Wish me luck!

To continue with the best friend theme. I told you that I have had one (or maybe still is) a friend that I would call a best friend. But I can't stop thinking that maybe I got it all wrong. What if I have become one of these people can't survive without any friends by my side. If that's so, I have that I have become depressed and here's why.

So yesterday I talked to this one girl that I meet recently on my way home and it turns out that she goes to my close friends English class. I feel like this new girl friend is great and she listens and has about the same interests as me and that makes out our conversations. But I feel like I can also talk to her about how I feel and stuff. How I have worries and stuff that I could never ever tell my parents. But what if I'm trusting her too much and I end up with another heartache. Trust issues is a thing! But it feels like we click and I would love to become closer friends in the future.

But let's get to the point. Maybe I'm overthinking but it feels like my once close friend is avoiding me and I haven't the slightest clue why. Today when I meet my close friend, I told her that the new girl has taken her place on Snapchat best friend list. Before, she would make a fuss about it and send me many messages and ask me if I want to hang or sleep over at her place or if I want to take another walk through the neighborhood at 20.00 or even later. But no! She just said "ok, I don't care"! And then walked away, leaving me standing there speechless. Who even says stuff like that?

I tried asking her if something happened or if I did something wrong but she just wave it away like it's nothing.

But that doesn't make things worse, my new classmates are all a bunch of bitches. They pretend to care but if something serious actually happened then they would be the first ones to run away. Well at least one of them is asking me how I feel and looks considered. But she hangs out with the bitch gang and that's just sad. If you're asking me why I don't go to others. That's because the others ignore me even more.

In this new school I have learned so many new things both about myself and the others around me.

I really love to dance and I desperately need a best friend. It's hard to survive without a friend that you can trust. But then I thought, can't you just get a boyfriend? It would be like 2 in 1. Get a boyfriend and a best friend at the same time. Maybe that's why I have always wanted a boyfriend. Ugh life sucks! There's more than 7 billion people on earth and there's no one that wants to become my boyfriend! But I should hold my head high and remember that I still have many years in front of me and my time will come, right?

I feel like I´m worrying too much about that, ugh yet once again.

Let´s change the subject now. I have naturally brown and quite long hair. It´s straight as a knife and I´m not such a fan of the straight part. As they usually say, girls with straight hair want to have cruelly hair but girls with cruelly hair wish to have straight. So I was browsing on snapchat this one time and suddenly I remember about one of the things that one of the 5-hacks for hair girl did. She put her hair in many small sections and sprayed some water on every. She then walked into her kitchen and got herself some colorful long, made of plastic straws. So I did the same. I had to sleep with straws in my hair and it was so hard to put my head on the pillow but somehow I manged and voila! I took out the straws and brushed my hair. My hair was fluffy and cruelly as if it had always been like that. I took out my orange red lipstick and put some on my lips. Mascara on check and fashionable clothes and I was ready to go.

Everyone of my classmates really looked at me and some said that I was pretty. And honestly I felt pretty and still do because my hair is still like that but not as perfect as it was at first.

Since I´m not writing every chapter the same day that the incidents that I write down happen, I usually write the day after or so. The hair thing and the close friend thing happened on Monday that means yesterday.

Well I would love to write more but I´m afraid that it´s getting rather late now and I have a health theory test tomorrow at school. So bye!!!