Dreamland

Energy also has to deal with emotions as well. Well id be damned if i let lindsey end up with her life taken away this early as mine was. She deserves to live as much as she went through. I just wish i could completely free her from jake. I wish i could tell everyone im still with 'em i said trying hard not to cry. Derek looked at me and said there is a way; but it requires a lot of energy. I'll teach you a while to master it though. Really! Let's get started now! I said excitedly. I was so happy i actually hugged derek. To my surprise he hugged me back. Derek broke the hug and had a disappointed look on his face. In order to do this you need most of your energy and all your attention. Okay well what exactly do i have to do i said. Thinking i'd have to do something amazingly powerful. My smile faded when he said haunting dreams. Seriously haunting peoples dreams that sounds kinda cliche'. Yes but once you master dreams you can haunt in the physical world. So here's what we'll do pick someone and tonight we'll practice. Okay i pick justin. Now all day you have to lay here and relax. Even though you have slept an entire day we need for you to have as much energy as you can get. I look at my alarm clock ugh it's only 9 a.m. Well have fun laying here all day. WAIT! I yelled before derek could leave. Where are you going? Well mom i'm going to my version. We're in your version dork. Look again derek said with a sexy smirk starting to fade out. How the heck did he send me to my version without me knowing? Um get your butt over here and keep me company or I won't be able to stay here all day. Ugh fine derek appears. Oh stop your complaining you'll be fine i said. Derek and i talked all morning. We talked about the basics movies,music,school, food,even celebrity crushes. Derek, I said what do you think crossing over is like? I'm not sure libby i only know of one of my loved ones dying. My grandma i was very close to her and the big man let me meet her at the gate. By the way there's no actual gate i was transported and before i knew it my grandma popped up. The first thing when my grandma does when she sees me is slaps me across the face and says derek paul davidson. Because of the way i died. Man did the big man let me feel that one. Rubbing my face grandma grabbed and hugged me. Im man enough to admit i cried like a baby holding on to my grandma. Out of everybody she's the one i missed the most. After letting me have it for like ten minutes she gave me a kiss on the cheek and told me she loved me and to be good. Then said something about a beautiful light looked up and she was gone and once again i was alone. I could see the tears in derek's eyes; but being a manly man he dismissed it and said i guess that was grams unfinished business was to tell me off about the way i left the world. Every once in a while the boss lets me go and check on my family. That's another punishment i can see all living except my family unless boss gives the okay. I guess the same goes for when they die. There was a long silence between us. Then he spoke up again the way I died was bad but i wasn't a bad or evil person; leading up to my death I took my family for granted. Now i pay the price for it everyday. I miss my baby sister's laugh and mom telling me she loves me. I saw the true loneliness in his eyes. For some reason i started to cry. Derek looks over at me my lord you're such a girl. Im fine im used to it by now. Plus like i said i get to check up on em every once in a while. His remark made me smile you can be a butt sometimes ya know. His response shocked me a bit. Ehh like i said you'll fall for my charm eventually they all do he had that sexy smirk on his face. That made me blush. He was so attractive okay the most gorgeous guy I've ever met and his baggy clothes attracted me even more to him. I couldn't help but think what if we did go to school together. Maybe him and i would have been together instead of jason and i. It doesn't really matter though his time is different then mine. I mean his time isnt way before mine but if he didn't die at 17 he'd probably be married and have kids by now. For some reason that thought annoyed me and i have no idea why. Well since you're in your own little world ima leave you to your thoughts for a bit and go to my own room. Before i could protest dad burst into my room. All i said was okay and let him go I'll see you later. Dad laid right on top of me on the bed. He got on his phone and put on one of my favorite songs. We both start singing along. Of course dad is singer off pitch and very off key. I couldn't help but burst out laughing until dad burst into tears. Oh daddy i wish i could hold you and tell you everything is alright. As if he could feel my presence he said baby i feel something bad has happened to you and i'm so sorry I wasn't there to protect you. Daddy its not your fault i should have left jason a long time ago. You're the most amazing dad and i love you. Now im ugly crying. I couldn't handle it so i went to the first place i could think of derek's room. I cleared my throat. Derek looked up at me jumped up didn't say anything and hugged me. I just sat there and cried into him and he let me. I finally wiped my face on his shirt. Derek my family is never gonna know what happened to me. What is the thing you want most? Derek asked. I think that's obvious dont you i said. I want jason to confess and rot in hell for everything he did to me. Alright then that's what's going to happen no offense but i don't want to end up in hell for failing to cross you over. I'd love nothing more then to be reunited with my family someday. So trust my dear when i say you're going to get your justice you can bet your ass you're gonna get it. I hear the sadness in his voice. I want him to be with his family as much as i want my murder solved. I try to lighten the mood by suggesting to go and something instead of just laying here. You missy are supposed to be relaxing derek said rejecting my idea. Why don't you go relax in you room and i'll come and get you when it's time to go to justin's. Um okay thing I guess I'll see you later. I quickly fade out. I don't know why his rejection hurt as much as it did. I'm not sure if its from being overly emotional from being dead or the fact the only person that i can see and talked to just turned me away. I told myself im being over dramatic he probably wants some time to himself and clear his head. I shouldn't be this upset it's not like he's my boyfriend he's not completely obligated to spend time with me.