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Hello ik I didn't post for awhile I've rewriting this chapter for like a month I also its short and kinda a filler just to post something but hope you like it😅🥲and have a great book filled rest of your day

I wake up not even sure I fell asleep what cara told me last night sat on my heart and honestly I didn't know what to tell her I must have drifted off then but I guess I'll just think about it later I look over at the clock and nearly fell off my bed oh my gosh how could I let this happen we were all late my parents left and its my responsibility to wake everyone up and shit but it seems that I slept through my alarm. Which has never fucking happened before I'm not as much as concerned about Colton though he was probably gonna fail

the year but me and cara were my main concern we were never late or absent accept business trips where we still did class digitally instead I walk out of my foom and go to wake everyone up Colton s room was next to mine but I skipped thinking he maybe snuck out last night I heard some noises so my conscience said not to go in I just knocked a bit I went to caras and opened the door she was adorable when she was asleep and if anything happened to her I was done I pick out a decent outfit and wake her up I was now wondering what I should do for lunch and breakfast I told her we were late gave her a kiss on the cheek and knocked on Colton dorr one last time just incase he was in there I went down and made a light breakfast so she cod last until lunch and packed her a fair lunch for later I got her bookbag ready which I know she'll appreciate and wait for her to come down its been awhile so I decide I should get ready and maybe hang out with .u friends before school and the average person would ask why the fuck where you loosing your shit if you had time to spare that's just it I have time to spare but they don't I have always had the responsibility of getting everyone up and ready for the day even though I'm not the oldest and I have self taught myself everything I know I also have to find transportation and have it on stand by incase she missed the bus our parents rules of course after I'm ready I take the chance and check in on him and try to wake him Up as soon as I open the door I shut it knowing now just what those noises were fuck my life I was completely not mentally prepared for what I saw and for once happy I don't like girls when I closed the door I must have slammed it cause they were clearly awake i I don't think I sprinted as fast as I did in my entire fucking life i was horrified when I went to the kitchen cara had finished her breakfast I did her hair and she had called her friend to tell her she needed a ride so she was gone now the real fucking problem starts I have to leave this house before Colton and mystery girl see me I don't feel like his bullshit today and I'm already a mess I get my stuff and keys and I already texted Clay so him and carrie were on their way I stepped outside when I saw them"pretty eyes clay yelled i swear I hate this dude "come on there's always room for one more idiot"yet i love him so much i finally get in the car and were off to school "carrie?" "Yes hun,whats up?" I was really losing confidence and it weird I know she will be fine with it yet I'm still so unsure " I just wanted to tell you something but I'm sure just how exactly to put it cause its kinda weird and you'll freak out and have questions and I'm so fuckinv confused right now especially whether or not i should tell you but your kinda aware that I have something to tell you so if I don't tell you it will be super awkward and shit I'm rambling" I say why am I so fucking nervous about this "baby just tell me when your ready and if you are and your nervous there's nothing to worry about it will take a hell of alot to give up this relationship up okay " she's so sweet like the mother I will never have i took a deep breath and decided to man the he'll up for once-in-a-lifetime and tell her the long overdue truth " I'm gay very gay unbelievably gay and probably gonna give my mom an undeniable heart attack um...yeah thats it " I was getting very shy and and it was silent for a very long time which wasn't very pleasant on my part she wasn't surprised but she didn't look angry so I'm so confused and my life has almost completely gone to shit if she doesn't say something I might go mad I might actually do the one thing I've been wanting since I had common sense ,"please say something...I need you to say something " my voice comes out soft and quiet just above a whisper I'm in the back so I can only kind of see her if I try hard enough but I don't think I can look at her I'm ashamed and embarrassed and so out of place "carter can I ask you a question why were you so fucking nervous it offense me honestly I'm truly hurt i knew it I knew it I knew it you owe me twenty bucks clay I knew before you ha" she said big smile on her face she was one of the best friends ever and I hope I never lose her shes really kinda my rock along with clay and cara of course "hate to break it to ya but I knew before and you owe me he told.me the other day " they were clearly jo8 I hope but I rather not die this way so-"hey guys if you could not kill eachother that would be awesome thanks" horrible morning but a great rest of my day i love these two with my heart and soul and no one can tell me not to this might just be the best day ever