Behind a Smile

It turned out that I could not deceive myself, no matter how hard I tried to say it with Antoni, but in reality my feelings said different.

My heart and soul admit that they don't want to be separated from Antoni. These tears .... are tears of truth that I don't want to lose the people I love again.

I've lost my mom, and now I don't want to lose the person closest to my soul.

Antoni saw me and hugged me back, he caressed my head, he kissed my forehead many times, very soft and full of peace in my soul.

"Anjani, I won't leave you, believe me ...." Antoni's words increasingly could not make me stop crying, these tears were getting heavier and more intense, my heart was mixed, I was afraid to think if I should talk later. to his papa Antoni. What reason should I say to Antoni's papa.

"Please don't cry anymore, tomorrow we discuss this with papa, now go to sleep ..."

Antoni led me to the bed, he still caressed my head, like lulling a 5 year old child, he treated me.

I also don't want to let go of his embrace. I really want to be spoiled by him. because I'm afraid if he really left me.

At first I wanted to try to be tough in front of him, but in fact, I was really like a 5 year old child, who wanted to always be pampered, in his arms, and always close to him. It turned out that my desire had deceived my heart, I was acting, but my tears proved it that I didn't want to lose him.

"Antoni, let me sleep in your arms tonight ..." I sobbed a spoiled request to Antoni.

"Anjani, I also want to continue to hug you tonight"

Antoni slept hugging me this night.

For the first time we fell asleep in this one bed, because every night, usually Antoni slept on the soft sofa, his pride, but this time Antoni slept beside me and hugged my body.

I believed in Antoni, as Antoni believed in me. Even though we sleep together but we stick to our principles.

"Antoni, I'm proud to have you ...."

to hold Antoni's hand tightly hugging my body, I really feel comfortable in his arms and hope for a beautiful dream tonight.

Antoni kissed my head affectionately and said,

"Good evening dear Anjani ...."

And we fall asleep in the silence of the night, and hope that tomorrow is a beautiful day, just like our dream tonight

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This morning Antoni woke me up so passionately, he kissed my forehead gently and stroked my cheek tenderly. I woke up spoiled, I saw the sunlight slowly coming in through the bedroom window ... and I saw Antoni smiling very sweetly at me

His handsome face makes this heart proud to be the most special person in his heart. I feel Him giving love and affection to me more than him self.

I woke up and sat beside her tidy body with the added smell of her perfume that matched her style perfectly, as if it would make her become an adult Antoni.

"Antoni, why don't you meet your papa, he must have been waiting downstairs ...". I said to Antoni.

Antoni smiled at me and brought his face closer to mine then he said ...

"Anjani, don't worry I have decided, we will study here, no need to leave the country ...".

I was surprised to hear that, just through the night he was able to decide, making me even more afraid to face his papa this morning.

"Antoni, you are crazy ....! This is all arranged by your father, don't you hurt him ..?". with a tone a little harsh and angry I reply to his words.

"Anjani, you forgot! Last night you said that studying here is also good, we don't have to go to Australia ...! Remember that .... those are the words that you say from your own mouth ...! " .

Antoni answered in a tone that was also rising, making me afraid to face his emotions.

For the first time I saw Antoni's face that was this tense, I understood why he was like this, because right now he felt a dilemma about his own decision. I got up to her and I hugged her back to me, I tried to calm things down this morning, I don't want this mood to start with feelings of emotion and anger that are conveyed.

"Antoni .... I'm sorry, I didn't mean to make you angry, I just want you to be the best for us all".

I said to Antoni from behind his back.

Antoni turned around, and he hugged me back,

"Honey .... I will try to be the best for us all, believe me ....".

He made me more comfortable in his arms, the words that came out of his mouth were a promise from an Antoni.

The atmosphere of the dining room this time, was like the atmosphere in a trial. Papa Antoni's eyes were very sharp and full of emotion towards us both, I tried to persuade Antoni but Antoni still chose to stay with me here.

If I could tell them my reasons, maybe they would understand me, why wouldn't I want to come with Antoni?

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