Papa...

"Anjani, sorry .... I can't come with you, now is your time with your papa, try to be mature in dealing with your papa !"

Antoni's advice still echoed in my ears, and Antoni didn't want to come with me into the police station to see papa inside, he was waiting for me in the canteen with Pak Ali.

Papa finally came out to see me, he was silent and sat in front of me, I saw daddy's hair was now untidy and smooth again, his face was starting to become unkempt and began to be overgrown with a mustache and beard and his clothes that looked worn due to days not changing. actually there is a sense of pity in my heart to see papa like this, but if i remember what he has done to mama, i become cynical to see him, my eyes are sharp looking at papa, as if it will be really happy to see him suffering like this.

"What did you come here for ...? Dad asked me, Papa started a conversation between us.

I kept trying myself to be as calm as possible talking in front of papa. even though in fact I'm still full of hatred to see it.

"Anjani came, I just wanted to tell you about mama's funeral that went well and smoothly."

I answered my father's question in a tone that was a little harsh because he was angry and hated Papa.

"WHAT ..... !!!!"

Hearing what I have said, papa stood up and looked at me sharply, he did not believe what I had said to him.

I tried to hold back my emotions towards papa, I could only smile seeing papa who kept staring at my face.

"Papa now don't worry, I won't bother you anymore ...!" with a tone of cynicism accompanied by hatred that I can't save I said to papa.

"You insolent child ... !! Plaaaak .... !!!"

Suddenly papa shouted approached me and his hand quickly slapped my cheek.

This is not the first time for me papa to do this, but it is the last for me for papa to do this to me.

"Thank you daddy ... !!" I said to dad and smiled, these eyes, I'm not afraid to see papa, no tears came out of my lids, and no pain I felt on my cheek due to the slap of the hand. papa, but what there is is a sense of resentment that is getting bigger and makes a tremendous pain arise in my heart.

"You still call me your papa !! but in the slightest you never respect your papa ... !!" papa yelled at me and this is one of papa's character that is never timeless, which makes mama always cry. I looked at my father's face with hatred and hatred.

"I have to respect papa?!? Have you ever respected mama!?! Or have you ever thought that I was in this world ... PAPA .. !!!"

I said to papa with a loud tone and filled with anger that began to stir in my soul, I felt that it was not papa in front of me but the biggest enemy in my entire life.

"Dad should have realized that mom's departure was a result of papa's act, don't look for a scapegoat to take it out ... I'm not a child anymore that papa can treat and papa lie arbitrarily, the more papa's attitude and behavior makes me hate you even more ... !! This is the last time I see papa standing in front of me! goodbye dad, may God always bless you ...!! "

I said the last words to papa, then I left papa who was still stunned to see me after he heard the words I said to him.

"Anjani ...! Anjaniii .... !! You come back ... !! daddy hasn't finished talking ... !!!"

I continued to walk leaving papa even though I heard papa's screams calling out my name,

"From now on I will not care about your screams Pa ..!" I said to myself and continued to step my feet and also covered my ears in a meeting so that I didn't hear it, I felt my task was finished at this time because I had told you about Mom.

I saw Antoni was waiting for me in the car park, his tall body leaning against his car, his handsome face and sweet smile welcomed me.

"It's finished all Anjani ..?" Antoni asked me and nodded my head and answered his question.

"Hey .. !! What is your papa doing! He hit yourself again huh ...! I should have come with you earlier, so I can prevent this from happening .."

Antoni was shocked when he saw my cheek, it turned out that my father's slap was still imprinted on my cheek, and made my cheek skin slightly thicken a few inches. and also reddish in color because of Papa's hand marks.

"Eh ... Where is Mr. Ali? Don't tell me you told him to come home ...!" I diverted Antoni's conversation to me, because I didn't want to talk about the results of my meeting with papa earlier, for me all this is enough to have arrived here. and there is no more meeting between me and papa forever.

"Anjani ..... I know what you mean .... hmmm, let's go home, we welcome tomorrow with a new story, and you must go back to school"

Antoni's hand swallowed my head affectionately, he really understands and understands what I want, even though I have become his girlfriend, but he always gives trust and privacy space for me, he is now not paranoid and not possessive, at least I really feel protected and comfortable to be with him at this time.

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The morning that has turned into the night, I pass this day with tears, destruction, heartache, revenge, hatred and finally a smile of certainty. I saw the lights along the street that illuminated Antoni's face who was sitting beside me, I never felt tired of looking at his face, maybe it could be said that Antoni was an ideal and dream man, he was very handsome and smart as well as the sole heir of a company in his family.

I do not know, why he could like and fall in love with me .... aahh love ....! does love really exist in this world ?!

"Eh ... don't make me embarrassed ...! I know that this makes your heart more and more in love with me ..." Antoni joked, breaking my daydreams about him.

"Yeee ... too confident you are! ... ha ha ha ha ... !!" I affectionately hit Antoni's face, and I stroked his hair fondly. At least I admit that he can make me feel happy and forget everything, he's really trying to make me happy.

"Anjani, let's eat first ... let us go home, we can immediately rest, where do you want to eat?" If Antoni didn't talk about eating, maybe I would pass it all day, because my head is full of problems, so I don't feel the least bit hungry and tired of this body.

"Yes ... oh my god ... I forgot! You must be hungry too ... I'm sorry ... maa 'aaf bangeet !!"

I grabbed Antoni's hand and I quickly apologized from him spoiled and I put my sad face in front of him.

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