A Message To My Father Pt 2

You text me and said,

"I know we don't talk everyday but I don't love you any less and I wouldn't trade you for anything in the world"

Are you for me or against me?

Im honestly angry.

Many things to be angry about.

But I had made peace with the situation. Peace with Jesus. Peace with my circumstances.

PEACE! 

Took all of high school to get the mindset that I have now

And WHAT GIVES YOU THE RIGHT TO MESS IT UP!!

People have given me the highest compliment to man!

They call me a positive person!

Why would you sabotage that with your indecisive behavior!

I know I shouldn't waste my tears on you or this stupid situation

Many people experience this.

What do I wanna cry for?

Im not gonna cry.

Im gonna toughen up and deal with it.

Because just like cramps and anything else

Women toughen up and deal with it!

I don't wanna be mad at you.

I just want to know that you care.

I didn't text you back because I couldn't find the words to say.

When I had my graduation you said you wouldn't miss it "for the world."

But my ma said u had missed everything else....

I forgave you anyway.

But now you say

"I wouldn't trade you FOR THE WORLD,"

You love putting things on the world, huh?

It's nothing but a bunch of BS.

Cuz nobody bets that much on the world.

If I was worth that much then why did it take 18 years for me to see you.

I saw you more the year of graduation more than I had seen you in my entire life.

And even then im 19 now and didn't get a happy birthday and haven't seen you all year.