FlashBack - The Other World (2)

Flashback cont…

(Her Point of View)

I found myself in a weird place. It felt distorted like a dream. The flow of time seemed disturbed. There was an eternity in a moment. The foreboding feeling it gave off was suffocating. My instincts were telling me to run away from whatever it is that is inside; but, my brain seemed to say 'there is more to it than what meets the eye' so I calmed my heart and listened. Amid the nightmarish soul-shaking fear-inducing wails there was a sound of anguish. The same wail we make when words fall to explain the overwhelming deep pain we are bearing; and threatens to choke us up. I felt pity for whatever was inside. I was often told to stay away from dangerous things. They would tell me that one day my curiosity would kill me. Those warnings echoed inside my head as I took step after step across the stairs that seemed to be suspended in nothingness. I entered the arch-like building where the devastating wails increased in volume. I felt the anguish; pain and sorrow materialize before me. The feeling was out of this world. It was cold, devoid of any warmth, seemingly to have given up on the warmth of love. My heart constricted as I began to sympathize with these emotions. I felt suffocated; the hopeless feeling of trying to grasp unto something desperately but only to be an illusion. To say I was not scared would be a lie. My back was drenched in sweat, my legs and hands would not stop shaking. My spine was shivering, but something told me…whatever was inside needed my help. And so I opened my mouth and took a large breath and hummed a song my mom would hum me to sleep. I hummed for what felt like hours until the emotions of that place stopped their turbulent movements.

I then asked whatever was hiding there "do you wish for it to simply just go away?"

And it replied "if you will it, you can take away my pain but at a sacrifice" before it continued any further, I said without any hesitation that I would take away its pain. At that moment I felt something tick into place. The world began to swirl around me. Time seemed to have stopped at the same time, it seemed to ran way faster than normal. I felt like a vacuum bringing everything towards me. The pain hit. It was indescribable. My nerves were overridden with pain. All sorts of unimaginable pain were at my disposal. I thought I was going to die. I did not know that to remove that entity's pain was to bear it in its place. As the emotions gathered into me, so did the nerve-wracking pain in me increase, I did not like the pain. I wanted to erase it all. In fact, I wanted to erase it from this whole world. Wipe its existence entirely. The emotions completely gathered in me. Without an outlet, they grew and grew. And from these emotions, I felt great power but my nerves were numb. What was the point of all this? How could such anguish exist in this world? Who gave it a right to exist? As I sank deeper in my thoughts my body and soul began to attract and call upon all manner of anguish, sorrow, pain from all over the world. All manner of negative emotions began to swirl to me. I absorbed them all in, without any reservations. 'Nobody deserves to feel like this" I thought, so I ate them all up till I could not take them up anymore…not because I had enough but because there was nothing else to take in. I became the perfect vessel for all the negative energy inhabiting that world. So I guess I did cleanse the world in some way. But the savior I was, became the embodiment of all that is evil. I can't help but wonder what would have happened if I had just ignored it all instead of playing a hero. To help and to save, is pain and responsibility that a hero bears willingly…I bet nobody will ever tell you that

Unbeknown to me somewhere in the myriad realms it was recorded:

"A normal student bored out of their wits

steps into a forbidden world

to kill their boredom,

only to find herself doomed for eternity.

Her despair becomes the sacrifice

for the beginning of recreation.

She managed to save the world

but who will save her?"

After that event, I entered some sort of deep sleep…a hibernation if you will it. A voice whispered to me. "Though you have become evil itself you still deserve redemption. Go find it, with yourself anew…" and then everything went blanc

To everyone I knew, I had died from sleeping pills overdose

(Overseer): But you should know, all this will be forgotten for the greater good.

(End of Flash Back)

After what seemed like forever I woke up in what seemed like a battlefield of some sorts.