When I was younger my mother will always tell me it's not my fault that my father and her were always fighting.
I know it was true, but I would still blame myself for letting them fight. This was how my disorder start....
Mom: I don't want you outside at all!
Especially when it's dangerous!!
Keano: I know how to protect myself!
Mom: I don't give a shit!! Anything can happen and you wanna be stupid!
I hated how she would always find something against me, like she was aching for me to hurt her! She knew I suffered from MDD, yet she still found ways to make me hurt.. mentally.
I ran up the stairs ignoring my mom. I just don't understand why she wants to push people away! The only thing bad person that can calm me is my bff.
Trinaty: Hello?
Keano: She piss me off! I swear on my damn life! She testing my damn patience!
Trinaty: Start from the beginning...
I told her everything thing that happened even the part where I ran into the sexy stranger.
Trinaty: Damnnn... Let me meet this sexy ass stranger!
Keano: girl please, You don't live on his side of town!
Trinaty: How do you know? You said he was a stranger...
Keano: just a hunch ;)
Then I heard yelling in her background.
Trinaty: Hey! I got to go. Talk to you later! <3
She hung up before I even got to ask about what was happening in her background. I decided to lie to my mom about going for a walk, and that I will be close. I went out for a walk, I left my phone in the house because I knew I would be back soon anyway.
I didn't know where I was going, I knew I shouldn't have been this far from home, this was the bad side of town, where people's lives would end in an instant. That's when I heard someone pleading for there life. I turn my head in that same direction and hid behind the garbage bag. I saw the man that was pleading for his life, he was talking to some man in a black suit. He was muscular, he looked like he could make woman fall for him in an instant. That's when I recognized him! He was the guy I bumped into at the cafe entrance!!
Pleading man: Please!! I'll have your money by sunday!!
Oop!! someone's in debt!
Raymond: No, you reached the deadline!
That's when the man in the suit pulled out a gun. Oh shit. I was to scared to look, so I looked away. Then that's when I heard a loud bang. I looked at the pleading man, there was a bullet between his eyes! Oh Damn!!
Then the man in the suit yeet the body in the trash then hid it underneath the trash bags. I had to run! I definitely didn't want to be next! But before I could, some random walked up to the man in the suit and whispered something in his ear. I didn't have time to tune in, I still wanted to live, not for me but for my bestfriend! So I ran. I know it was stupid, but I wasn't going to sit there! Soon they noticed.
Raymond: Grab her!
Oh fuck my life!! I knew how to defend myself but I didn't want blood on my hands! Before I could think of what to do next, the random man grabbed me!
Keano: Let me go!!
He didn't listen. Of course he didn't, he was joking around with a damn killer! I used my combat skills. I hurried and turn around as fast as I could, pulled out my pocket knife and stabbed the man. Fucker!!
Raymond: I don't think so!
The man in the suit knocked me out. He was quick. Now I was thinking about the argument my Mom and I had. I should've listened, I don't want to die yet..