Chapter 8

Lisa's POV

As expected, Jennie acts weird as soon as she woke up. Earlier she called me to pick her up from work so i did. Busan is quite a drive but i wouldn't mind if it was Jennie.

"Girlfriend???" Jennie sqeualed that startles me and Lilly. She almost cry but Jennie is fast to put her back to sleep. "H-how?"

"What? I don't get it Jennie. Sometimes you're okay and there's this time, just like now you're acting strange."

"Just tell me Lisa, how on earth i end up being your girlfriend?" her tone was still confused so i guess she's not joking.

I took a deep sigh before i answer her nonsense question. " You remember after Paragliding?" I asked her and she shakes her head . "Well after that, i drive you home and asked for your number. After that we sort of communicating thru calls and then just yesterday, you said Yes to me." i explain but im sure it didn't sink in to her cause her face is all scrunched.

"I don't remember. What about my boyfriend?" She asked like she didn't really remember a thing.

"You told me you were just lying to annoy me." i honestly answer.

Jennie remained silent but i could say she's not lying when she can't remember, it seems like she was really under confusion.

"Look if you we're thinking about regretting being my girlfriend, i would accept whatever you want." It hurts honestly, im attached to her but i don't want to force her.

"Lisa i know you don't believe me but i don't really remember a thing." she massages her temple.

"Its okay." i sigh and turn on the next street to my apartment. "Im sorry if i forced you."

"No it's okay. Im just confused." She whispers and shift her attention to Lilly who is sleeping on her lap.

Just by looking at her with a baby on the lap, i could say she'll be a good mother. I wish to our child.

"I'll just bring Lilly to my apartment. Her babysitter was there then I'll drive you home." I said but she didn't give me an answer.

Maybe it was too fast for her, we only know each other for less that a month and half and i can't blame her. But dating means getting to know each other right? Im hoping she won't take back her words, now that im too overwhelmed by her, i don't think i can let go of her.

We reached the apartment almost five in afternoon. My friend AKA Lilly's babysitter Rosé took her so we don't have to leave the car. Luckily Lilly didn't woke up or else she'll cry for sure. She's just a typical four year old baby girl.

"Im sorry." i blurted just to break the silence between us. After the paragliding when i bring her home, she held my hand while im driving and it seriously the thing i dreamt of, she's just slowly fulfilling it.

"For what?" she answers but her tone was flat.

"For startling you? We can break u...."

"Its fine. I'm just having a headache." She cuts me off.

Im worried cause i don't know whats wrong with her. "Can't you really remember?" she just hummed no.

Although i want to ask her how on earth that happened, i chose to remain muted even though it hurts me when she isn't saying a thing until we reached the front of her apartment.

Um, so are you going in or not?" i asked.

"Okay... can you come with me" she said, making me follow her inside. The last time i came here, she didn't let me in.

When we got to the second floor, Jennie took a deep breath and pushed the door of her apartment open. It was left open cause she didn't brought any keys.

"Do you live alone?" i inquired as i look around.

"No... but..." she stammered.

Jennie suddenly hurried inside the bedroom. I find a single bed on the side. The dressers and tables were filled with her things.  She opened the closets which had her clothes, checking the shoe cabinet only had her shoes in it, she keeps on checking like she was looking for something.

We went back to the living room and i saw pictures in frames of her, i supposed it was her family with her, her friends and some solo pictures of her.

Jennie's POV

I rummaged through my things, looking for my phone. I ended up finding it under the sheets. When I unlocked the screen, I immediately searched for Kai's name in my contacts, and I got zero results.

That's when it hit me. He didn't exist in this dream at all.

"Jennie, what's going on?" asked Lisa. "We're you looking for something?"

I didn't mind her question when i remember Kai's studio. I run back upstairs only to find an empty room. He really isn't here.

This whole insane dream where Irene and Seulgi exist, while Kai isn't. I can't really comprehend.

For a moment i was scared, Lisa told me that its been month since we had paragliding which in real word, its only less than twelve hours. I don't know how time run in here. In reality, i was just sleeping through the night while in here, we already spent half a day together.

"Lisa.." I called her attention. She's busy scrolling through her phone "Can i stay at your house?"

I don't know what will happened to me in here if she left, all my dream she was there to guide me and i definitely freak out if she leave me here alone.

"Of course." she smiles. "Were you going to move now?"

I sat on the couch beside her and slowly nodded.

I couldn't seem to figure it out. How come Irene and Seulgi was in my dream and Kai wasn't? People would always say that dreams meant something, and they're never just dreams. So what was this dream telling me? Why didn't he exist in my life at all? I don't even have his damn number on my phone.

"Jennie, I don't want to sound annoying but I really need to know if you're okay," said Lisa softly, as she followed me inside the room. Well, it's just my room now.

I looked up at her and forced a smile. "I'm okay, I promise."

Lisa didn't look very convinced, but she just tugged at her bucket hat and shrugged. "Okay. Do you need help packing?"

I shook my head and opened my closet. "I can manage."

I pulled out a random pink suitcase which I didn't even know I owned, since I never really travelled that often. When I was about to open it, an old picture fell out. I bent down to pick it up and saw my old high-school graduation photo... with Taemin. That was weird. I still remember when my mom took this photo, but I also vividly remember Kai being in the middle of Taemin and I.

I never took a photo with only Taemin. I remembered this day like it was yesterday. I couldn't possibly be wrong about this. I still remember how Jongin looked like in that photo. And now he wasn't in it at all, like as if he was never a part of my life.

I started to feel chills in my spine. This wasn't a very good dream anymore. It was starting to turn into a nightmare, but not like what Lisa teased me about. This was a real one.

I got up the bed and nearly tripped on the suitcase on the floor, but I didn't mind. I needed to get some fresh air.

"Jennie, where are you going?" Lisa's voice trailed from behind me as I walked out the apartment.

"I need to wake up," I uttered loudly. "Wake me up please?"

"What are you talking about?" asked Lisa. "Look, I know you're still convinced about this whole dream thing but I'm starting to get more and more concerned. You really believe that you're just dreaming right now? Because Jennie, I'm not someone in your dream. I'm real. I exist."

"No you don't," I insisted. I started to feel a lump forming in my throat.

Lisa pulled off her hat and ran her fingers through her hair in frustration. "Please explain everything to me, please."

"Now is not the time to explain anything, Lisa. I just need to wake up!" I cried, tears falling down my cheeks. I squinted my eyes closed as I screamed. "I need to wake up! Please!"

No matter how hard i tried, pinching myself, hitting, hurting, i can't seems find a way to wake up. My tears were dried already.

I pull the pink suitcase and locked the door. Lisa wait for me inside the car since i was acting strange again, for her atleast.

"You okay now?" Lisa asked as she open the door of the backseat to put my things.

After locking it, she went in front of me and cups my face, right she was now my girlfriend in this dream.

Lisa with worried face look at me, "you're scaring me. What is happening?" It seems like she really is.

"Im sorry." Is all i can say. I told her hundred times, but she never believed me.

Lisa pull my face and plant a soft kiss on my lips before she help me get inside the car.

She buckle the seatbelt for me and i didn't mind at all. All i want now is to wake up.

She starts the engine and drove off. Its already dark, i remember seeing eight on my phone earlier and we'll be traving for an hour again to reach Yeonsu.

It didn't take us that long to arrive to her apartment. I tried to push away my thoughts about Kai, just so I could enjoy this moment. It's not like I chose to dream of this, so I shouldn't be feeling guilty.

"We're sharing a room?" I asked, right after she led inside her room, which I couldn't help but gawk at as well. It was pretty huge for one people. The walls had brand new tribal wallpapers that matched the huge, red entertainment showcase in the middle, along with a huge red bed with white drapes around it. It was like one of those typical beds in medieval princess movies that I would dream of having as a kid, it was an apartment but looks like a room inside the castle.

"I swear Jennie I'm not trying to get in your pants," she said, making a cross sign over her chest.

I couldn't help but smile a bit. Despite her black jacket, ripped skinny jeans, she still looked like an absolute angel who wouldn't hurt a damn fly.

"Okay Lisa. But where's Lilly?" I finally asked remembering the little girl, trying to ignore the fact that zhe looked so damn cute right now.

"She's on the room downstairs with Rosé. Unless you want to share bed with them two." She wiggle her brows while unzipping her jacket.

"Okay fine. So who's taking the bed?"

Lisa's jaw dropped. "It's way bigger than a king-sized bed. My entire family could sleep in that!"

I rolled my eyes. "A pillow will be sleeping between the two of us, and that's final."

"Not a bad deal," she smirked. Oh lord. "you're acting as if you never slept with someone before. Not mentioning im your girlfriend." she mumble with a pout on her face.

"Lisa. . . ." I hissed but i don't know how to defend myself.

"I'll just check on Lilly, I'll be back. What do you want to eat?"

"Im good." i faint a smile and sit on the bed that my butt instatly sink in it.

After Lisa left, i lied in bed staring at the ceiling, sorting all the things consecutively happeneing here. Im aware that im dreaming, but it doesn't seems appropriate. Its like im going to another world.

The existence of the person i used to know, Irene and Seulgi, they were in Busan, but Kai isn't here, he doesn't exist here in my dream. Of all people why my boyfriend?

Everything happens too fast in here too. I don't know the interval of the time when Lisa bring me to the cliff and we jump off the water, when I met her and Irene in Busan. the only thing clear is that a month already passed when we do paragliding. No matter how hard i try, i really can't calculate. This was going to be one hell of a challenge.

The door click open and i saw her from my peripheral vision. "Are you okay?" she's carrying a tray on her hand.

Lisa put the tray on the side table before she sat on my side.

I swallowed and nodded while looking up to her. Her brown eyes were piercing into mine, locking my gaze with her. She didn't try anything. She didn't lean over to kiss me or whatever. She just started into my eyes. That was enough to melt every single cell in my body.

But I wanted to kiss her. I wanted to pull her face closer and kiss those damn soft pink lips of her and tell her that Im hell of a scared in this dream turn nightmare but she's enough making me feel safe.

She paused for a moment, like as if she was in deep thought about something. After staring at me for a couple of seconds, she grabbed the two pillows that were beside me and placed them on the couch next to the bed.

"I'll stay here. I don't want you to think I'm a perv or anything."

I felt my heart sink. Wait a minute. Did I just feel disappointed that she wasn't sleeping next to me?

"Oh, okay then," I mumbled, leaning back on my pillow.

She immediately turned around, with her finger pointing at me. "Aww, you wanted me to sleep next to you, huh?"

I threw a pillow towards her, but missed. "Let's not forget who wanted that first."

"First," she said out loud. "So you wanted it second?"

I rolled my eyes and switched off the lamp on the bed stand next to me. "Good night, Lisa."

I heard her laugh as she plopped herself on the couch.

"Good night, beautiful."

I could've sworn I felt butterflies in my stomach. Like humongous butterflies, making me feel like jumping up and down on the bed and rolling over on the floor like a maniac.

I tried to push the feelings away by taking a couple of deep breaths.

"Jennie?"

No please don't talk to me. You're ruining the moment. I'm trying to be calm here.

"Yes?" I answered, immediately wishing that I had just pretended to be asleep.

"Why are you breathing like you're in labor?" she asked in an innocent tone, sounding like she was about to start laughing again.

"Lisa, go to sleep," I groaned.

"Not if you're going to keep breathing like that, because I won't be able to sleep."

"Okay, okay I'm sleeping now."

She didn't say anything after that, which was good.

I closed my eyes, knowing that I'd probably wake up in my actual apartment before I know it.