Back to the Past

"What up, nerdy bitch?" Was the first thing i heard as the Facetime got connected, I laughed.

"I have to be honest. I wasn't sure if you'd answer..." I confessed, she laughed with me and winked.

"Girl, I love you. I know being a Med student ain't easy. I know you've been locked up. What's up with you?".

What was up with me for 9 months? Nothing new.

"Oh, Deonne... I think I fucked up" I said crumbling down. "I don't know where I belong anymore, I've changed so much, I don't know if I even know myself".

Deonne has been my best friend since the first grade, we've done everything together. So inseparable, we even had to be prom queens together. I told Deonne EVERYTHING about my new, boring life, including my therapy.

"Is this the end, D? This is not the life I envisioned for myself. I wanted to travel. Maybe see art around the world, learn cultures, party in every way possible and between that... save lives and... at the time, it all seemed possible. What happened to me? I wanted a Challenge, something different and exciting".

"Why do you think this is the end?" She asked.

"I just don't see it anymore, Deonne. I don't feel myself".

Deonne and me were the most popular girls in school, everybody who wanted to be somebody had to deal with us. Although Deonne and I were soul sisters, we also had our squad; Aria, Raven, Jenny and Maria. We were known for many things, but the main thing were our epic parties with drugs, alcohol and tons of sex. The best part about our squad and parties? Everyone was invited. You could see Losers hooking up with hot, popular sluts, The jocks were acting Shakespeare drunk by the pool with the theatre kids, people explored their sexuality. We were all equal, happy and high because that's the power I had. I was nominated most likely to be the first woman president of the United States of America. loved by everyone, envied by many but hated by no one.

"You've changed, Nina. So what?"

"That's the thing! I-I.... I miss me. No, I don't miss high school, I don't miss prom nor the parties. I love being an adult but does this mean losing my fire and live on ice?! Oh, D, you know who we were, what we were, the power of choice and voice we had. I miss that part of me"

"Yeah, that was pretty awesome, right?" Said Deonne getting a little nostalgic. "Now that I think about it.... I haven't talked to Aria, Jenny, Maria or Raven for the last 3 years...." she added.

"... Should we call them?" I asked getting on my knees on my bed smiling wide.

"Now?! Out of nowhere? No, that'd be crazy" although her mouth was saying no, I could see the intensity fire up inside her eyes.

"So what?!? Fuck it" I said laughing, feeling hot and anxious.

"Fuck it" she said laughing out loud. She rang Aria and Maria, I called Raven and Jenny. Look at us, the 6 of us together again. It felt as if time didn't pass by, we were the exact same people who left high school together. We got all caught up with each other.

"I missed you guys so much" said Aria after the conversation got lost.

"I was thinking about all of the crazy things we did" commented Maria while Jenny sighed.

"Man... I thought I'd never see all of these people together again" Raven confessed and Jenny started to cry.

"Ya'll better not get lost now. My life has been so wild, so many things.... You guys need to be here, with me. Together." Said Jenny with tears falling down her cinnamon colored skin making her tears look like diamonds.

"I haven't been feeling like myself for the last 9 months and 5 hours talking with you girls, made me feel like me again" I confessed a little awkwardly.

Usually i'm the strongest one. I always know what to do, how to do it and when.

Deonne is the one with balls in the group. You want something done? Go to Deonne.

Maria is the peace maker. Problems at home? Maria is the one who will bring peace and happiness to the problem.

Raven is the one who knows someone that knows someone who knows Brad Pitt and gets you anything or any one.

Aria is the one you never suspect about anything. Going to do something sketchy? You send Aria and no one will even know.

Jenny the one you trust with the most important task because she will honor it.

"Karenina feeling down and not knowing what to do? World must be coming to an end" said Raven jokingly.

"I'm sorry you're through a rough time, but it makes me feel better. We're all lost here" confessed Jenny.

"Yeah. We all feel screwed up somehow" added Aria.

"We're not being our best version of ourselves. We're just getting by" I said.

"You know what we should do?!" Said Deonne opening her big dark eyes as big as her whole face. Deonne just had the best idea in the history of best ideas. Every single one of us got shocked, scared and anxious about what was going to come out of that mouth. "We should go to vegas" she said screaming like a 5 year old who's going to Disneyland. The 5 of us were shocked.

Is vegas going from a 0 to a 100 too quick?

Is it safe?

Will it work?

If it doesn't work, will it make everything worse?

No one made a sound, even mother nature decided to be quite. Birds stopped singing, you couldn't hear the trees nor the night.

"Yes" said Jenny with a straight pokerface. You couldn't tell if Jenny was joking, sad, mad, happy or confused.

"...I know someone who can get us a presidential suite at the Caesars Palace" said Raven.

"Girl, I am IN" added Aria.

"I'm to excited to talk. VEGAS WITH MY BITCHES" said Maria letting her head fall on her pillow like a Teenage girl who just got a text from her crush saying he likes her.

Everyone was in, Deonne had the idea, what could go wrong? Why would this be an error? ... Can't find any reason.

"Let's do this" I finally responded.

I felt a rush of fire cruising through my veins, I felt like the graphic description of a Adventure movie. I felt like I finally hit play on my life. But, why? I've never even liked Vegas, why was this important to me? Could it be because Vegas is full of possibilities? Am I risking my future for the feeling of possibilities?.