Let Me Waiting You in Here
Antoni's shoulders were already carrying a heavy burden from now on. then I have to look after him and also support him, being the closest person to him is an honor in my life. Seeing Antoni who was very enthusiastic about loving me, made myself sometimes think. Until now, because I still didn't understand the meaning of "love" and why Antoni could love me ... and why Love is finally in me ...
Love, which makes me happy or love that sometimes I fear, because I have experienced the stupidity of love that made myself lose my mama ...
Love .... what is love ...?!?!
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"Anjani, come here .....".
Antoni took my hand and took me into one of the clothes shops in one of the biggest malls in Jakarta.
"Anjani, we have to buy clothes for this winter ... Come on you choose whichever you want ... ".
I immediately saw Antoni's face, because the words Antoni uttered, made myself ask ...
"What do you mean, Antoni? Where are we going this winter?".
I pulled Antoni's hand, I wanted to ask for an explanation from him.
"Anjani, we will study in Australia, you willaccompany me there ...".
By holding both my cheeks Antoni answered my question, I could only be silent and could not reply to his words.
Indeed, the dream of every teenager is to be able to study abroad. But, Antoni's statement really surprised me, because before he had never discussed this to me, now I can only stunned to see that he is so eager to choose clothes that he likes and shop whatever he wants.
All day, I can only remain silent and walk according to all the wishes that Antoni wants.
I haven't found the right time to discuss this problem with Antoni, to be honest I don't want to go abroad to go to school there, because for me, Indonesia also has a good university and can produce genius and smart students.
"Antoni, maybe this is the beginning we should argue."
I muttered in my heart because I saw all his actions today.
Tonight I will try my courage to talk to Antoni, for me not all of Antoni's decisions I will agree with, I don't want to do something that is not according to my wishes.
"Antoni, can we have a serious talk"
I also approached Antoni who was lazing on the sofa, I intended to slowly talk to him. Antoni woke up and gave me a place to sit beside him.
"Anjani, I know you don't agree with my decision to study in Australia, but ... you have to know, I'm going to continue my business, so like it or not, I have to follow Papa's decision ...."
hearing Antoni's words I now know, It turns out that this is all Antoni's papa plan, but ... how does he know that I don't like his decision.
"How do you know if I don't like this decision?" I also asked and became curious.
"Ha ha ha ha ha .... it's too easy to answer that iseeeeeee, it's clear on your face if from this morning your face looks like crumpled paper I see .... ha ha ha ha ha ha....!"
With laughter, he answered my question.
It feels like this face is turning red with embarrassment at my own question. I asked myself, Is it so clear on my face that I don't like something?
"Damn it ....!"
I pinched Antoni's waist, and he was in pain due to my pinch which had no pity for him, and now he could only scream in pain ...
"Aduuuch .... aduuuch ...! I feel bad ..... it's already painful ... Hooneeyy ... oooooo ...!"
I let go of my pinch and then I started talking to him seriously.
"Antoni, if you want to study abroad, go ... let me wait for you here"
Antoni looked at me with a look that couldn't believe this sentence that I said.
"Anjani, why are you like this ..... I will never want to part with you .... you know that ..!"
Antoni hugged my body tightly and he didn't want me to let him go.
He brought my forehead closer to his forehead, he looked at me very closely, as if he was trying to see my heart through my eyes.
I also looked back in his eyes, because right now only the eyes could speak, I didn't want to hurt him, but I also didn't want to be hurt by desires that I didn't want. I knew Antoni wouldn't want to part with me, but Antoni knew I didn't want to come with him this time.
"Antoni, I have to talk to your papa, whatever the risks and decisions, I'm ready ...."
I held Antoni's cheeks so I could focus on looking at him and talking to him. Hearing my words, he let go of his hand which had been hugging me tightly, now I saw a blank look in Antoni's eyes. There was disappointment that was implied in his eyes, now he could only hold my hand and looked down at our hands, which were stuck together on the mute sofa.
I leaned my head on his shoulder and tried to say words to Antoni.
"Antoni, I know you really love me, and you also know that I also love you, but ...
our future is still long .... don't let it all be destroyed just because we don't have the same desire ".
I felt I could speak fluently if I didn't look at Antoni's face.
"Antoni, you want me to believe in you, why can't you trust me? Believe me ... even if you go to Antarctica , even if you still love me ... I'll wait for you here, because your soul is part of it, from my soul ... ".
Unconsciously my tears flowed and fell, dripping wetting both of our hands.
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