No Regrets

"But you've been like this since we met." I said.

He nodded, "I know but something about you reminded me of her and I guess it triggered something inside me. I swear i didn't mean to be like this to you."

I don't know what happened in his past with this girl, but he has his reasons and it makes sense why he would think he should push me away. And it sounds like he really wants to change.

"Fine." i finally say after thinking for a bit. "I'll forgive you… but don't ever try to pull that on me again okay?" he looks up at me with a gentle smile, "thank you."

I nod and tell him to sleep, and go to bed.

Tomorrow was going to be the day I joined the gang, I didn't know what kind of test they were going to give me but I was ready for anything.

I feel more fit than ever. They taught me all i needed to know about guns, and they taught me how to aim even though i was already good at it for some unknown reason but i knew i was ready for anything.

I don't have any regrets for some reason. I got to visit Santi last week and that went pretty well, I gave my aunt some money to be able to pay the bills and buy food.

I was ready for this, and I was doing everything for Santi.

Because after I found out that Luis was most likely alive, I promised myself I would never abandon Santi, and I intend on keeping that promise.