Fears and I Love You's

Avery's P.O.V

I woke up, smiling to myself when I see Hailey curled in close to me. Both still completely naked from last night. I reached down, stroking her, making sure not to wake her. I knew she would be exhausted and sore from last night...and what a night it was. I looked down, sighing. I was crazy about this girl. I was head over heels for her but at the same time, I was terrified. She can do better than someone like me. I worry that the guy she deserves will show up and I will need to let her go. Till then I will just need to try my best to hold onto her. I leaned down, placing a soft kiss on her forehead. She groaned, smiling, never woke though. I slowly slid from her hold, creeping out of the bed. I put some clothes on and sneaked through the house to the balcony. I took a deep breath as the cool air hit my body. I leaned on the banister, looking at the view, smiling to myself. I got lost in my own head, going through a list of how I'm going to screw this up. How I'm gonna lose her. I know I should not be doing that, but I can't help it.

"Avery, you okay?" I heard Carly's voice behind me.

I shrugged, not looking at her, she soon appeared by my side. I turned to face her. She saw right through me.

"Don't you dare Avery, do not start thinking you are gonna mess all this up, and don't you dare push her away because you are scared." She said.

The girl can read me like a book.

"Trust me I am trying not to do that...be that guy." I groaned annoyed at myself.

"What has got you thinking this way?" She asked, placing her hand over mine.

"I told her I love her last night," I said a small smile finding its way onto my lips.

"What took you so long? You have been in love with her for week's dude." She giggled, making me relax a little.

"Have not," I replied.

"Yes, you have. I can read you like a book dude you should know that by now. Why after telling her that you feel like this?" She asked.

"Because being with someone and being in love with someone is quite different. I told her I love her which I really do. I took everything from her last night. Now when I mess this up it is gonna hurt her even more." I replied running my hands through my hair.

Carly turned to face me, glaring at me, wriggling her finger in my face with a serious look on her face.

"You ARE NOT gonna mess this up, Avery. If you keep thinking that way you will. Avery, she loves you." Carly said.

"But she can do better than someone like me." I sighed.

"That is bullshit and you know it. Hailey chooses to stick around even when you were being a jackass. She loves you and not once has she tried or asked you to change. You are scared of breaking her heart, but I really think you are scared she is gonna break yours. You know if she did it would destroy you. Well, guess what she is not. How about instead of concentrating on all that you concentrate on her...on your relationship with her. Avery you and Hailey will be fine." Carly said smiling.

"Hopefully. Thank you." I said pulling her into my chest, hugging her and kissing the top of her head, pulling apart after a moment.

I felt a little better after talking with Carly, she always made me feel better.

"How was last night,: She smirked.

"Amazing. Though I think I woke something inside of her." I smirked, chuckling.

"Too much information dude." She giggled, "Then tell me why you out here feeling sorry for yourself when your very beautiful girl is in bed herself?" Carly smirked.

"Yes, you have a point there." I laughed, the two of us heading back in, heading our separate ways.

Hailey was still sleeping when I arrived. I stripped back down, climbing in next to her again. She woke as I pulled her close.

"Where did you go?" She pouted tiredly.

"Needed some air." I smiled stroking her cheek.

"You okay?" She asked a little worried.

"Yeah just getting lost in my own head," I said sighing.

"What's going on in that head of yours?" She asked resting her chin on my chest looking up at me.

"Don't worry about it kitten...silly thoughts. Carly talked some sense into me." I smiled.

"Avery Freeman." She said sternly.

I chuckled as to how serious she looked and soon stopped when she gave me a small glare.

"I am just worrying that I am gonna mess this up, Hailey. You deserve better than me." I said annoyed at myself for these thoughts.

She shifted herself, climbing on top of me.

"You need to get those thoughts out of your head. You are not gonna mess this up. And I do not want anyone else except you. Now please stop thinking that way because it makes me sad you think so little of yourself." She said resting her forehead against mine.

I nodded but she never looked convinced. Am I not meant to be the one reassuring her not the other way around?

"I love you Avery, no one else. Got it?" She said the last part firmly.

"Yes, Ma'am." I chuckled, making her giggle.

"Now shut up and kiss me." She demanded, giggling.

"I love you too. You don't need to ask me twice." I said pushing her onto her back, climbing on top of her, kissing her sweetly.

She smiled into my lips, her arms wrapping tightly around me. I gripped her hips, pressing myself against her, making her giggle. She rolled herself up against me, moaning.

"Would you like anything?" I smirked.

"I thought by the feel of it you wanted something. But yes, I want you...now get a move on." She smirked.

I chuckled, enjoying her confidence and playfulness. I did as she asked, sliding into her, making us both cry out.

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I fell against her, both of us panting loudly. I nuzzled her neck.

"I think I have awoken a tiger in you, kitten," I mumbled against her skin.

"Don't know what you mean." She giggled.

I chuckled lifting my head to look down at her, pecking her lips before rolling off her, Hailey whimpering as the lost of contact came between us. She rested her head on my chest. Her fingertips tracing my stomach and chest.

"Do we need to go back home...back to school?" She pouted up at me.

"How about we just vanish somewhere. No school. No hassle...just you and I?" I chuckled.

"Nice idea." She giggled, kissing my chest.

"Hey, I am up for it if you are," I smirked.

"Maybe another time." She giggled.

"Just tell me when and where and I will be there baby," I said kissing the top of her head.

I would happily disappear with her...no school...no drama...no Joshua...no worries. I think I am getting ahead of myself. I sighed, louder than I meant to, Hailey stirring, sitting up next to me.

"Avery, what is going on?" She asked.

"Nothing. I was daydreaming, that's all...promise." I smiled at her.

"About?" She giggled.

"Running away." I chuckled.

She laughed, shaking her head at me. "Don't do that unless you take me with." She added winking at me.

"Well duh! Do you think I would leave you behind with those assholes we go to school with?" I laughed.

"Okay well, you can go back to daydreaming then." She laughed.

I nodded, laying down, pulling her onto my body again, Hailey snuggling up to my side.

"Let's get some more sleep since you kept me up half the night." She giggled.

"Me? You were the one that woke me up twice during the night." I laughed.

"Yeah...yeah if you say so." She giggled, "Now shhh...need some sleep. Love you." She whispered.

"Okay...okay I love you too, kitten," I whispered back.

I was still not used to saying those words and meaning it. I have used them before but that was only to get what I wanted which I know was cruel of me but saying them to her, I meant every word of it. I closed my eyes, a smile on my lips, Hailey soon dozing. I soon followed.

Maybe this will work out.