Chapter 13: Heartbreaks

I was ten when I experienced my first heartbreak. It was Sunday and should be our family bonding day. We all woke up early in the morning to have picnic beside the river. Mom and Dad always tells me that the river was memorable for them. They said all their huge decisions was made in there. And it was time to tell me their biggest secret so, they would like to do it in there. Well, I don't really get what the secret could be but I thought picnic is fun.

We are having a good time, then suddenly, Mom clutched her chest. She's having difficulty breathing and fell down. She looks like she's in so much pain. Dad and I never expected that mom would suddenly break down, she's very healthy. So, we hurriedly took her to the hospital. Worried that she might die.

The river was far from the town. It took us almost two hours to reach Dr. Lee's hospital. It was too long that I wish I have wings and could fly. During the whole trip Mom was unconscious. I tried to wake her up but she��s unresponsive. I placed her head in my little shoulders and hugged her. I was crying so much that everything was blurry. 'Mom please don't die' I pleaded silently.

I cannot remember anything that happened after that. The next thing I knew was, dad was crying beside Mom's hospital bed. He was holding her hand and kissing it. When I saw that my mind went 'boom'. 'No! she's not dead, right?' I thought.

I suddenly can't feel my legs and fell down. Dad looked back and saw me on the floor. He stood to pick me up from the cold floor. He hugged me tightly while sobbing in tears.

"Dad? Mom's okay right?" I asked in between my sobs.

"Yes, she will be fine. Don't worry baby. Mom is strong. She will be fine" he comforted.

After that, Mom got better. She was discharged from the hospital after a month. However, the doctor said that she cannot do rigorous work anymore and needs a long bed rest. At that moment, I decided that I will do all the things that Mom do at home and I will do better at school to make her happy.

But things did not go the way I expected. Mom got worse and has been coming in and out of the hospital. I tried to ask Dad about her but he will only look at me smiling and say "She's alright". I know she's not because I can see the sadness behind his smiles.

Then every night, I would silently cry in my room like an animal licking its own wounds. My classmates would treat me with compassion but all I can see is pity.

Then my second heartbreak came.