Wandering Feet

ALLISON IS THAT YOU?" One of the twins yell

Creeping up the stairs, I try to escape to my room before someone can confront me. Unluckily for me, to get to my place, I have to go past Lucas, Liam and Lily's door. With shaking hands, I tiptoed past each of their rooms and successfully turned my doorknob.

Just when I walked into my room, I tripped on Lily's freaking toy.

"Owww!" I yelped

Opening his room door, Lucas stalked out, then Liam. Now I was sure all hell was about to break loose. However, I did the only logical thing that any teenage girl in my position would do. I gave a quick look of terror, closed my door, and locked it before their wrath could reach me.

"WHERE THE FUCK HAVE YOU BEEN?" Liam bellows

Banging on my door was all I could hear while I dialed Dorcas's number.

On the third ring, he finally answered.

"Dorc.....Yeah, I know that..... I'm sorry about Liam's interrogation.....No, I'm back…. they're at the door banging.....come and get me please…...25 minutes should be enough time…..just come to the window...see you then, be safe."

Dorcas is literally the savior of my life. Without him, who knows what I'd do. I really do love Dorcas. His honey-like eyes, curly brown hair, and milky brown skin. The way he towers over me. The way he checks in on me. He's been my best friend since 3rd grade. We talk about everything with each other. Shared all of our secrets together. Held each other. With this recent heartbreak, I'm going to need Dorcas more now than ever.

Snapping out of my thoughts, I undress and head for the shower. I feel dirty and grimy, and there's sand in places there should not be sand in. While I bathe, I can't help but let my thoughts wander to the events of last night. His hand through her hair. Them in their underwear hidden in the darkness of the patio. But I could see them clearly. Her moans filled the air. The unshaking reality of my cheating lover looming over her. I feel as if there was the weight of a million tons on my shoulders. I'm hurt. I loved him. And he gave up on me. On us. I loved him. And he betrayed me. I loved him. And he broke my heart. I loved him. And he left me. He left me to walk a path of confusion and tears and angst. Did he ever love me? Was he just filling my head with lies? Was he only trying to get with me? All of which is what I believe to be true.

The banging on my room door resumes, and I am yet again snapped back to reality.

Climbing out of the shower, I feel so refreshed. My skin is still hot from the water. My hair was cleansed of the sand. Now I just wish my body was cleansed of him.

After wrapping the towel around myself, I stalk towards the closet. Deciding what to wear today shouldn't be too hard. Some grey sweat joggers and another oversized yellow hoodie should do it. After putting that on, I put on some yellow Nike Air Forces and get ready to go.

While I comb my hair, my mind drifts to Christopher. I wondered if he made it back okay. If he used to drive around and save girls like he did with me today back in Oregon. If he misses his home. He was really sweet today. There's this feeling that I just can't shake about him. He makes people feel so welcome. So at home. So loved. Then I got to wondering if he's as intrigued with me as I am with him.

When I hear a knock on the window, I pop up from my vanity seat and run to it.

After sliding the window open, I turned around to grab my phone, purse, and charger.

When I sit on the latch of the window. Sudden fear roams through me. Every time I jump from this window and into Dorcas's arms, I am frightened. No matter how many times the same feeling musters.

"And on three...two...one...jump!." Dorcas says holding his arms out to catch me

Pushing myself from the latch is always scary, but I always feel safe once I land in Dorcas's arms. When he puts me down. We duck behind a bush and make sure the coast is clear. After that, I made a run for the car.

Getting in, I glance over at him to notice him breaking out a sweat.

"How are you sweating? All you did was catch me. Are you trying to say I'm getting fat?" I say

He doesn't reply but instead drives off. We're going to his house, I reckon. That's where we always spend Saturdays like this.

The drive was silent. EXCRUCIATINGLY SILENT. Something has to be wrong.

After we get out of the car, I have to jog to keep up with his pace. Opening the house door, he stalks up the stairs as I follow him.

Once I make it to his room, I bend down to remove my shoes, then neatly place them in the corner. When I look up, Dorcas's brown eyes are staring an infernal gift into me.

"What? What happened?" I question

"What happened? What do you mean? I go to take a piss for one second at the party, and you wandered off. Firstly where were the girls in all this? Then, when I realized you were gone, I went to ask around. Everyone said they saw you run off. Then you didn't answer your bloody phone! What the hell happened, Kiwi? I had to assume the worst happened to you! Do you understand how worried I've been?" Tears well up in his eyes and he collapses on his queen size bed.

Walking over to him, the pain of everything bears down on me. I unveil the cover and climb into them with Dorcas following suit.

"What the hell happened?" Dorcas asks while his voice breaks and arms envelop me

Tears come bursting from my eyes at once, and I feel like I might lose everything. In Dorcas's hold. With my soul in the hands of heartbreak. My trust shattered. Then I take a deep breath and manage to recount the night to Dorcas.

I begin explaining everything. His wandering hands. Her moans. His infatuation. Her tight grasp on his arm. His groans. Her legs draped on each side of him. Of my boyfriend. The words they exchanged. Me running. Crying on the beach. Falling asleep. Waking up to Christopher's looming perfect body. I tell Dorcas everything. How I left my heart on the beach that night. How I may never be whole again.