Failure

Present time…

Chen Juan smiled remembering their meeting, how eccentric it was. She thought of him as a hooligan but now after spending seven years with him, she can't stop falling in love with him more everyday.

But she can't meet him anymore, she was in a completely different world where she can't even be herself. If only, if only she can go back to her world.

Remembering the past was painful but it was still memorable for her. It was her and his pleasant memories, which she never wants to forget, even though she was worlds apart from him, he was still hers.

If she can't go back to him, it will be their memories which will keep her alive, which will give her hope to move forward.

"Xieren, open the door." Her stepmother, Luo Yiren knocked on the door. She was really worried about her daughter, she suddenly got up and left, when Empress dowager asked her to forget the past.

She saw her daughter's long face, trying to hide her grief in front of them. She felt bad but what can she do? She can just see her daughter in pain but can't do anything.

Love is not forced and she knows it better than anyone. She loved her husband for so many years but he never loved her back, she tried everything to please but still can't replace her sister in his heart.

She will only be his wife on name but not his love, even when she sees Wan Xieren, she remembers her sister.

Wan Xieren looked alike like her deceased mother, even though Luo Yiren felt jealous of her sister, she never thought of Wan Xieren as someone else daughter, she loved and cared about her as much she cared about her own son, but no matter how much she tries to get close to her.

Wan Xieren hates her, she thinks it was her who stole her mother's position, but what she didn't know was that it was her mother who took her place.

Back then, when they were young, both Luo Yiren and her sister, Luo Yingmin both fell for Wan Ziliang.

But she didn't know her sister and Wan Ziliang were already dating, when she knew it was already late. She knew about it when her parents announced her sister's marriage to him.

And what can she do, nothing. She can wish them happiness and hide her pain, and smile like she was genuinely happy for both.

Somewhere she really thinks if she was brave like Wan Xieren before, if only she said out her feelings, maybe she would have a chance but she can only imagine now.

Even after marrying him, he didn't fall for her, maybe she was really incompetent to have his heart. She can't even cry and say her feelings. Only thing she can do is to shut everything inside her and not let anyone know, mostly her husband.

Chen Juan opened her eyes, hearing Luo Yiren's voice. She rubbed her tears, before opening the door for her. She didn't want to be questioned why she was crying. She can't tell her that she was not real Wan Xieren and why she cried; because she missed Zheng Yuhan?

Luo Yiren will think she has gone crazy, if she hears her out.

"Xieren," Luo Yiren hugged her tightly, as soon as she opened the door.

Chen Juan was surprised, she didn't know whether she should push her away, or hug her back. She just stood still in her place, waiting for Luo Yiren to let go of her.

"Are you fine?" Luo Yiren let go of her as soon as she saw her room. It was a mess, she felt bad and pity for her but can she even do it?

Can she go and force Me Xiuying to love her daughter back, she can't. Even if he agrees to marry her, she will never be happy, she will be the same as her; seeing your husband love another woman and never opening his heart for you. It's more painful than getting ditched by the one you like.

Luo Yiren pushed her aside and went inside the room. It was a clutter with things all over the place, Chen Juan finally noticed what she did subconsciously.

"I-I…" She tried to explain to her.

"It's fine." Her mother interested her, and started to clean the mess not saying anything to her. She knows that Wan Xieren was going through a hard time.

If breaking things can make her better, she was allowed to break everything, she just wanted her daughter to be back like before, where she laughed freely, and was always happy no matter how hard life was on her.

Chen Juan felt a sense of warmth, hearing her. Looks like every mother is the same no matter where it is, they love and care about you as much you want. She remembered about her mother.

How was she? Was she fine? Did she know what her father did to her? She missed her.

She stroked her arm, her face saddened recalling it. She stayed silent,in her place, biting her lower lips firmly.

Luo Yiren took a glance at her and saw her sad face. She wanted to comfort her but would Wan Xieren allowed it? Luo Yiren remembered her last talk with her, or Wan Xieren's last words to her,"Stop showing empathy towards. You are not my real mother, stop showing fake loves to win my father's heart." That's what she said, before running out of the house.

She didn't want to hurt her more, but if she really wanted to win her father's heart, why would she go to her. She can never win her husband's heart, but she even fails to win her heart. To be a good mother to her,why was she such a failure?

Before not being a good sister, she fell for her brother-in-law, then she can't be a good wife now she can't be a good mother too.