Not Lying But Not Saying The Full Truth

{ Lu perspective } I opened my eyes and for some reason, there was a pretty girl sitting on a seat in the corner watching me. Where am I? How is such a pretty girl in the same room as me? Who is she? What's going on? I started looking around because I was nervous looking into her eyes but also confused. She seemed to noticed and said," isn't it obvious your in the hospital." With that, I  suddenly recalled the time before I was unconscious. I thought it was a dream but the pain was just a reminder that it wasn't. At this point, I was questioning whether I was alive or not and just thinking of my life choices.

Am I a cat, why does it seem like I have nine lives? I was in pain but it almost went away just by seeing how beautiful the girl in the room was. She has blonde hair. It's not too short or too long. She has light brown eyes and wears earrings and has a nose piercing. Her style of clothes was like if she was living in the '90s. I'm not a shy person and I don't get embarrassed but somehow with her, it's different. I haven't even been around her for more than two minutes why would she make such an impact? It's not as if I like her. No one can like someone that quick. { Xian's perspective } Looking into his eyes, uhhhhhh, how can someone feel this by just looking at someone's eyes? Stop get your shit together your not like this he's just a pretty boy. Whatever I'll let it pass. Why is he looking around? I think he's confused about where he was. I finally had the courage to talk and said, " isn't it obvious your in the hospital?" He doesn't change his facial expressions.

Huh? I've never met anyone who didn't. Maybe meeting him wasn't so bad after all my life's boring and he seems mysterious which makes it interesting. Now that I think about how am I gonna do this? I'm the one who helps with the bills I don't have money what am I gonna do? Maybe I can check if the insurance can cover it or at least half even though it's going to be expensive. I'm most likely gonna have to work in two jobs. Guess I'll just figure that out later. It seemed as if we both stopped thinking and were about to say something at the same time.

You can go first you must have many questions since you just woke up. "Why were you going to jump off?" Why did you push me? Hahaha, I wasn't going to jump off. Do I look suicidal to you? I pushed you off because that was a reflex since you grabbed me. I thought you were someone I knew. He started off by replying, looking suicidal is there even a specific look? I thought you were to close to the edge it looked like if you were going to take a step forward. I'm not gonna lie but I'm not gonna say all the truth and said, " yes I was on the edge but it wasn't what it looked like. I recently moved nearby and I was looking for a good view and that was the only one I found so I went for it.

Xian started thinking to herself, why would I tell a stranger my private life? I can't just openly tell people what happened. I can't tell Lu that I was looking at the view and lifted my leg while thinking of how it felt to commit suicide. Life wouldn't change for anyone else if I wasn't around the only one whose life it would change was mine it would end my suffering quick and just end there. It would suddenly all be easy. No one would find me in time and I would already be gone. He would just think it was all pathetic. And for as to why I reacted that way I won't make the mistake in letting anyone else know about that again. I learned from the first time. They didn't even believe me so why would a stranger be any different in this situation.