I'm Lost

This was written a while before the Bombing happened.

I've been trying to stay positive for Mirane. It just has not been easy at all, friends killed or god knows what, now that nightmare world I found myself in first in my dreams but now supposedly in real life is not even something a novelist could think of!

I'm struggling with eating, drinking and my medication *I never mentioned that there are multiple medications I have to take* as well as staying sane. Mirane might've taken notice... I hope her smile can be protected by me and me only. My friend- her husband.. I can't get over my friends death that happened in the nightmare and so in real life. I can't lose her, I won't lose her! My late friend would never forgive me in the afterlife.

I have started drinking late at night, just to bare the sight of the documents, websites and cases we go through just to see any shred of helpful information. But I digress... I need to keep my mental health in check as well as Mirane's health in general. She never told me but I realized that she is sick or... wait a minute..-