Can't wait

Upon she said that, she could see her grandfather's reddened face. Not like how Zheng Haozu's hostile reddened face when he was furious, but yes, it was red. At least, that what seemed to her. Embarrassed? Furious? or bit guilty probably?

Whatever it is, with her own pent up upset feeling that she currently felt right now, she refused to care if her words did hurt her grandfather feelings.

She doesn't feel sorry about it at all.

"You.. are you angry with me, Yi Er?" Her grandfather asked. By looking at his face, she could see her grandfather tried to soften his expression a little behind that stern look.

No answer from Chen Ziyi. Neither concede or denial.

"Did you have fights with your brothers again? OR did your grandmother scolded you just now downstairs?"

No answer again but just a cold look that he received from Chen Ziyi. The familiar cold expression that reminded him to his former daughter-in-law.

"Don't be angry with your grandmother. She only acted like that, but she loves all you fair and square. No discrimination at all. I can't stopped her from having favorites, but she indeed love you. It's only that her way loving you bit different from others. But that doesn't means that she doesn't care about you. And about your brothers, don't mind them too much. They are boys. They are in that age. When they're a bit older, they should be more mature. Of course the ones that I'm talking is about your second brother and your third brother. Your eldest brother is already passed that age-"

"Grandfather."

"Y-Yes?"

"I'm not a ten year old kid. No-, even ten year old kid can think that much."

"Of course you not. Your age is similar with Lin er. You're sixteen, correct? Why? Do you think I wouldn't remember your age?"

"You, did your mother tell you anything again?- Is she doing well?"

"We're doing good." Although she know that her grandfather probably just asked that as a formality, she gave her most honest answer.

"Good. Don't fights all the time with your mother all the time. What she did, it might seems rough to you, but all she care is only you. Meanwhile, your dad. He do love you, you know that right?"

"Yi Er, you're the older one. And you still have your mother. While, shuyu-. that why your dad paid more attention to her. You are able to understand your dad, right?"

"Just because her mother is dead, dad has the right to abandon m!e? Grandfather, in this house, I thought I still have you on my side. Even though you didn't show much your feelings towards us, I thought you will not be blinded like others. I thought you could at least acting like a proper elder."

"Yi er! Who is abandoning who? Your father just had to pay more attention to Yu'er. Not that he totally neglecting you. You are his daughter as well. "

"Then, you tell him. That I am his daughter as well. Tell everyone in this house. So that they not treating me like I am the one who had shady background-"

"Yi Er!"

"Why are you like this?"

"Did your mother stimulate you into this? Ha.. I already told her not to involve the kids in adult matters. - But, Yi er, you make me disappointed this time so much. I thought after not meeting you for so long, and looking at your current look now, I had a bit expectation that you're grown wiser and better than before. But, it turn out, you never change. "

"I dont know how to make you feel better. However, what I can say is, You, Haozu, Haoze and Yu Er are siblings no matter what. Although all of you have different mother, all four of you have the same father. You grow up together all this time. What is it that you can't get along with your siblings?"

"Yi er, I'm not getting younger. I do hope you can be better. Harmonize with your siblings and cousins better. They are all your family. "

"I am not siding with anyone nor I am blinded by anyone. I am not even sure to whom I was blinded by what you were saying just now."

"Don't be so agitate anymore. It was all just a negative feeling. You must have your stress piled up from studying, thats why you feeling a bit uncontrolled today?! I will try to make a call to our mother not to pressure you too much? try to loosen up a bit, okay? Go. Go do your things and cool down a bit. We can have lunch together after you finish packing up your stuff. Bring your friend as well. I'll ask the cooks to prepare for your favorite's."

When Chen Ziyi was just reaching the door knob to open it, her grandfather stopped her.

"Yi Er, you will come back here again, right?"

"You will not totally disappear over us, right? You were saying you want to collet your things, you don't mean that you will totally take all like you're not coming back anymore, right? You will leave some of them here, isn't?"

"This house will always welcome you, you should never forget that. Don't cut off your relationship just because of-"

"I can't promise when will I come back, but I will leave some of them here. "

"That is good then. Okay, I don't want to delay you anymore. Go to your room already." Hearing that, it made the old man feeling little better.

When Zheng Lihu heard the news from his son, he didn't feel anything much until the day the servants informed him the girl's purpose visiting the house today. As his son did not mentioned anything more like the exact date Chen Ziyi will be departing, he in fact almost forgot about the news.

It was as if the topic became just one of random topics to talk about, fleeting like no important to dwell for so long.

While waiting for Chen Ziyi to come meet him after he sent the message through one of the servants, he somehow felt a weird feeling surged in his heart. He didn't know whether it was because of the news of his granddaughter moving away only came into realization today OR because he felt a bit guilty if he didn't meet that girl once before she left.

That's why when even though he said everything all he could to remind Chen Ziyi on the family bond, he still couldn't help but felt unease all the way until he got last confirmation from Chen Ziyi.

To him, no matter how awkward their relationship was, no matter how that girl not getting along well with his other grandchildren, he didn't like a bit of the whatsoever feelings that he currently felt at right now. Now that Chen Ziyi had said that she will still come back in the future, he felt better than before.

Chen Ziyi finally left the room. Fortunately, her grandfather didn't try to hold her back again. Otherwise, she wouldn't know how much more she was able to stand calm, listening to all those selfish and self-conceited words.

She halted her walk for a minute to take a deep breathe and cool down before she went to Han Meirong.

.....

"How was it?" Han Meirong who currently was sitting on the bed belonged to Chen Ziyi in the room, asked.

"I can't wait to get out from here." Knowing what was 'it' Han Meirong referred to in her question, Chen Ziyi snorted.

Han Meirong had been noticing that Chen Ziyi was a bit too occupied by her own thoughts since she arrived after meeting with her grandfather, to when she started packing her things. Although Chen Ziyi would talk to her few words, it was only when she asked if she need her help, or when she asked for advice like how should she arrange the things when it seems that the box lid could not close.

Han Meirong intentionally watched some videos on her phone, giving her friend a space to blow off her steam for few minutes before she approached the topic.

"Want to talk about it? OR you want to wait when we get out from here?"

Hearing that, Chen ZIyi nodded after thinking for a while. "We're going to have lunch together with them before we leave. My grandfather insisted to."

"Okay, I don't mind. Is there still lot of things to arrange?"

"Nope. Almost done. But I'll check again before we leave."

"How about the clothes that still hang there?"

"I'll just leave them here. Not my taste. Not a sincere presents neither."

"Okay. Here, let me help you tape the box."

"Thanks. I think thats all."

"Thats all?"

"That's all--W-what are you doing?" Startled with how han Meirong suddenly pulled her to stand beside her and opened her phone camera.

"Lets take a picture to commemorate the room for the last time before we're leaving.Nice, I think this picture is good enough. I'll post this on Wechat so that you can see whenever you want in the future."

"Han Meirong, you-" Feeling amused with how Han Meirong act, a soft laugh finally escaped from her lips.

"So it is true you are here, cousin!"