"Lesson to be Learned"

You say you wish I was dead

And later I know you regret what you said

I try not to let it effect me

Outside I'm strong, inside I'm hurting

I mean it's not as bad when it's just "i wish you dead"

I don't let such idle words go to my head

But when you describe how you want me to die

That shit hurts deep down on the inside

Say you want to slit my throat

Or cut my head off, pure rage is shown

I didn't do anything wrong

I just turned the TV on

Your words get so damn violent

Thus I mostly just stay silent

grab a knife in your hand give it to me a clear message to send

you say take this knife and kill yourself I want your life to end

I'd be lying if I said part of me doesn't want to comply

Each time you say such a thing I want the same I want to die

In the moment you try to hurt me anything to satisfy

The rage in your mind turning your eyes red no need to try

Grab a pencil anything nearby and you try to stab me in the thigh

after you calm down you feel ashamed won't look me in the eye

One day everything will change when I finally give up

Cuz one day I won't have the strength, one day I'll have enough

You'll throw the scissors, hammer, or knife at my body intent to kill

But at that point I'd rather die, wondering how it'll feel

I know you regret what you did, and cops will be stern

But sometimes you have to make mistakes for lessons to be learned