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The day was going to be long. There was a lot for her to learn how to belong which will hopefully be the best and easiest yet hardest part within the next few days. It'll be worse when she has the exam although it won't be hard for us or anything like that it will be one of the worst parts for her. Between having to have sex in front of people and it likely being the first time she ever will. Then she also had to be examined before that as well. That's probably the worst parts about the entire wedding ceremony. It's a long process but it's not horrible and learning the new things will be hard but compared to those to things it's not bad at all.

May finished packing and didn't have much to say since she had lost last time she tried to protest about what she wanted to bring. We got onto the horses after we finished. She hugged her mom before she got on her horse.

Me and Liz were waiting on our horses as she walked back over with my aunt and her mother. Her mom seemed upset about having to leave her. They probably hadn't ever left each other for any amount of time before now. It was kind of odd that she seemed this upset right now.

Her mother knew she would still see her again before to long, it would only be a few days before she returned but then again even after her return she wouldn't see her for very long. Then her daughter would leave forever. Torn away from her mother because she is being married off. Doing exactly as her head lady has commanded her do because there was no way she could disobey. She could be banished or whipped over it and her daughter still sold off with no say in it and the same outcome no matter what she does. The only thing she has control over was how she acts because that can change her outcome. It would be a truly horrible thing as it would make this process for May even harder. She knew that and knew the outcome would do her daughter no good so it would be easiest to go along with it. It would be plotless and deadly to refuse. I'm sure it doesn't help the way she feels right now though. Her last goodbye will be a night where her daughter is married, a night that is supposed to be filled with celebration but for her mother it's will likely be full of terror not knowing when they will leave because it's off her new husbands orders. She probably feels like she's selling her daughter off like you would a horse or a dog after you have breed and raised them, put so much effort into making them who they are and teaching them how to act and how things work in the world around you. Only to have them sold off with no control of the outcome or who it is going to.

Kids are the most precious things in the world when it's with parents. The first instinct for a parents is to protect and nurture there child. It's show in the animals around us the way a lioness fights for her children, not leaving them unless necessary and that's only when she leaves to hunt. The same as how Buffalo would fight and leave the herd knowing she will likely die because of it in order to make sure her child is safe. The Buffalo mother also would run in to fight and defend her child even though it means she might risk injury or death and will stay with her baby even as it died so it's not alone. It's dangerous but they would do anything for there babies, it's instinct and they know that there children will die and have many throughout the years unlike humans. The feeling is still an instinct for them but humans and dragons only have a few children in there lifetimes as it takes 9 month of carrying them in ourselves then it take them years to learn to walk and communicate, u like lions and Buffalo which don't even take a year. Within the first year of life they are almost full grown adults. Humans take more than 14 years to be able to reproduce and become even close to full grown adulthood. It makes mothers even more protective and possessive of there children. Which is a blessing and a curse.

May seemed to almost feed off her mother's energy which can be a good or bed trait for a women to have as it allows us to better read a room and the people around us so we can respond properly to situations we don't understand and even some of which we do. It's a good trait for her to have but she needs to learn to not let her feelings take control of her and her actions. As she needs to learn to let her emotions show so freely, but she has something that isn't easily taught to a person so all we need to do is help her hone her natural born gifts to use them to her advantage. It will help her survive and adapt in her soo time o be new environment. She will need to be able to do so in order to survive with them. She hopefully will be stronger than we think and more so then she believes. It'll be the only way she will make it here in our world. Life is weird that way sometimes, but you are always given what you need to survive, the gods have always made sure of that.

The gods often play cruel tricks on humans snd the people that serve and worship them. It is the world we live in. Nobody knows if there are gods or one god or truly if there are any, everyone has different stories. Some tribe believe there is one and other believe there are many and each region has there own set and there own stories. Each with different groups of gods who are the same things but all with different names and slightly different symbols and abilities in some extents. It makes for an easy adjustment for people marrying within different tribes as long as they are in the same region. Personally I don't know what is the truth I know the story my mom told me when I was little. Her versions of the gods and the truth behind them. I haven't ever heard that story from anyone else. Maybe it's the truth or maybe it's not nobody really knows. It's hard to know the only truth is that we all live and die. The only known is we will all end up in the ground our bonds and ashes rooting away and become part of the nature cycle. It's a system without fail all the time, where you go afterwards or if there is anything afterwards you won't know until it's to late. Maybe the god are reals and you are judged at the end or maybe you aren't.

May and her mother both know this as do Liz and I. It's a scary thought and I'm sure May fears it as much as her mother does. After all nobody knows what's going to happen if they will ever see one another ever again. There is a good chance her mother will be dead before we see her old tribe again. Most women and men done live to be more than 30 it's why so many women marry so earlier and have kids now.

Women get married often before 18. Men wait and get married normally sometime between 16 to 18 years old and most women marry sometime between 14 and 16 as it's when they are the most fertile and have the best chance to have multiple children and make it so there are less likely to have any complications within the pregnancy or birth. I'm lucky as I'm the leaders child they sheltered me and kept me aware even though I had just come of age. I will be married later than most women but I'm not most women. My mother lived for longer than most women. I intend to do the same as I'm a dragon and dragons can live for more then a hundred years before they die naturally. I might not be a pure blooded dragon but I'm one of the closest of the hybrids so I will likely live longer. Assuming it's natural causes that I die from rarely is that ever the case though. Hopefully we will get lucky and we can live out long and healthy lives. It would be good to go naturally and in a peacefully way. With our children and those that we love around us. It would be nice to have that luxury even though we know we likely won't as very, very few are.