I Hope You

But… my excuse is too ridiculous for them to hear, I will be considered a kid if I reveal this.

I don't want to leave here, just because it will be difficult for me to visit Mom when I am abroad, that's the reason that makes me insist on refusing. If I'm here, I can go to Mama's house anytime when I miss and want to complain, if I go with Antoni? , how do i go to visit mama?

I can only keep all of this in my heart, I dare not say all this to them, but in my heart determined if there is a chance I should say.

Now the situation this morning is not as usual, I remain bowed in fear, not daring to look or say a word ...

All that was heard was the voices of Antoni and his father, who answered each other loudly.

Whereas I and the statue woman in front of me could only do the same with me, only to hear and not dare to see them.

"Anjani! You want this whole problem to be resolved today or rambling on the decision!".

Suddenly Antoni father asked me, making my chest beating fast with fear. The words of the question were like lightning that grabbed my body.

"Papa .... this is my problem not her problem, I've made a decision, and papa will see! I will prove it to papa .....". Antoni answered his papa's question, he saved me, he cut the conversation papa gave me. I can only be silent and stiff, the feeling of my body, I want to help him, but this tongue feels like it is hoarse and cannot speak the words.

"Sir.. Mam ... sorry ..." With a slow and trembling tone, I tried to get a voice out of my mouth.

"I'm sorry, this is all my fault, I don't want to go abroad because I don't want to be away from mama ..... I want to be close to you".

I said with tears streaming down my cheeks, Antoni approached me, and held my head tightly in his arms. I can only cry and surrender to the circumstances, if they want to throw me out I'm ready.

I saw Antoni's father approaching me then he said to me ....

"Anjani, I trust you, make it so that Antoni does not make your efforts in vain .... You have to promise me ...".

Agreement ..... I have to accept what Antoni's papa told me, this is all only because of Antoni, I feel like I want to die, why is this burden given to me.

I can't help but nod my head in response to the agreement, because I have run out of words and don't have the courage to face it.

Today's breakfast program is all boomerang for me, I'm stuck with my own ego. In silence, I contemplated just sitting on the balcony of Antoni's room, my eyes looking to the courtyard, but my mind was still wandering about the events of this morning. Sometimes, plans come up I want to leave all this,

Should I leave here and go back to my house or do I go far from here where no one will know me .....

Huuuuffff ..... I sighed, because I was really confused about my decision, not to mention the problem of Antoni, who is now like a nanny to him ..

I have to be able to support him so he can be the successor of his papa.

I looked at the sky that seemed to be friendly to me, making me feel spoiled by the gentle breeze in my ears.

The sleepiness in my eyes seemed to be unbearable anymore, the atmosphere on this balcony really made me comfortable and calm.

"Anjani ... Anjani ... wake up dear .... later you will be sick sleeping here ...!?!".

Slowly, I heard Antoni's voice in my ear.

I slowly opened my eyes ... I saw that Antoni was already looking at me with his typical smile to me.

"Gosh ....! I really fell asleep here ....".

I woke up in my afternoon sleep this time ....

"Why can you sleep here, is the mattress not soft huh ...?" Antoni joked to me ...

"It feels comfortable here, I need a place to think, but apparently I need a place to sleep too ...". curtly .... I will answer the question. Antoni held my hand saying ...

"Anjani, I know what you need, tomorrow we will go to your mama's place ...".

Happy with my heart, I heard Antoni invited me to visit Mom.

With sparkling eyes, I looked at Antoni. I kissed him on the cheek as I thanked him. Antoni really knows what I want, I really want to visit Mom.

"Maa ... I'll see you tomorrow". I muttered to myself.

The atmosphere in this afternoon on the balcony really makes me comfortable and happy, even though the day started with fear, but now I end it with happiness. Antoni understands my heart, and he doesn't disappoint me ....

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