Daoist_spider

These are thoughts collected when feeling extreme emotions. In no way are they everyday thoughts or opinions. This book is not suited for anyone under the age of 15. Warning this book depicts depression and/or suicidal thoughts. This book was made purely for the hope that the author can use this to cope. If you don’t like this genre or the book/topics make you uncomfortable. Leave while you still can. Basically it’s like a diary, I post this so I may find out about myself and hopefully learn something from it. I do not post everything on here and some of the chapters might be removed due to either sensitivity issues or me being unwilling to share the thoughts anymore. Grab a bag of tissues and a box of melodrama and we can all just cry this out.

When you’re angry. When you’re sad.

I wish I could just think someday I will be better. 


Instead I have a mind that finds my faults and tells me that everyone else can do it so why can't I?


It's spontaneous, a brain attack. And it can be about literally anything.


From how I can't even turn on a light without messing up, to just being a waste of space by standing, or sitting.


Even sleeping too much or to little my brain will tell me "what? Can't even deal with your own thoughts? Pathetic! If you cant even deal with being awake or the nightmares you have in your dreams then you should just die! There are so many ways to kill yourself. Just pick a way! Anyway is fine you just need to do it! No one misses a monster! No one misses a freak!"


I used to dream of dying or being killed but now I'm being bullied or hunted to the point of me hurting the dream people.


Monsters should die. But I'm too scared to try to.
