Chapter 2 Inside My Head

This is all started in year 2019 probably around the beginning of the month nor in the first half of the month.

I been dreaming a lot of strange things like remembering my old self or past dream that I already dream of. Then one day when I was dreaming, It felt like I can control my body or the flow of the story in my dream and I think of it that it was normal so I just ignore it then suddenly I got curious if it was really a normal thing so I search through internet my throughout my case. I found some article about lucid dream according to them if you can control your dream then you are a "Lucid Dreamer" then I realized that I was one of the "Lucid Dreamer".

The other day my friend of mine told me about "Sleep Paralysis". Sleep paralysis is a person who can't move after he/she woke up (TLN This definition of sleep paralysis is mine¯\_(ツ)_/¯). But I haven't experienced sleep paralysis so I don't know much about it and even what it feels like but he also told me that it was so scary when you experience that kind of dream. I really have no idea of sleep paralysis and what it is all about because I haven't experienced it even once.

Then one Night (TLN First Night of my experience) I had a dream, it was not actually a dream, It was a "Nightmare" (TLN Nightmare is A Dream that frightens a sleeping person) In that dream it didn't start as a nightmare it starts with a normal one (TLN I don't know if it's considered as a normal when you are chased by a dog) when I been trying to run away from a dog I tried to climb a tree and other stuff so that he can't catch up but running was so difficult (TLN because I'm a lucid dreamer I think my movement's was limited) I had a hard time just to get away from a dog and suddenly a bus stop in front of me so I just jump in without thinking the good thing is the dog didn't chase me but the bad thing was going to happen from that moment.

It feels like an hour before the bus stop and I just sit comfortably on my chair. Then suddenly a couple got in, and when they both sit on the opposite side of the bus they started to fight. I feel irritated so I decided to jump in their conversation when I'm about to touch her shoulder because they can't hear me the bus suddenly stop and the lights are blinking I don't know what is happening in that moment and the girl touch my hand when I saw her face I got shocked because she doesn't have any eye ball's, she also don't have a lips, and a nose. I was so afraid that time that I can't think of anything I don't know what to do so I just close my eyes and desperately hoping that she's gone.

I woke up from that Nightmare and I checked the time on my phone it was in the middle of the night. But I can't sleep again because I think that I'm going back in there if I close my eyes. Looking in my phone to make my mind calm and get away from those thing's (TLN I'm afraid of Ghost (*﹏*;) ) It feels like an hour after that and I'm drowsy then I fall as sleep (TLN Thank God nothing's happened that time).