ELEVEN

Everyone has had a first love, or maybe that person is yet to come. But my first love is Remy's best friend Justin...

Remember Justin the star athlete. Well I thought I was over him, but first loves just don't go away. Especially when your friends with his most loyal and honest friend. Now you see Justin isn't the most loyal boyfriend to have, but believe me he will take your heart before you know it. And when you've fallen for him, he'll break your naive heart, for ever thinking he would even choose you.

Funny story is I hated Justin. Everyone tried so hard to be his friend. When I first met him I was in 6th grade. It was the first day I started after school program, which was a place for students that had parents that didn't want to deal with them and their terrible grades.

I had friends in the program the only problem was I couldn't property talk to them until I decided I could be their friends. So the first day I was very lonely.

It was snack time and we had line up to go to the cafeteria. I was standing in line minding my own business, when Justin looked and me and told me to hold his jacket. Like the over dramatic person I am I looked at him and said "I'm not your slave" and looked away. He found that funny and continue talking to his friends.

After that day we became really close. He started talking to me in class and after school. I remember this one day I decided I wanted to roll around in the grass and had leaves in my hair. I didn't know so in class he would sneak up behind me and clean up my messy hair. I blushed so much that day over something so little.

But of course that wasn't the only gesture that made me fall. The day that I decided I officially like him is when I was talking about my future and had made a standard for my future husband and I remember his exact words " so if I marry you I have to be rich" that day was the best day to confuse my tiny heart. Growing up I had weird body temperature my hands would be the coldest part of my body. He would see me struggling,and he would grab my hand and put it on the back of his neck,making my hands warm.

Or this one gesture that would rock my heart. During his practice he would see us girls hanging out, and he would call my name, there were three other girls with me that were his friends and he only called out for me. I felt so special. Today I feel hurt and it feels like my heart is bruised thinking about those things.

After a month of me and him flirting with each other... he started dating Jenna. My heart broke into pieces and I cried for hours that day. He even had the audacity to compare me to her. Ha

Maxilana lets a tear leave her eyes looking back on those day.

It hurts that we are now in high school and he doesn't even look at me the way he used to. He stopped looking at me that way when I had a small disagreement with his best friend. Ha

Falling for someone like him is so easy,but trying to get rid of him. Ha

I don't want to ever go through that ever again. I've built a certain wall up that makes it hard to get super close to me and when people find a way to jump over the wall, they decide to leave me in the most crucial times. But that's life, and I've only lived a couple years, I want to feel more.

Feeling attracted to Remy reminded me of the tragic first love. So now I hope to see the bad side of people and not only the more appealing side.

But beside my sad love life I have I want to share my past knowing that you missed a lot of it. I explained to my sister Lilly. She sips her tea and looks at me satisfied with the story.

"Maxi I know what you mean but why are we talking about this."

"Oh, right we were talking about crayons, and then a boy who picked up your crayon became your first love and I want to share my first love story too."

"From crayons to heart break, we are the most single girls man has ever known"

"Dude I'm so tired, sleep here tonight?" I asked my sister.

"Fine, I'm to lazy to sleep in my room anyways"

The next morning Monday 7:43 AM

It was Lillylana's first day of school and boy was she ready to murder me. Today my body decided she want to get up early, so guess what I did! I threw myself onto Lilly's back and woke her up. She flipped me off my bed and I landed on pillows. I got up from the pile and stuck my tongue out at her and ran to my bathroom.

By the time we both got ready we got to school at 7:43. We were on time and it also gave me enough time to give her a tour. And the man of the hour decided to show up and walk with us. Rem- kidding it was Dani.

Dani and Lilly knew each other very well, although the only reason they get along is because of me. Without me they would totally hate each other. They are opposites. Dani is a punk guy, while Lilly is a dressy girly-girl.

I'm a mixture of everything so maybe that's why people get along with me so well.

I took Lilly to the office passing the football boys hang out spot. Remy waves to me, and then gives me a "you promise you would tell me face." I hide my face and continue showing her, her classes. Sadly we only have PE and color guard together.

Karma and Khole show up and hug my sister. We all grew up together. Karma was more of Lilly's best friend than mine, but when she moved they really grew apart. Of course they are still good friends till this day, just not as close.

Remy comes from behind and taps on my shoulder. I turn around and give him a side hug. We part and I finally get to introduce him to my lovely sister. Lilly kept looking at me with a smirk. Now I am aware that's how all my friends are looking at me while they talk to my sister.

Feeling all eyes on me I hide behind Dani. He puts he's arm around my shoulders nonchalant and continued talking. Justin and Nina come from the hang out and wave at us. Nina reaches Remy and gives him a greeting kiss. Yuck

I gave Justin a peace sign, letting him know I acknowledge him. He just smiles in return. Nina then sees me and gives me a hug. I awkwardly stand there, patting her back. I can see in the corner of my eye my friends were laughing at me.

8:05

The bell rings and I grab my stuff getting ready to walk with Dani and Lilly to class. Dani gives me a kiss on the cheek and hold my hand, tugging me towards the gym.

*Remy's inner thought*

Damn that should be me, no! I have Nina for god sake!