Chapter 4

JASON'S POV❄

"I'm at peace, and because of you I'll see my dad again. Thank you Jason Collins." She said and hit her head on the tiled floor hard. "Hey! Lily wake up!" I yelled as I poked her still body with my foot.

What? So I don't want to touch her because I may have killed her but so what? "Lily wake up!" I yelled and this time bent over to actually check if she was breathing. I heard her heart beat, but it was faint.

Oh well she's alive. Now let's go back to class before someone catches us. My subconscious said. I can't just leave her here, she's gonna die and I do NOT want to go to jail. I sneer at my subconscious. I unlocked the bathroom door and picked Lily up bridal style.

I felt a warm liquid go down my arm where her head was laying. The liquid travels down my arm and the liquid drips into the floor and my eyes widen. Blood.

What have I done? I look at where she was lying before and see a pool of blood. Shit! I'm in real deep shit this time. How the hell didn't I notice that before? What's wrong with me?

I rushed out of the bathroom with Lily in my arms. I run to the direction of our class and kick open the door when I reach it. I scan for her 'friend' then finally see him flirting Cece, short for Stacey my ex. "You! Luke help me!" I yell and catch everyone's attention. "Just great." I grumble under my breath. I stand sideways and next to a wall so that people don't see Lily's limp body in my arms.

"And why should I do that Collins?" He asks with a smug look as I clenched my jaw as I look at his arm around Cece's shoulder. Is this guy really trying to make me jealous? Luke starts to kiss Cece and I try to control my jealousy.

I enter the class completely and hear people gasp as they see Lily's limp, pale and almost lifeless body in my arms.

"Because if you don't. She'll die!" I yell and he stops kissing his slut. "Help me or I'm leaving and I'll leave her here with you and your seconds." I growled refereeing to Cece. I see Cece pale then turn red from embarrassment. "LET'S GO! NOW!" I yelled and he snapped out of his shock and quickly grabbed all of his and Lily's stuff.

We ran out of the school and towards the parking lot. "Here take her while I drive." I say as I carefully hand Lily over to Luke. I get into my black Ferrari that's parked next to a red Lamborghini Aventador and zoom off towards the hospital.

"Lily baby please don't leave us. Don't leave me please, we need you." Luke cooed as he tried to stop the blood that was coming out by wrapping his shirt around her head. "Jason speed up she's not breathing!" Luke yelled and started giving her CPR. I don't know why but I hated the look of his lips against hers but shook it off and speed up to 180 mph.

We reached the hospital and I grabbed Lily from Luke's arms leaving him to turn off the car and I ran into the hospital. "Help us! My sister, she stopped breathing!" Luke yelled and I'm a blink of an on nurses came rushing towards me with a stretcher and an oxygen mask.

They took Lily away from me and literally ran into the emergency room. Luke and I entered the waiting room after Luke checked Lily into the hospital or I don't know I wasn't really paying attention. I sat on the metal bench and watched Luke paced and scrolling through a phone, then I noticed that it was Lily's phone I asked. "What are you doing with her phone and how do you even know her password?"

He stopped pacing and glares at me as if he just realized something. "This is all your fault!" He spat angrily and lands a punch on my mouth. Yeah no shit Sherlock. My subconscious says. I wipe away the blood away from my lip and smirk. Why did you smirk you imbecile? You looked so stupid and sadistic. My subconscious remarks. 'Thanks.' I replied sarcastically.

"I guess I deserved that and didn't your mom teach you how to say it and not spray it? Besides it's not entirely my fault. I just did what she wanted!" I yelled slightly annoyed.

"You have NO right to tell or be annoyed right now. You do know that she could die right? This mess is all because of you and for once in your life you should take responsibility for your actions, and you should k ow better than to do what an upset girl wants because she wasn't thinking straight don't you get that?!!" He yelled slightly making me think of my mother and making me feel slightly guilty. Keyword: slightly.

Luke kept going through her phone as I texted Rebecca trying to distract myself from what he said. 'She was upset? Why was she upset?' I questioned myself. I shook off the question and continued texting desperation aka Rebecca. Let's just say that Rebecca was only know as a good, quick fuck, and that was what I needed.

I look up when I hear cheer at something on her phone and he starts calling someone. "Ndiyo habari yako mama Lily? Ndiyo mimi ni rafiki yake Lily. Samahani kwa usumbufu wangu lakini nilitaka kukuambia kwamba mtoto wako yupo hospitalini na ame umia vibaya sana." He says. " Ndio nime elewa. Haya asante. Ndio ninaelewa. " he says and ends the call.

"What was that all about?" I ask in a bored tone while still texting Rebecca asking for nudes. "That was Lily's mom and she said that she was in London and couldn't come." He said sounding smad. (Sad and mad)

"Why do you care so much?" I ask as I look at Rebecca's nudes and smirk. I can get any girl to do anything for me.

"I care because I'm human and I'm not like you who would kill a puppy for the fun of it, or break a turtles she'll to see if it'll survive or not." He says. Ok fine I've done all of those but that doesn't make me a monster.

A few hours pass and no doctor had come out of the E-room. (So I'm to lazy to type emergency room so from now on its the E-room.😂)

Luke looked like he wanted to say something to me but stopped when we saw more surgeons rush into the E-room and we stopped one of them. "Sorry but what's going on?" Luke asks looking panicked.

"The patient is severely unstable, so please let me go." She says and rushed into the E-room.

Now Luke wasn't the only one pacing. What if she goes into a coma? What happens if she dies, will I go to jail? Oh God I don't think I'm ready for jail yet.

Shut up this is not about you. My subconscious hisses. But what if she dies die? I can't live with that guilt. I mean the day I killed the puppy I cried but I was about 12 so it was sad. And the turtle thing I'll admit was interesting to see.

The door to the E-room opened and a sad looking surgeon walked towards us. "I'm sorry to tell you this but.... your sister didn't make it. We did everything we could it we are sorry." He says and parts us on our shoulders.

"Can I see her?" Luke asked in a small voice. "Just one last time?" I ask and he nods and leads us towards the E-room. I followed them from behind with my head hanging in shame and guilt.

We entered the room and the first thing I noticed was Lily's now pale and lifeless body just laying on the hospital bed. My face paled.even more as I looked at the heart monitor that was showing a straight line.

"Could we have a moment alone?" Luke asked and his voice cracked at the end. The surgeon nodded and left the room.

As soon as the door closer Luke feel onto his knees and stared at the ground as if trying to figure something out.

I ran my hands through my hair constantly as the guilt hit me constantly in the heart and I blinked back the years that wanted to escape.

I walked towards Lily's lifeless body and stood next to her and studied her features. 'So beautiful.' I thought as I looked at her more. She had such beautiful mixed skin and the perfectly filled lips that most girls would kill for and such nice hair that wasn't filled with so much hair product.

"I'm sorry for doing this to you. You didn't deserve this at all." I whispered as I took her small cold hand in mine. I rubbed my thumb over her bruised knuckles. 'I wonder how she got these?' I ask myself.

Hmmm maybe you should ask her. Oh wait you can't. Why? Cause she's dead and it's all your fault! My subconscious sneers

"Not touch her! It's all your fault that she's gone! You and your dumb adds are going to jail so don't think that your dumb adds apology is gonna bring her back to--" His yelling was cut off by the sound of a loud beeping noise coming from the monitor.

I felt her hand lightly squeeze my hand and my eyes widened in shock. The door burst open and doctors and nurses came rushing into the E-room.

"You guys need to leave the room this instant!" A nurse said and shoved us out of the room.

We stumbled out of the E-room and I glanced at Luke who was smiling like a Cheshire cat. "I guess I'm not going to jail after all." I say and Luke glares at me. "Actually you can still go jail for assault of she decided to press charges." He says and I frown.

She's alive! I'm so glad that my little beautiful flower is-- wait what?! Did I just say my? What's wrong with me? Shut up you retarded idiot! Just be glad that she isn't dead and that we're not going to jail. My subconscious hisses and I roll my eyes.

A happy looking nurse comes out of the E-room and I instantly shoot up from the chair that I don't even notice I say in. "Hey is my--"

"Yes your girlfriend is just fine. In fact she's more than fine she's amazing. Well except for that scar on her head. God must really love her or hate her to bring her back to life." The nurse blabbers and I frown at her rambling. "Yeah she's not my girlfriend." I say and scratch the back of my neck.

"Oh ok. Then he must be her boyfriend." She says and points towards Like who was grinning like a fool. "Why would you say that?" I ask with a raised eyebrow.

"Oh well because when I was shoving you guys out  his face lit up as tho he asked her to marry him and she said yes." She says with a shrug. " well that's because his friend came back to life." I say with a shrug.

"Yeah but it was different. It was as if he had just received news that she was married to him and was pregnant with his baby." She says with a smile.

For some reason I didn't like the thought of her married or pregnant with anyone's baby and a growl escaped my lips that surprised me but I quickly covered it up by fake coughing.

"Umm no she isn't his girlfriend. And never will be." I said but mumbled the last part to myself. I crossed my arms across my chest in annoyance. She looked like she was about to say something but Luke came towards us probably saving me.

"Sorry to disturb you guys but could I see Lily?" Luke said sounding desperate in my opinion. "Yes you may dear." The nurse said and smiled at him. "Come with me. We changed the room that she was in so her room is room number 207." The nurse says and leads us towards her room.

Just as I was about to walk inside the nurse pulled me aside. "Listen. Could you please take a pic with me cause my daughter is a huge fan of yours and it would be cool just to brag for once." She said and I chuckled.

" Sure. " I said and she took out her phone and I smiled my panty dropping smile and saw a nurse trip. I chuckled and ran my hands through my hair and smiled at the camera and saw the nurse swoon.

"Ok thanks for the photos." She squealed and hugged me. I awkwardly parted her back. "I'll go and check on Lily now." I mumbled and pulled away from the hug and entered the room.

"Hey Lily I don't know if you can hear me but we're skipping school right now. Not that you care or anything." Luke said and let out a weak chuckle.

"I swear I don't even know what I'm saying right now. Please be well and please wake up soon." He said and kisses Lily's forehead.

I didn't like that he kissed her and a growl escaped my lips. As soon as I noticed what I did I covered it up by clearing my throat. Like looked at me and stood up from the chair that he was sitting on and walked out of the room without a word.

As soon as the door closed I went and sat in the chair that Luke had occupied before and took Lily's now warm hand into my large one and I couldn't help but notice how they fit together perfectly. She flinched slightly and I chuckled at her cute actions.

"Hey Lotus. Look I'm sorry for what I did to you. I know you said that you wanted me to kill you so you could see your father and as bad as it sounds at first I wanted to kill you. And the strange part is because---  Well I don't know even know what I was thinking.

But when I saw you laying on the floor lifeless or when the doctors told us that you died I felt like I was gonna die out of guilt. So I wanted to say s-so-sowwy." I groaned out in frustration . Why can't I say it!

"I -I am sorr-ow. I give up. I apologize. God damn it if you were planning on making me feel guilty then you fucking succeeded in your mission." I said and kisses her hand and got up from the chair and went out of the room feeling slightly better.

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A/N

Thanks for the people who are taking their time to read my book it means so so much to me. I love you guys for reading.

Have a wonderful day full of joy and love my little munchies.

--Chizi wa vitabu💋