34- painful path

Lando----

It was not long after the night. I could feel her life struggle through me. It hurt and i couldnt find a way to ease the pain.

She laid there in the hospital bed, the now have her on full life support, she is now dead but her body had yet to pass.

I come everyday and told the doctor about the possible poisoning that might have helped him.

I couldnt tell him about our blood. I missed her talking to me.

'Hello sir, Mr.maitsoh is here and i have to speak to both of you while i have a chance." Doc said as he now regularly checks in on B to make sure all her plug ins are working properly.

"Sure doc" nodding to his request. B's father also walks in an his look is more defeated than mine. He might be dealing with more than her death. If i felt it im sure her whole family is dealing with the same pain i felt that night.

"Okay so during the examination we found a faint heart beat..." both mine and her fathers eye darted directly at the doctor"... what im trying to say is she's pregnant and has been for almost 6 weeks, my concern is her state of being, if her body can sustain..."

"... wait wait doc hold on, she pregnant?" Im also struck with shock but mr.maitsoh is more suprised

"Yes sir, and as i said in her condition. Im not sure if she will carry the child to full term, our only option is to wait and see how far her body can carry this child, we'll be luck if she goes full term but whats my concern is, is the birth..." he pauses for a moment and leans back onto the table behind him for support, taking his glasses off and giving a heartfelt sigh, "...in the best case senario the baby will live and we can perform cesarean delivery, but the baby has to meet six months if not more." At this moment i look at b and she still has no smell, the baby is to small and might not carry the gene thats why i cant smell it either.

MR. Maitsoh is by all means not in the neat state but hes got a glint of hope and i wish is wasnt in this case.

"Mr.maitsoh shes your daughter this decision is up to you now.." i turn to B and feel the a tear slide down my cheek as my eyes start to sing from the pressure.

"She always been tough doc, if she still there even a little, she'd want this child to live. Make it happen doc!" She resolute look in his eyes as he finished his sentence made it hard for me to stay in the room, we both know the consequence is this decision, i know he's right and i cant argue his choice. As i turn and leave i can feel a withdraw, a depression forcing itself to take over my body then i realize... baby??

NIE----------

Its been five months since i shifted on the night my sister went into full coma.

Its not the same without her talking my ear off every week.

I havent had a decent dream since that day. All i see is my wolf and when im outside i can hear every little tiny creature scurrying around me.

Is this how she felt? I wish i could ask her all these thing about how im changing and if she walked the same kinda day like i do.

I was talking a quick walk today and zoned out as i walked the city. I was about to turn around, during my pause to figure out which direction i came from i found myself in front of my sisters building.

Ive been neglecting walking into her apartment because i cant beat knocking on the door knowing shes in the hospital and wont leave that room. Im fearful of accepting her pregnancy, i dont want to keep my hopes up anymore. It hurts to much.

As my hearts starts to hurt from the break i make my way up the stair.

Im determined to walk to the door an a-least say my goodbye in a way i can not feel this awful emptiness in me.

I get to her door and by habit i put my hand up ready to knock with my knuckles... instead i lean my head against the door, i feel the hic of a sob stuck in my throat looking at her door, instead of knocking my hand lays flat against it and i finally let my tears fall.

"Sis, i miss you" i say it past my crying voice and fall to my knees wishing i could hear her footsteps coming to the door.

"B (hic) please answer the door(hic)" the tears drop and i cant lift myself off the floor. I try my best to deny it, its no use! I know shes not gonna open this door.

"Sis its okay, i have the key im just gonna come in okay" i know I'm inly speaking to the door, i want her to hear me...

I lift myself up using the door frame and reach of the key above her door, it was the spare we left behind for the family to come whenever they wanted. There is still an alarm and i listen and wish it wouldn't go off. As i open the door i hear the door alarm go off, i punch the code in and in a blast of still air i can barely smell her, her natural sweet vanilla perfume is almost gone.

By the window is her last painting the trees she was ready to show. Her paint brushes are still crusty from her last day here, my sisters came and cleaned the dishes and emptied out the fridge, with the exception of the liquor and beer i case on of us decided to pay a visit to what is now her memorial apartment. Pictures of the family are all over the walls, i sit down and wipe my eyes dry to open up the curtain. As the light shined into the apartment i turn around and see the large wall painting on above the couch, its was a portrait painting of all of us two after accepting the job with mom and dad. The shareholders were so happy, hey had a big bet she'd be a prodigy in helping the different departments be more innovative to the art community.

"Sis, u did a great job. When we get past this i'll make sure people know what u did and how talented u were. I wont let anyone forget you. Ill try hard to live up to what u were." Im my rant i once again start to cry, i pull up her stool and sit there with my hands covering my face as i break down. I want her to rub my head like she use to, sit an ld joke with me just like when we were kids.

Im this moment of ultimate weakness, i can feel my insides churn,

"NO DUKE! I cant change here, youll trash this place" i can feel him wanting to let loose as we have lost family. Were not meant to be alone, he doesnt want to be a lone wolf yet we dont know why we changed that night, or why we spoke to sandy before she vanished.

That night before my shift she showed up in our head as a voice and her howl was heard in my ear the moment before lando howled that morning, it was clear and also made no sense.

With my ability to control duke i start to feel weak and i know im tired...

"Duke, its Wind wake up!! Something happening duke!! Brother wake up NOW!"

In a cold sweat i opened my eyes, i think i feel asleep in b's apartment

"B! B! Is that u?" I search the apartment and see nothing, its as empty as it was when i arrived.

-duke what was that?-

-nie, i think h dreamed of her again? U scared me i thought it was real-

- me to, u sure it was a dream? Can u reach the voice again?"

I ask him and i can feel duke start to search the air for a voice and use his mind to reach that sound again, we hear nothing and no one is calling back to us. I must have dreamed it. I sit up and look at my phone, its 3:am. I look through my text messages and see everyone looking for me.

I quickly tell text back telling them that im at b's apartment and ill be sleeping here. Its to late and i feel closer to my sister even though it hurt and breaks my heart to be here. My eyes are heavy and puffy but its fine if i just put a cooling pas on them.

I start walking to the fridge and open it grabbing myself a beer and sitting down on the couch.

It tranquil and empty.