Daoist_spider

These are thoughts collected when feeling extreme emotions. In no way are they everyday thoughts or opinions. This book is not suited for anyone under the age of 15. Warning this book depicts depression and/or suicidal thoughts. This book was made purely for the hope that the author can use this to cope. If you don’t like this genre or the book/topics make you uncomfortable. Leave while you still can. Basically it’s like a diary, I post this so I may find out about myself and hopefully learn something from it. I do not post everything on here and some of the chapters might be removed due to either sensitivity issues or me being unwilling to share the thoughts anymore. Grab a bag of tissues and a box of melodrama and we can all just cry this out.

When you’re angry. When you’re sad.

I love to read. It is one of the few joys I have in my life currently, it is also one of the reasons why I choose to see another day, but I have troubles controlling my anger and any high set of emotions even happiness can turn into anger. Say if I'm sad, or happy it can suddenly without warning turn into rage. And it's extremely hard not to destroy things when I'm angry so I usually destroy myself. And for some reason I can't seem to control my emotions after the sun sets. I feel spontaneously depressed or angry at random times of the night. I like the darkness but because I can't effectively control my emotions I'm starting to hate the night. And right now it's winter where I'm at so night comes early. But this happens in the summer as well.  So I have no idea what causes it. I can even stare at a wall, just listening to my breathing when suddenly negative thoughts and just pure hatred will flood my mind. I don't like this.


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