Chapter 12 - Take The Shot

I'm 5 minutes ways from my destination. Vick has been driving for 3 hours ignoring me which was fine with me. I look out the window, regretting the fight I had with Margo.

She was right, I was taking it out on Zain. Just him being in my life is not enough for me anymore, I miss Khar. It pains me knowing Margo has made a connection with Khar.

I'm jealous they have each other right now but I deserve it. I hurt him and I know he will never forgive me.

I didn't think I could feel such rage hearing her admit she could love him. How does he feel about her? Can I accept it if something happens between them.

"Out" Vick says as he parks the car into the rooftop of a parking lot.

I roll my eyes and get out the car as the cold breeze smacks me in the face.

He opens his trunk and pulls out the rifle tossing it in my arms. He walks back to the drivers side as he opens his door

"Wait where are you going"

He gets back in the car and rolls down the window "You thought I was staying to hold your hand? Don't fail agent"

He rolls up the window and speeds off. Rude motherfucker

The chills start flowing though my body. I press the Bluetooth in my air

"Margo?"

I hear her sigh on the other end "Mhm, your going to walk to the east end of the parking lot"

"Margo im sorry"

She continues to ignore me "You're going to see an apartment complex. Count 14 windows up on the right end. You'll find your target"

I roll my eyes at her attempt to ignore me

"Listen M. Sisters fight. But that's no excuse for what I said to you back there. I want you to know when I get back I'm going to hug the hell out of you until you forgive me"

I hear her chuckle "Your such a nerd"

"I wan't you to know if you have feelings for Khar and if he has feeling for you, I support it. I want nothing in the world then for my best friends to be happy and if you both are happy with each other than im happy for the both of you"

I meant every word but deep down it hurted like a bitch. I would have to learn to get use to it

"You mean that? She asks curiously

"I do"

She squeaks in excitement "Thank you!! I wouldn't be able to start something with him without knowing how you felt. Truth is I don't even know if something will happen between us. We are just friends but he makes me smile and I get all giddy. I really think I like him"

I force a smile and head towards the east corner of the garage "I'm so happy for you Margo"

"Thank you Alena but nothing is happening yet"

I can tell she's nervous which never happens

"M don't be nervous just talk to him"

"Are you sure about this. I don't want to put my heart on the line if you love him"

"No Margo. Go for it" I reassure her

"Are you sure because if you don't make a move I will take the chance . I don't want this to come between us"

"I told you already go for it"

My heart was disagreeing with me in every aspect

I start counting up the windows to find my target "I need you to help me through this. I can't do this without you"

"I got you boo" She says as we get interrupted by a voice we both despise

"Enough this isn't a therapy session. You both have a job to do. Alena eyes on the target"

I roll my eyes and locate the 14th window. I hold the sniper and look through the scope. I see Berkley sitting at a dinner table.

"Target located. He's on his laptop" I say, zooming in

"Good job agent, wait for my order to take the shot"

My palms are sweating, the sooner I get this over with, the closer I get to saving my dad.

"You okay Alena?" Margo asks concerned

"I'm okay"

He sighs as he blocks out her connection. How dare he

"Bring her back now!"

"I suggest you wait for my mark agent, are we going to have a problem"

I shake my head and keep eyes on Berkley "No"

"Good. You have permission to take the shot"

I aim my pointer towards his head. I rather take him out quick then have him suffer a painful death. Just as I'm ordered to pull the trigger, I notice kids running into room along with a woman.

"We have a problem. I can't engage" I lower the gun

"I gave you an order. Take the shot!" He yells, causing me to gasp

"This man has a family Gabriel im not going to take his life in front of his kids" I start walking away until I notice 3 red dots aiming at my chest. Of course he has his agents spying on me

"If you don't eliminate the target within the next 10 seconds I will kill your father and then my agents will have orders to kill you. You are a C level agent for Mercury Corp Now Act Like It! Take The Fucking Shot"

Tears flow down my face as I pick the gun back up. "Gabriel please don't make me do this. Not in front of his family. Im begging you"

"5 seconds" He demands

I set my aim back on Berkley as my hands start to shake. "Please" I plead

"1 second" he orders

I pull the trigger. Witnessing the moment I will regret for the rest of my life

.........

I bottle up my emotions and refuse to let myself feel. I never thought I could turn off my emotions so well. Even I surprised myself. I feel nothing.

As I enter Mercury Corp, everyone in the facility is clapping. Gabriel emerges from the crowd and walks up to me with a proud smile

"Agent Fields just eliminated one of our top enemies. I must say, I doubted you. But you made me proud tonight" He says handing me a shot of whisky

"Alena lets go" Margo says trying to take the whisky out my hand. I thought she would be the last one trying to prevent me from drinking

"You both are not going anywhere. This is your home now" Gabriel stands in front of Margo

"Look Gustav, Alena is out of it right now. Let us go home. We did our jobs. Let this be our reward to continue staying in our apartment. When the next mission comes up we will fly back here"

She tries to compromise with him. He glares at her for sarcastically changing his name . I ignore both of them and down my whiskey.

"I don't give a fuck where I stay. Just get me another shot of whiskey" I yell out, pushing both of them out the way.

Gabriel looks amoused as Margo tries to grab my arm

"Alena please stop"

I don't get far as Zain blocks my path. Instead of being mad I bring my lips against his, sliding my tongue against his.

I would let him take me if these idiots wasn't in here. He pulls back looking at me in concern "Alena lets go home okay"

I throw my hands in the air "Whatever, Gabriel let me know when the next mission is"

"You got it Agent Fields. It's good to finally see you release yourself" He says smiling as he looks towards Margo

"You may go. Just this once since my star agent made me proud tonight"

Margo rolls her eyes and goes to our rooms to grab our bags. Zain's eyes never leave mine. He has a worried look.

"Alena im sorry that you had to go through that. I should have been there to protect you "He whispers in my ear

"I am the top level agent of this company Zain. I can protect myself. Worry about your own ass"

He shakes his head and removes his hand from my waist as if I care. Margo comes back and looks between us "You two okay?"

"We are good. Lets go" He orders as he picks up the bags and heads for the elevator.

Margo tries to grab my hand but I pull away. They are being to damn needy right now.

I look back at Gabriel, He winks at me as we walk onto the elevator. I give him the finger as he starts laughing. The elevator closes with my best friend and some what boyfriend staring at me like I'm a demon from hell

.........

We arrive back at the shitty apartment. I don't know why it feels shitty to me all of a sudden. I throw my jacket on the floor and fall out onto the couch.

"Hey I'm home, just letting you know I made it in" Margo says smiling on the phone. She notices me looking at her stupid giddy look. She rushes onto the balcony and closes it for privacy. Like I give a fuck

"Alena don't put up this mask as if your okay and don't care about the world. You killed someone in front of his family. You need to let yourself feel to be able to deal with the pain and heal from it"

I look at Zain so annoyed with his rambling "How about you shut the fuck up?

He slams the bags on the ground as he towers over me on the couch

"How about you deal with your problems like a normal person! If I killed someone especially in front of children, you think I would keep that pain inside me locked up? You have to get it out or your going to loose yourself with grief"

Margo looks between both of us worried as she continues her conversation

"You think you know me so well don't you"

He nods, folding his arms. "I known you practically all your life. Your damn right I know you"

"Then if you know me, why the fuck wouldn't you think for a moment that since I moved here, I haven't called, texted, emailed, anything? Because I don't fucking love you. How many times have I told you that I wasn't ready. I said give me time to figure out my feelings. But No. You came here without talking to me first and pressuring me"

"Alena stop!" Margo says angry as she walks from the balcony

Tears fall from Zain's eyes as he tries to hurry up and wipe them. "It's okay Margo, she is hurting right now. She can't handle what just happened to her so she's directing her anger out on me"

Margo's eyes tear up seeing her bother in pain

"Forget it, I got nothing else to say, can you both do me a favor and get out my face" I ask as I walk over the the cabinet pulling out a bottle of Brandy

Knocks emerge on the door, causing Zain to distract himself by opening the door.

Khar is in the doorway, his eyes directing towards Margo. Zain moves aside as he walks in. Margo smiles wider as she runs up hugging him for dear life.

I notice his smile as his grip is tight around her. I roll my eyes ignoring them as I drink from the bottle. His eyes finally in my direction

"Alena?"

I ignore him.

He breaks his hug from Margo causing her smile to fall. He walks over to me

"Want a drink?" I ask taking another swig

He pulls the bottle from my grip and hands it Zain. He takes it as he gives Margo a weird look. Wait did he really just take my damn drink

"Alena what happened. Talk to me?"

I continue to ignore him. I don't even know why he's here after what I said to him. I know he wouldn't forgive me after everything I said to him.

He looks at Margo, then back at Zain hoping they will explain what's going on. But they know they can't reveal anything

He sighs and places his hands against my face "Alena talk to me. Please"

I avoid eye contact " I'm good Khar damn!"

He tries to pull my chin around to look at him but I yank away

"Look at me"

I shake my head as I try to push him away from me 'Stop I said I'm fine"

It feels like my walls are breaking. Tears are on the verge of falling. I can't feel this pain.

I push harder against his chest as he holds his grip on my shoulder. My back ends up against the wall

"Let go I said I'm fine" Unable to hold my wall up any longer, my tears erupt.

"Look at me Alena"

I give in and manage to look up into the eyes of the only man who can manage to break down my shield. He is definitely my world

He rubs the tears against my cheek. His eyes staring into mine filled with pain seeing me like this.

At that moment I broke down. I fall into his arms as I sob uncontrollably.

Everything I felt the moment I killed Berkley in front of his family. It all came back. Now I feel everything. Grief. Pain. Guilt. The full emotional process hits me like a wave

"I got you. I'm here Alena" he says as we slide onto the floor. He never lets me go.

He holds me tightly in his arms as I cry into his chest.

We lay against the wall on the floor for a long time as Margo and Zain look skeptical amongst each other trying to process what's happening in front of them

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what's going to happen between them next chapter!!! Does Khar really want to start something with Margo.

Can Alena finally handle her emotions.

Should Zain give up on a relationship with Alena

Thoughts on Gabriel?

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