She felt her life was sucked out of her body. She had no energy to move, her eyes were locked on that wooden bridge. She can see her old self struggling in the water but she can't move towards her. Her legs were lifeless, she wanted to move and save herself but something was holding her back. As if she was captivated in a cage and she wanted to break free from it but she couldn't, she was locked inside the cage she made for herself.
"Chen Juan, are you okay?" She could hear Zheng Yuhan's voice echoing in the place. She tried to look around but she can't see him.
"Chen Juan!" She could hear his worried voice but she couldn't reply, her inner voice was shouting to help her but she can't speak as if a thorn was stuck in her throat and everytime she wanted to say something it hurt!
"Chen Juan!!" As time passed she could feel more worry in his voice and sound got more clear and more adjacent to her. And finally she could see his figure. He was calling Chen Juan, looking around.
She tried to call him but he didn't even notice her as if she was invisible to him.
Yeah, she was not Chen Juan, and he was looking for Chen Juan not her. Why she forgets she is Wanting Xieran not Chen Juan.
She was just inside her body, no matter what happens she will always be Wan Xieran not Chen Juan even if she looks like her. She is not her. And Zheng Yuhan liked Chen Juan not her nor did she like him. She just acted like Chen Juan in place of Chen Juan but didn't meet so she could fall for him.
She was not destined to meet her prince, she was destined to be abandoned princess. For her, there is no thing called love. She need to accept her fate. She can only be dependent her, she know waiting for her prince is hopeless. She is on her own care, after all those betrayal happened to her in her past life she may never trust someone again. Her trust is shattered not one time but many times now she didn't need trust but she wanted to be someone she really was. Her real self.
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Zheng Yuhan was scared seeing her like that. She was crying holding her head, and suddenly she passed out. He checked her pulses and called her name, but she was not responding.
He was really worried about her sudden collapse. What's wrong with her, as she has any after coma symptoms? He went and called the nurse. He felt his soul taken away seeing her like that.
His brain stopped working, he finally relaxed after her vitals being normal. He sighed in relief seeing her vitals returning back to normal, he sat down on the chair beside her bed.
He pinched the bridge of his nose, remembering the past events. It must be him at fault for her condition. If he didn't lose control on himself, she may not get triggered like that.
He must have remembered that she was not old Chen Juan. She just got out from coma, she still need to adjust to it.
He regretted for being a hooligan with her. He was not like that, he always had control on himself but after she got out of coma, what changed her so much that he lose control on himself.
She don't have talk with him like a closed one, she is always careful as if he was stranger to her. She didn't speak much, but whenever she does she just try to be humble and polite. And he was captivated by it.
He was forgetting that he should not cross the line, they are two worlds apart from each other. He only came here to complete his work and leave. And she may not even remember him. He will just disaapear.
"Once you complete your goal here, you will disappear like a thin air like you where never here." The curse he got before he was born. He still remember those words his master said to him.
He was destined to disappear and go back to this world but how can he tell her. He lost his control today, everything is going like the curse but only thing that was not like the curse was it said he will lose control for the girl from another world but she was not from another world or she was.
Zheng Yuhan can't think anything clearly. For him Chen Juan was already another world, she never belonged to the same world as his then was it true.
But why now? If he had to lose control he should before why now? What changed suddenly in her?
"What are you thinking?" A voice echoed in the room. The room turned dark, and time stopped inside it. Zheng Yuhan who it was, he look up and it was the same person he thought was.
"Why did you come here?" He inquired, with a small and cold face as if he was not at all surprised seeing her there.
"Why? Can't I come?" The woman leaned a bit to be same level as his.
"Come to the point." He state in a annoyed look.
She smirked seeing him annoyed, she stand straight and walked past the bef, trailing her fingers on the railing of the bed. Her eyes sticked to the sleeping face of Wan Xieran.
She chuckled before stopping on the opposite of Wan Xieran's sleeping head. She leaned a bit on the railing and looked up at Zheng Yuhan.
"I just came to remind you, you don't have much time to achieve your goal otherwise…." Her eyes trailed back to sleeping Wan Xieran.
Zheng Yuhan understood what she meant just with her signals. "I know, don't worry I will finish it in time." He said staying calm without any emotions.
She smiled and walked back to Zheng Yuhan and just stopped across him,"Good, hope I don't need to remember again." She patted his shoulder. It was more like a warning then advice and before he could reply anything she just disappear into thin air like nothing happened.