Chapter 9

Lisa's POV

(Flashback)

It was me and Jennie, right at the top of my apartment house, watching the sunset. After a month of just calls and text, finally she's beside me again. I've never had a romantic relationship with someone, not until Jennie.

I still haven't done any of these..

"Do you regret any of it?" i asked softly. I wasn't even watching the show the sun is making. I was just looking at her.

She looked up to me and smiled. "Not at all."

"Jennie?"

"Yeah?"

I take a deep breath, before looking back into her eyes. "Jennie, do you like me?"

She closed her eyes, I was thinking of everything I wish she could tell me.

I like her. I think about her every second of every god-damn day. I think about her more often than I think about anyone. I love her cat like eyes, her lips, her scent, her personality, the way i manage to annoy her but cheer me up at the same time – I like her. I like everything about Jennie. And I don't think I can ever stop liking her.

"I...um..." she stammered. The thing about this girl is that when i starts looking at her with the sincerest look, she just completely lose it.

"You don't have to answer if –"

"I like you," she blurted out. "I really like you."

Her lips broke into a cocky smile. "Not just as a friend?"

Of course i would ask that. I knew it.

Jennie sighed and shifted her gaze back to the sky. "Not just as a friend."

I cup her cheeks, then turning her chin around to face me. "You know how I feel about you, Jennie."

She just looked into my eyes and didn't say anything.

They say actions speak louder than words, and this time I could definitely hear it out loud.

Everything about Jennie made my heart pound a million times per second. She made me feel things I've never felt before. She sent so much electricity in me with just one touch, I feel like I would explode. And im so sure she felt the same way.

"We didn't come up here to watch the sunset, did we?" she finally broke the silence.

I let out a soft chuckle while rubbing her cheek with my thumb. "You're the cutest, Kim."

Then she did the unthinkable - something ive been wanting to do since the moment we got here.

Jennie leaned closer to me and pressed her lips against mine.

It was a soft peck but i need more of her, I felt her eyelashes flicker against my skin in surprise, but seconds later she was kissing me back. I snake my hand down to her back, pulling her closer to me. The taste of her mouth was intoxicating, a taste I definitely missed since the first day i kissed her.

Her mouth lingered on my lower lip, biting it softly. I could hear her breathing heavily, while mumbling my name in between kisses.

Nothing has ever felt so perfect in my life.

And I didn't want it to end.

I wanted to stay with her forever.

We kissed for a few more seconds, before she decided to break it, just to get some air. And sanity too, I guess.

"Jennie..." i whispered "Oh my god."

"What?" she giggled.

I smiled and kissed the tip of her nose. "I just didn't think you'd kiss me. You caught me by surprise. A good surprise, of course."

"I've been wanting to," she finally admitted, feeling my cheeks flush.

"Jennie, I've been wanting to since the day I saw you," i confessed. "I didn't accidentally walk past by you when you were sitting by the dock. I saw you from a far. But even from a far, your beauty was radiating. It captured every single part of me. It was like something was reeling me in and I just had to talk to you."

I didn't know what to say. I was already overwhelmed.

"And since that day, I knew I always had to see you," i continued. "I asked around about you, but your name didn't ring any bell. So I just kept hoping and praying that I'd see you again. Even if you'd be quite annoyed at me all the time whenever you saw me, I didn't mind. Any second I got to spend with you was worth it."

(end of flashback)

Jennie's POV

It was already the next morning in my real world, and I think I've been staring into space for the longest time I didn't even notice that Kai has been blabbing to me for the past thirty minutes. It's been more than an hour since I unwillingly woke up, almost crying actually.

I don't know what to do. I feel like I'm already losing it. Can someone whack me in the head with a giant saucepan so I will snap back into my senses?

"So what do you think? Should I include it?" a voice interrupted my thoughts, which I happened to be thankful for because I felt like I was about to drool any second now.

Kai sat on the bed and just held onto his white shirt with both hands instead of putting it on. I could see his hands clenching the cloth tightly, like he was about to rip it apart. She noticed i wasnt listening.

"My first exhibit is tomorrow, and you don't even act like you care. I've been talking to you about it the whole morning, and how do you respond? You nod. You just nod, like as if to pretend you were listening."

"I'm sorry," I said for the nth time. "I just.. I.. Can you just please not be mad at me anymore?"

He sighed and gave me a hesitant look. Seconds later, he held out his arms, signaling for me to come closer. When I did, he locked his arms around me and looked into my eyes.

"I need you to promise me something," He finally said.

"What is it?"

"Can you promise that you will love me and only me forever?"

"only you. i promise." i felt like lying when i said that.

I didn't have work for today so i decided to go at the Tattoo shop where Taemin and Kai is. He advised me that there will be a lot of customers when weekend. I just came here cause im afraid I'll just sleep when i stay home.

The wind chimed as the the door swung open. We all look at the certain direction and there's a girl approaching.

"Kai!!" A woman who looks older and taller than me came in.

"Oh Krystal!" Jongin went to her and give her a hug. What?Who is she? I can't remember him introducing this Krystal to me. "Its been so long huh?! What brings you here?"

Huh? Of course she'll have a tattoo? Or else you two have some other business.

"I have a new design and i want you to print it on my...." Krystal smirked and Jongin chuckled, did he just forget his fucking girlfriend is here?!!

Krystal motioned his finger on her lower belly. The fuck an inch farther that her cunt.

What the fuck?

"Oh that's brave of you huh.." Kai giggles and nod as he examine the design that Krystal handed, while me? I just look at how my boyfriend flirt with this american look peach!

"Krystal!!!" Taemin suddenly came out of the procedure area

"Woah Tae!! Long time no see.. and wow you look even handsome!" Krystal fist bump with him. I just Look at Jongin., he glanced at me and mouthed 'i love you' before they went inside the room to start.

I was frustrated that he didn't even told me about Krystal, maybe she's just a regular customer but i don't get it, is he this close to all her customers, and wait what?!!! That Krystal will lower her pants for this?!!!

My feet works on its own and brought me to the door where the tattoo is happening.

I wont do anything, I'll just peek.

Krystal was lying under a bed with full of spotlight, her eyes was focused on her phone and when my eyes traveled down, her pants were lowered down just like what im expecting. Even her undies, its only covering her slit but looking from here, i can clearly see how Jongin look at it.

Fuck!!

"Jen! What are you doing?" Taemin suddenly popped from behind holding the inks.

"Ahh...i.. I'll just tell Kai that I'll go home instead, i forgot i need to send something.. Y-yeah." I lied. " Can you tell him for me?" I asked and he nods innocently.

Never looking back, i took my bag and went straight back home which is ten minutes walk away.

Maybe im Jealous, but atleast Kai should remember I was there before she tries to flirt with some other girls.

I reached the house and went straight to the bedroom. I change my clothes into a comfy one. Its only eleven in the morning but i just want to call it a day. I've never felt so jealous before, not for Kai.

Did i just made a wrong guess that he can't do that to me? Yes it was just a simple customer relation but the way Kai look at Krystal's body, thats how his eyes flicked when i lied naked to him.

My tears fall nonstop, i waited for Kai to message me but theres none. I cry my heart out, i should've not come with him.

Im tired and exhausted, i don't know what to think first, my project, Kai's exhibit, Krystal, My dreams...Lisa. . . How i wish i could escape this life. I close my eyes hoping that It'll work.

I had to blink a hundred times before realizing that I was already dreaming, i made an escape for that pain. I found myself back on the bed in Lisa's apartment.

"Lisa?!!!" i called her, i feel like i will cry again with the heavy feelings on my chest.

"Jen?" I heard her voice and there my tears began flowing. She turn the light first before rushing into me when she saw me crying.

"What's wrong? Did you have a bad dream?" she asked with a worry on her face, she wrap her arms around me and hug me tight while her hands rubbing my back.

I breakdown into tears, I've never felt something this bad towards Kai, i feel like I've been fooled although i haven't heard his explanations. That really sound more than a nightmare.

"Shh... it's okay, its just a dream." She whispers. I hear heart heart beating fast, her warm embrace is soothing me.

I calmed down after minutes. It maybe just a drean but im thankful of Lisa being here.

Lisa cups my face and pull me with a quick peck "What is it? You scare me."

"I...i just had a bad dream." I said. it more looks like wishing that reality was just a dream, and this dream turns into reality.

Now that I'm actually trying to work on my relationship with Kai despite my strong feelings for Lisa, things just go a different direction. What the fuck does life want from me?

Most of all, I felt hurt that Kai considered his new client more important, maybe not but he looks at Krystal the way he looks at me. Its obvious and its painful.

Why didn't he atleast introduced me? Why did he have to do the tattooing when Taemin could do it? Am i not that worth introduced to? Was I never worth to get proud of for in the first place?

I ask myself the same question everyday as well. Is he even worth fighting for? If you asked me that question a month ago, I'd definitely say yes. Now I just really have no idea. I felt like everything seems falling down. I know i used Lisa as an excuse but that wasn't enough of what Kai did.

Right now I just knew who and what I wanted.

Lisa was the only person who could ever fix a bad day and make it a lot better than I could possibly imagine. She was the girl who didn't even have to try to make me smile, but moved mountains to make it happen anyway.

She was the girl who never failed to make me feel how special I was, even during the times I feel like crap. She was the girl who reminded me that there is so much more to life than imagining what you could have become – because you have the power to actually make it happen.

Lisa was the girl who had a smile that could restore peace on earth, a smile that instantly made me feel that I would end up loving her more than anything or anyone.

The only girl I wanted to be with right now. The girl in my dreams. The girl I meet when im asleep.

I bit my lip before roughly pressing my lips against her, making her open her mouth in pleasure. "You know what this is, Lisa," I whispered in her ear inbetween my sobs, right before she pushed me down onto the bed.

My hands quickly went through the opening of Lisa's shirt, feeling her bare skin as my lips hungrily kissed her mouth. I could feel a smile forming in her lips as she sucked on my lower lip.

When my hands were about to go down to the buckle of her belt, I felt her arms get in the way as she tried to stop me. "Woah, woah hold on."

"What?" I panted with a tone of desperation. Hasn't she been bugging me about this for quite a while now?

"Are you sure you want to do this?" she asked.