Chapter 5

"Stop." I whispered as they froze and looked to me. "That's close enough."

They both put down their chairs and sat while watching me, "We saw you at the pizza place and noticed you were not doing well. We followed you here to check on you." Aaron explained as I fought back the urge to shake.

"You shouldn't have followed me here. You know the moon is nearly full."

"We want to stay and help you with this process. After we talked yesterday, it seems like it is very difficult."

I looked up to Cade with anger, "There is a reason I do not call for you two during full moon times." I looked to my lap, "I can only have certain people with me."

"But we can help you!"

I looked to Aaron as my eyes sparked with gold, "No you can't! You have no idea what you are talking about!" I began to shake, "This process is not something for half-bloods to deal with. It's too much for you."

"We will do anything to help you, just name it! We don't want to let you go through this alone!"

"She is not alone, boy," Collen hissed as he came in and I began crying. He came over to the bed side and I hugged him tightly as I stood. "You children need to leave."

"Who are you anyway?" Aaron hissed, "You always come to get El when we finish a hunt."

"He is my first familiar." I said with a sniffle and I squeezed Collen to me, "He can help me."

"You boys will get hurt if you stay here. The main stage of this process is not for half-bloods."

"But you aren't even a Lychanthrope!"

"Exactly," Collen hissed, "any form of Lychanthrope can only hurt El during this process."

I suddenly shuddered as I felt my body burn, "Collen, help me!"

I heard both men suddenly start breathing heavy and I felt my heart race, "Luther!" Collen hissed as Luther ran into the room, "Get them out of here, now!"

Luther grabbed Cade and Aaron, who fought him, "Leave, now!" I screamed and both men seemed shaken. Luther took his chance and yanked the two men out of the room. Collen rushed to the door and locked it. My shaking got worse, "Help me."

Collen quickly came over as my mind went blank. I grabbed his shirt and ripped it off. I then pulled him onto the bed as I straddled over him. He grabbed my hands, "take deep breaths, Elenor," he whispered, "You are stronger than your urges."

I tried to fight my urges but began shaking, "I cannot anymore. I can't control it!"

"Then use me, my lovely." He whispered as I forcefully kissed him. I slid my tongue into his mouth as he reciprocated. He began sucking on my tongue causing my to shiver and crave more. Through heavy breaths I moaned as I shook more. I began biting his neck and chest as I moved further down the bed, "You don't need to, El."

My body ignored his words and I rushed to pull down his pants and underwear. I quickly took his member into my mouth, passionately thrusting it into my throat as I licked and sucked on it. He began to shudder as I felt myself become hungry.

I quickly pulled down my pants and put him into me. I shuddered violently as I moaned loudly and felt how well he filled me. I quickly began moving up and down as I rubbed us together. I saw Collen's face twisting into that of pleasure as he began groaning. I felt a smile come to my face as I moved faster and cried louder. Collen suddenly shook before letting out a loud groan and pulling my waist against him.

I felt him cum in me as my mind began to spin. "Collen," I gasped, "more!"

Collen quickly turned us over so that I was face down on the bed. He began thrusting into me as I gasped and moaned in ecstasy as he slammed into me passionately.

"Yes!" I cried as he stopped and began shaking as he came in me again. He laid on top of me as he was breathing hard.

I quickly turned to him as began crying, "Collen!" I cried, "It hurts! Help me! Please! I need more!" He quickly sat up and thrust into me again. I began panting as he continued slamming into me. After eight rounds, I finally passed out onto the bed.

I woke up the next evening as I felt pain overcome me. I began screaming as Collen and Luther ran into the room. "No!" I cried, "I don't want this! I don't want him!" I began hitting the bed and Collen when he tried to grab my hand.

"El, stop it! You are going to hurt yourself!"

"He will find me!" I cried as I shook harder than before. "I can't let him find me! Please, Collen, help me!"

I began screaming louder as it felt like I had ringing in my ears. Suddenly, the ringing stopped, and I felt as though I had no control of myself. I was linking to my primal instincts and had no way to escape. I tried to pull away from Collen with a growl. "El?"

"Let me go!" I yelled as I felt my eyes turn gold, "Who are you?"

"El, it's Collen. Please calm down."

"Get off me!" I screamed, "Padran!" Collen tried to cover my mouth and I bit his hand. As he recoiled, I shoved him away and got up. I shoved Luther away as he tried to grab me, "Padran! Padran!"

"Grab her!" Luther yelled as I saw Aaron and Cade in the office as I came into it. I spotted the door and ran towards it. I was tackled onto the ground and tried to fight my way to my feet.

"I need Padran! Padran is mine! I want Padran!" I shoved at the hands holding me, but many replaced it each time. "Padran! Please! Padran!"

I turned myself around and looked to Aaron, who held down my shoulder.

"Half-blood!" I felt myself surge with energy as I tackled him to the ground nearby. "He would love you! Too bad!" I leaned in to bite his neck but was yanked off him.

"Stop, Ellenor!" Collen yelled as he shoved me into the ground, "You ran from him! Don't call for him or you will lose everything!"

I suddenly heard the ringing in my ear and my mind become usable. I felt my eyes turn back as I started to shake, "Make it stop!" I cried, "Make it stop!"

Collen hugged me closely to him as I cried, "Take deep breaths." He insisted as I tried to do so. "You are stronger than the urge."

I doubled over as I cried harder, "It is too hard! I need him!" I wailed, "I don't want him, but I can't stop!"

"You can do this, El! You have done it for so long!"

I smacked the floor with my hands as I shot my head up to look at Collen, "I have never hurt you before! I have never run before! I have never attacked before!" I pulled my hands through my hair as it fell all over my face, "I've lost it! I've reached the end!"

Collen grabbed my arm, "You don't want him, Elenor! You left to be free of the pack! You can't give up now!"

"There are still two more days! If I'm already this bad, I may kill someone or run out!" I shook as I look to Luther, "Call Ty."

He quickly rushed to his feet and got his phone. "El wants to talk to you." He paused to listen, "Okay." He brought the phone to me. I grabbed it and put it to my ear as I tried not to scream.

"You need to leave town," I cried, "I'm giving up so they will be coming here."

"Put me on speaker! Now!" I hit the speaker button as I placed the phone on the ground in front of me, "Can you hear me?"

"Yes, we hear you Ty."

"Collen," Ty hissed, "what in the hell is going on?"

Collen sighed, "El is having a tough time and is talking crazy."

"It is not crazy!" I yelled, "I'm losing control! I hurt you, tried to run, and nearly killed someone!"

"Luther, is there anything you can give her?"

Luther shook his head, "I have already given her sedatives, and nothing is working."

"El, please," he said with a shaky voice, "I cannot live like this without you here."

"You have Luther, you will be fine." I said through cries.

"It is not the same! I love Luther, but I am your follower for eternity! I can't imagine being with the humans or the pack without you there!

I squeezed my hands against my chest, "This time makes three centuries of constant transformation," I whispered as everyone stared to me in shock, "My body can't take it anymore."

"Collen," Ty said softly, "I need you to keep her safe until her mind is back to normal. We will discuss what we plan to do after that." He sighed, "El, you can do this. Do whatever you have to, but do not leave. It is selfish, but I'm begging you not to leave me behind."

I pulled my legs against me, "I can't promise you."

"I know, but just try. I love you."

I took a deep breath, "I love you too."

Luther took the phone and hung it up. He sighed as he sat on the ground near me, "He needs you, El. We all need you."

I pulled Collen to me and he sat beside me. I leaned into his shoulder, "I'm sorry. I'm so sorry." I looked to Luther, "can you please help Collen's hand?" He nodded before getting up. I looked to Aaron, "This is why I do not want you near me when this happens." I leaned into Collen, "Those of us first made by the king have been known to attack and eat half-bloods during the main stage. I was worried that I would hurt you."

Luther came back and began to wrap Collen's hand but stopped when his beeper went off. He picked up his phone and called the number, "Yeah?" He asked before listening, "Alright, send them up." He hung up and looked to me sadly, "Jonathan and the kids are here to see you. They are on their way up in a few minutes."

I quickly wiped my face and stood up, "Everyone other than Luther needs to stay out of the room." I said as I slowly walked back to the bed. Luther hooked me up to the drip as I put the sheets over me and positioned myself on the bed. Luther left the room and I sat quietly listening.

The door opened as Lindsey ran in with Zach close behind, "Mommy!" they yelled as they hugged me. Lindsey crawled into the bed and sat in my lap as Zach sat on the side of the bed with my hand in his. Jonathan walked in with a sad smile as he put down a bag.

"Sorry it took so long for us to come here. I wanted to come alone so that it would be less stressful for you, but they insisted."

"Mommy!" Lindsey gasped as she looked to me, "I prayed for you to feel better all last night! Did it work?"