Black Silk and Stars

We both knew the consequences. What would happened if I went with him. Why we both agreed to do it. It was obvious to both of us. We were just two loners. No one knew us. We only knew each other. Probably more than what anyone will ever know. We were just people that were in love. Not with each other..... We were in love with diffrent people, that didnt love us back. Both of us were hurting ourselves everytime we would be alone with one another. We were both desperate, wanted a way to not feel the way we felt.

" Please Kiara I know you liked that shirt. I also left some short that look small enough to fit you. If you need a place to change the bathroom if next to the kitchen."

His eyes kept going lower and lower. His voice, that voice he would make. It was soft but, you could also hear the pain. I left to the bathroom to change. I just looked at myself in the mirror. I knew that it was a bad idea to stay here but I didn't want to leave, he did not want me to leave either. I finished changing into the clothes that he had let me borrow. I left my hair down from the half ponytail I had. I felt guilt it was like as if something had gotten stuck in my throat. I felt a tear drop fall, it rolled down my cheek. What would Cole think if he saw me like this?

"Hey are you ok? You've been in there for a while." Andrew's voice interrupted my thoughts. It was probably better that he did that. If he hadn't I would've left already.

"Y..Yeah I'm fine I was just about to finish." I replied.

"Alright, I just wanted to make sure you were fine." His voice sounded full of regret and guilt. I felt the same way. When I opened the door he was gone it was dark and all the lights were off. I didnt want yo turn them on because I was scared that I might startle him. I put my hands against the wall trying to use my sense of touch to make my way to the bedroom. I didnt know where I was going or where the door was. After walking and using my hands I finally found and doorknob. I opened it thinking it was the room. When I did this I fit my head and fell on to the ground. Everything went dark.

When I woke up it was in his arms. He car6me towards the bed while holding an ice pack on my head.

"Your just as clumsy as I remember.." he teased.

"Wow thanks, you haven't changed either." I said.

"Really. trying to make fun of me after I just helped you?" He said

"I'm sorry.. it's out of habit." I wanted to leave. I felt embarrassed.

"Its fine j–just be more careful, ok?"

"Yeah I'll try my best" I didnt want to make eye contact. I knew what would happen next. I was trying to avoid it. Soon enough my efforts weren't enough. I put the ice back on his nightstand and looked up at him.

His eyes quickly looked at mine.

"I love the way your eyes look at me Kiara. They didn't see me the way I see myself. It makes me feel safe.." His voice sounded defeated yet, with so much passion. His hand Slowly going down to my waist. I couldn't help but want to kiss him. I knew I didnt love him. We both knew we didnt live each other. We still agreed to be go on with stuff like this. His eyes fell down to look at my lips. My heart was pounding. I put my hand on his cheek. Slowly making way to the back of his head to lean in. Our lips touched. That same feeling of guilt came back. He layed me back careful.

"I'm so sorry..." He pleaded. Those eyes let tears drop on to me. I didnt say anything. I slowly got up to kiss him again.He laid me back down.

That night was the night more rules we had agreed on would be broken. We were broken. He loved Maddison. I loved Cole. We were both hurt by two people we loved very much. We wanted them, not each other. We would find each other when we were hurt and wanted a way out. We lived them and only them. Once someone falls in love it has to be that person that they love.It cant be anyone else. It feels like a your drowning. You want to telk them but your screaming under water. Feelings can change but can they change once you've fallen in love?