Confessions

I am going mad! I hate it when I feel things which I shouldn't feel... I started giving myself a lecture " Bella! you have to let him be happy atleast! and u have Damon, u can't do this! let him enjoy His life!' I would have gone on and on, had Noah's voice not interrupted me..His voice ( which I am suddenly liking! god I am such an idiot!) interrupted my thoughts and brought me back to earth! He just smiled and said," Hey! what's up?" I said," Nothing much, just going back to my dorm,I have a lot of homework! So see you around.." and then I rushed off. I couldn't let my feelings become stronger! I was just about to enter my dorm when I heard Damon. I went round the corner and saw him making out with a girl! Asshole! I cleared my throat which made him look at me, straight in the eye.. I wouldn't cry, no matter what. No am I not heartless or anything but I don't cry for boys.. I just don't! Anyways he looked guilty (which he Should!) and said," Bella, I am sorry.. I just don't know what came over me!" I just looked at him and said," Its okay, cause now you cab f*ck off.. I don't mind really" and I stormed away before he could say anything...

To be honest, I felt bad that he had to be with me when I was having feelings for someone else. So, it was better he went on. Someone knocked on the door. I went on and opened it. There stood Damon... he said," You know you are not someone special right? you are just a nerd! I don't mind that I won't kiss you anymore.. after all, you are just a weak, little girl!" that was it! I slamed the door in his face. Now, I was extremely angry and my anger was boiling. I felt like breaking something. There was a knock again. This time if it was Damon, he had entered in his funeral! Though this time, it was Noah. I opened the door and he came in. I just told him," Noah, now is not a good time. You should come later." and he replied," I know you are very angry, I can see it on your face! will u tell me why?" I was surprised he knew so soon! then I went on and told him everything. By the end, he looked much more angry than I did. He stood up and said," I will kill that guy! how dare he say anything to you! I will be back later, Bels. I have to talk to Damon" I knew I couldn't let him go otherwise who knew what would happen?! I said," Noah, no please. Don't hurt him, I don't want you anywhere near that bastard." He just hugged me and I felt great.That is when I realized, I had fallen for him! and very badly!

I got away and said," So, u made a new friend it seems. She is pretty." and he replied," She is just a classmate." now, my feelings were becoming bolder," So you just go on hugging all your classmates?" and he looked surprised and a little confused," W-what? Anyways how does it matter? You don't care so let's not pretend that you do!" I was so hurt by this... I said ," Who told you I don't Care? who!?" he said," so do you, Bella? do you care for me just the way I do for you?" I couldn't contain myself and I almost shouted," Yes I do Care about you and a lot more than you do! cause unlike you, I have feelings for you!! I know I shouldn't but I do!" after it was all out, I realized what I said. Then I couldn't even look at him without being embarrassed! He just said with a very soft voice," Really? you do?" and I just managed to say," Yes..."

he put his hand under my chin and tilted my face towards him. I was pretty sure I looked him a tomato right now.. I couldn't stop blushing! But the blushing vanished when he kissed me fiercely! I was taken back but I was happy( a little, I guess). We separated after a while and he said," So I guess, now I am not the only one having " Feelings"." and then we were both laughing hard. Then I said," I didn't know you liked me!" he replied, "Please tell me my kiss convinced you!" I said," It did but when did u realize everything?" he replied," I Knew what I felt, the moment I saw you with Damon." Oh my god!

I said,"W-wow. I didn't know!" he just looked at me and said," I know you didn't but don't worry cause now we both know."

He suddenly pulled me to him and said," So is it okay if I kiss you or would you hate it?" I replied ," I think it will NOT be a bad idea as I was having the same thou--" he didn't even let me finish my sentence! before he crushed his lips on mine.. I lost every thought I was having. He was the only one I could think about! He was pulling me to him and so was I! there was literally no space between us. My hands were in his hair and his hands were on my waist. It didn't seem weird..It just felt like it was true all along. Oh God, undiscovered feelings are something else!

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