MelanieLover

So i know that people will mostly ignore if they think that some diaries, just because there’s nothing interesting in the title, will totally ignore reading but what if. What if there is someone out there who has a lot to say. 

So here I am, typing down whatever comes to my mind and not caring the slightest about what everyone will think about me but only here, where I can stay anonymously. Because we all know how much of a chicken we all are out there in the real life. 

So basically I’m still a teen, a teen who doesn’t recognize the meaning in life. The unspoken world where everyone is trying so hard to fit in. What are we? And what if every step in our life weights so much on our shoulders that lastly you can’t stand it anymore and with a light movement you can end it all. Well if you think that I’m a depressed teenager who is doing drugs and I’m outside drinking with a gang where everyone’s a slut and are getting wasted, then you’re wrong! 

So now I’m here with all my bubbled up emotions that I can’t say to anyone but myself. So stay tuned because I’m about to bring out some attitude and fricking shit into everyone that’s reading whatever the heck this is!


Update: hopefully everyday :)

Diary of a basic teenage girl

Welcome back and blah blah blah. I thought that the title of the chapter should be a little dramatic this time with 'The app' because recently I did find an odd app. It's this app where you have a campus to take care of. You have to higher your stats and buy stuff to make yourself more OG. It was cool a first. You can also join clubs and chat with different people globally. You have to also make friends and I got many in app friends for the tasks that you have to do. It was cool, they asked at first privately about my age and my name and where I'm from. I thought like why not, that it's normal. But after 3 sec they be like 'you want to send nudes on snap?'. WTF! Seriously, everyone there wants to roll play dirty and similar stuff. From all my about 400 friends only about 5 can I ordinarily ask questions that aren't related to anything sexual. Like come on! I thought that it was a game app and not a second Tinder. 


My 9 year old cousin wanted to download the app at first but I thought about downloading it before she could and boom I'm happy that my cousin can stay innocent for some time more. Don't these people realize that they may have talked to someone that isn't 20 yet. 


Apparently it's also a code to come from India. The world is so big and even if India is a big country there's still many more countries but the majority of the app gamers come from India. I always lie about my name, age and country so maybe they could also be lying about all that but it's kinda weird that almost everyone there comes from India while the app is global. There's also no 18+ tag on the app so if a child would be wanting to download the app, it could! 


Another thingy that worries me right now is that I can choose if I want to continue with this one course in school that I dislike. The problem is that I have been fighting against it for high grades when I didn't want it and now when I have the chance to take it down from my schedule, I can't bring myself to do it. I thought that it would be super easy but no, instead I'm all bothered about it. I have one more week to decide if I want it or not. I honestly have no idea what I should do. I have also made a list of pros and cons but they are so balanced that it makes me more bothered to think about. It honestly sounds a little bit silly but it can be a real problem sometimes! The choices we make can raise us up or bring us down. 


Do you also know the feeling of having to do this one thing but you put it to the absolute last minute and then just end up not doing it because you think that you don't need to do it anymore? I know that fully well! I had this math test today and I knew that I had to study for it but at the last minute I just called my friend over to my place and she helped me cheating. We had to do the test online on this app while we had to log into google meet with our phones. My friend is very good at math and so she just bend down to see my screen at this one side that the teacher could not see and helped me with the test. I know that it's bad to cheat but when it comes to it, sometimes you have to do it to make up for your laziness. If I haven't said it already, I hate math! I tend to understand the question and know how to solve it but when I do, I end up with a whole different answer. I have never been good at math and will probably never will be, but it's ok. My other grades are making up for it. My classmates are a whole different story though. They seem to love math and every last one of them is going to continue with math instead of quitting how I'm going to do. 


I feel kinda left out! Hahaha I hope that I don't fall behind! For now I should say goodnight! See y'a!  
