid him goodbye and went back to my dorm.

the moment I fell on the bed, I was asleep. I got up next morning, feeling a little sore in my muscles because of the dancing I did last night..

I was sure today I wouldn't feel anything for Noah (after all my whole life, I hadn't)! so I went out of the room and towards my class. Just as I was about to enter the class, I saw Noah at the end of the corridor with a girl. No no, I am not feeling jealous as all. I am happy for him! Suddenly, the girl went on and hugged him tightly... that is when my dramatic and stupid subconscious said," R u still not jealous, angry bird?" Damn you!

I just rushed to class, I couldn't stand there and watch them.. fine fine I AM jealous! I don't know why.. I really don't. Then, I focused on the lecture whole heartedly. I made myself remember that I came here to STUDY not to discover un wanted feelings.. The lecture was over and I had a second class, right after 15 mins so I rushed out and started going to the next class. I entered my French class and my heart seemed to be sad when I saw Noah sitting in the back with the same girl.. No No I won't get carried away so I just sat in the front and focused on the lecture. It was really interesting and I was focused. The bell rang and I left the class quickly, I couldn't talk to Noah unless I figured out my feelings otherwise he might realize everything because he knows me better than anyone.