Already attracted

You know the moment when you see this person and you think "he's hot" (or she if you're into girls). I would like to say that I'm 100% straight but that would be a lie. Actually no one is 100% straight and every person is at least a little bit bisexual. If of course you already know that you're homosexual. But my preference is boys (I'm a girl). So one of my new friends in my new school has many friends from different classes and many of them are girls that have about the same free periods as our class has but we are mostly with these particular 2 other girls. Let's call them girl A and girl B, they are from the same class. But the point is that this last Wednesday, me and my new friends had one long free period while girl A and girl B had math instead. We, the small annoying girls that we are, we went to where they had their math lesson and looked trough the door that's made out of glass and stood there, looking for our friends. I was standing in the most visible place next to the door and almost everyone could see me. But this one guy kept looking my way and when I looked at him he kept looking away. But then I caught him looking at me and I waved at him. He looked me directly into the eyes and gave me this bright but shy smile. I could see a hint of blush but maybe it was only me imagination. I basically can't stop thinking about this exact moment these last 4 days. Thanks to girl B who found his Instagram, I know that he's social and funny. He's into music and was in a musical class. He goes to church sometimes and he's nice. AND did I mention that he's also hot. He's basically my ideal type. Not that I would mind dating someone ugly, the hotness is only a plus.

I'm not a goddess like pretty but I don't think that I'm so bad looking. I have acne but not so bad anymore. People usually compliment my eyes, mouth, nose and sometimes my hair. I have the hourglass body type and it says that it's the most sexy body type. But I'm kinda curvy and I also have fat where I would prefer that I didn't have. But about my facial compliments, I don't get these compliments often but I like to think that I don't need them to boost my confidence. I should have plenty enough by myself.

But back to about the guy. Do you think that I should go for it? What if it's awkward? Or what if he's already taken and I would only be a burden for him? All kinds of what ifs are running around in my mind but I still have this slim hope that maybe I still have a chance. But truth be told, I haven't even spoken to him once! How could he remember me at all? Ugh I'm not that desperate!

But to change the subject, how do you get better at studying? I have had this question for years. You can study and study how it best suits you but what's the smartest way to do it? I have asked all my classmates and all my teachers and even my parents and other people in my family that wouldn't laugh at my question but everyone says that it's about practice. But how can you get better if you do basically the same thing every single time without change. It's getting boring and not smart at all. Instead of being annoying with studying, should you be enjoying to study and learn new things that may interest you? But all that I can think about is how I wish that I can finally finish and can go back to watching my favorite series and re watch my favorite older series. The upcoming test is bothering me but I hope that I would fail. Well wish me luck because I wish it to you!

Hopefully see you at my next chapter!