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after we left and visited Carrie who was thankfully okay I went home I hated this part of my day I had to go home to my miserable and expensive house with a family that wouldn't notice if I was gone and if I'm being completely honest this house never really felt like home it's just the roof that is put over my head that we try so desperately to make memories under but we never really did. I walked in and immediately wanted to throw up my dad was helping my sister with her homework sitting a bit too close for comfort and Cara was clearly uncomfortable and Colton Was basically having sex on the counter with yet another girl they were in a very heated and probably inappropriate make out session but when it comes to Colton there's no difference between the two I didn't bother saying hi and went straight to my room I started my homework and relaxed until mom called us down for dinner" guys dinners ready." my mom yelled I went downstairs trying my best not to look miserable my mom and dad and Colton were next to each other while me his new fling and Cara sat on the other side it was silent all you could hear were plates and forks scraping finally my dad decided to break the silence "so Colton how was your day heard you have a test coming up" "it was okay  but the test is optional so why waste my time with it " he said "okay whatever you think is best sweetie" mom said cheerfully I wasn't even surprised when she said that the test was not optional but nobody cared at all at this rate he was for sure going to fail the grade and my parents couldn't  give a damn its frustrating  honestly lord knows i couldn't say that if i wanted to . dinner went on like that asking questions and learning things about Colton's "girl" whose name is actually Jessica I feel kind of bad she's talking like they're going to get married but really  Colton is going to do to her what he's done to every other a simple pattern really "talk kiss fuck ditch " which all results in him getting more fame it's sad he can get any girl but never puts in the effort to keep them my parents were just about done with dinner when they finally decided to be the least bit concerned about me they turned to me and their faces dropped they didn't even try to hide it "so carter  your grades are dropping you have an 80 in maths it's unacceptable " my dad said disapproving look on his face "  I'm sorry dad I've been a bit stressed with sports but ill get it back up " " this is exactly why I don't go to your shitty games I don't want to hear anything about them in my damn house I don't know why we would make an effort for such a damn lazy piece of crap like you get your act together" he was practically yelling and had no shame in front of our guest " yes sir you wont hear anything about it" i almost whispered "carter me and your father have been talking and we don't you working or taking over the business I'm sorry but we feel your unfit and will slack your way through it and just tear us down" i couldn't respond to the comment the rest if dinner was silent and uncomfortable when dinner was over we said goodbye to jessica and i went straight to my room I was slightly used to the words  my father said he never really cared what I do with my life I've been called multiple things before it wasn't the first time this had happened and it wont be the last "Carter can i come in please " cara was at my door  and she was crying like nobody was watching " yeah what's up" she looked horrible in all honesty I feel more sorry for her than do myself but she also doesn't want anyone's pity and I praise her for that she's young but strong and that's about the only things I can praise my parents for they tear us apart so much we learn how to build up walls around us that gradually crumble instead of crashing to the ground but every price that gets taken away the more we ditererate the less stable we become and when that happens prepare for the worst my little sister is about to fall to the ground and I sure as hell want to be there when it happens but for now "what did the bitch say this time storm?" My storm is bruing and I'm prepared for her downpour