Am I?

CHAPTER 7: Am I?

Ianna washed her face on the running water and stared at her wet face in the mirror. 'Ianna control yourself.'

She can't help to feel this strange frustration feeling from the fact that Luther has a girlfriend already. She felt goosebumps as she remembered what happened earlier 'How can I be so vulnerable in front of him?'

She took a white face towel and wiped her wet face. She went out and the first thing her eyes looked for was the lad she was with a while ago. But her heart just aches when there's not even a shadow of Luther in the room.

'Jerk'. She hissed in her mind.

***

Her black wavy hair is dancing through the air. Her eyes shine as she watches the city's lights.

She's on the rooftop of the Hospital building. She reckoned she needed fresh air to cleanse her mind and what she was feeling in her heart.

'Men are like stars they're so many up there but only one who is destined for you falls.'

Wind embraced her skin gently, calming her shaking body. 'He doesn't deserve my tears. So will you stop it Yana?' she scolded herself but tears just kept falling.

She was sitting on the railings on the rooftop, but of course it's just far enough from the edge of the building. She's not brave to sit on it if the railing was on the very edge of a building.

What she didn't know, someone came to the rooftop too. The man immediately pulled Yana back from the railings as soon as he saw her. Yana faced him cause of reflex when the man was about to pull her. So what happened the man pulled her while she was facing him, which causes them to fall on the floor and Yana on top of the man. Their eyes met for a moment, they could see each other's iris.

It might look romantic, or even it might have a lovely background music if they are in a Korean drama, but no, it was just plain, thought Yana.

But then something happened that brought Yana in so much shock that she never expected. The guy below her kissed her on the lips.

Yana, not believing what just happened, immediately slapped the man so hard, then stood up. "How dare you to kiss me?!" she shouted in rage to the man on the floor holding his jaw.

Yana is someone who values these kinds of things. Well, at least, that's what she believes despite her memory loss. Kiss is such a big deal for her, It might be her first kiss, she thought.

The man just smiled teasingly, like he enjoyed Yana's slap. "I kissed you to make you realize how beautiful life is." The man looked her in the eyes with the sincere look. "So don't you dare end it."

Yana noticed the white lab gown he was wearing and a stethoscope half shown in his pocket. "Did you think I'm going to jump off this building?" She asked, still in a rage. "Suicide is not on my vocabulary, mister." She added, looking so serious and angry. "And you saving someone from killing themselves doesn't include you kissing them!"

"Your lips are sweet." The man cut her off. Yana gasped, she couldn't believe what she had heard. Without thinking, she bit her lips furiously causing it to bleed. She took her right shoe off and threw it so hard at the man in front of her.

Headshot.

"Maniac!" and threw the other shoe harder at him before rushing out to the door.

***

She woke up early. I could hear people walking and talking outside of her quarter and the loud honks from cars passing by outside the building.

It really feels different in cities. It's just loud and rushed, unlike the province where you would wake up from the bird's humming sound that is just so soothing, rooster's funny sound every morning, running water from the river. Ugh, it feels like home; she thought... Not like she remembers anything about home.

Yana doesn't know where to start. She does not know who she is or where she lives.

The sunlight kissed her face as it passed through the glass window. She didn't bother to shower since she was feeling cold.

She changed her clothes and packed her things, so that when Luther would come pick her up, she's already.

Since Luther hasn't come yet, she cleaned the entire room. Later she was done. She sat on the couch and hung her foot on the top of the coffee table, looking so exhausted.

"Oww" she could hear her bones snapping so she stretched it. It was painful but satisfying.

She remembered the news yesterday, and slapped her face twice thinking 'You are so far from each other yana, snapped out of it.'

"Hey, what are you doing?" Yana gulped as she heard the voice from behind. "Stop that." Luther said in his slow tone, husky voice. "If you're done packing, we're leaving."

She wore her black cap. Thinking to avoid any misconceptions from people, especially now that she knows he had a girlfriend.

She hoped to ask him if he paid the bills already, but she guessed he did since they went straight to his car outside and didn't bother to sign anything on the Nurse's station.

When they finally went outside, the tall buildings around her amazed Yana. 'where is this place?'. Whole ride she was just looking out the window with an 'awe' reaction in the well built and structured buildings in the city. She didn't notice she was smiling, looking at the busy people in suits and office attire waiting for the traffic light to turn red.

'So cute'. Luther looked at her as she smiled widely outside the window but immediately turned to the front when Yana noticed him looking.

***

They stopped in front of a very fancy tall building. They went inside Luther carrying her stuff and went first. Yana was on her way to follow Luther when the guard stopped her. She wanted to shout Luther's name, but she's hella confused and just stared at Luther's back walking away.

"ID?" asked the lady guard. She seems a bitchy type chewing gum in her mouth.

She's struggling on how to answer her. "I.. I don't have it.. But I'm with that guy, Luther." she pointed to the guy walking away, confused on whether she should explain her side to the guard that she was just discharged from the hospital and has amnesia and Luther helped her since she remembers nothing so basically she has no identity. What else is an Identity Card?

But the lady Guard wouldn't believe her and wouldn't let her in. She said it was in their protocol and they're only abiding by the rules of the building.

"So uhm... can you just call the man I was with?" She pleaded.

"Call him on your phone ma'am we still have work to do. That is none of our concern, So if you don't have an ID please leave." said the lady guard.

She just heaved a deep sigh and left but sat on the stairs just in front of the building door. It was so hot outside, a typical tropical country. The guards told her it was not allowed to sit on the stairs, so she went to the side of the building where she found a box on top of the garbage can. She took it and there she was, seated. People were looking at her significantly.

"What are you doing?" she immediately looked at where the voice was coming from. And without thinking, she hugged him so tight.

"Sorry, I was just carried away." she apologized after she realized what she had done. But Luther grabbed her hand and dragged her back to the building.

When they were on their way to the entrance, she could see the 'Shock' look of the ladyguards. And the regret was clear in their faces.

When they were near the entrance, Luther stopped in front of the Ladyguard she was talking to a while ago, while his hand was still holding hers. "You're fired." Yana and the guards shockingly looked at him.

'What?' it confused Yana.

"Mr. Han, I am so sorry, I didn't know. I was.. I was just.. I was just doing my job and---"

"Your job doesn't include treating people poorly. And you knew she's with me, right? You saw us coming out from my car. Leave my building at once." Luther has this chilly and scary calm voice in him. Even Yana felt scared a little. "And also, what are you, a bitch? What's with the gum?" Luther said before they left the guard in shock.

His hands are still holding Yana's. They went inside the elevator, pressed the 7th floor, and Yana could still feel his rage. They proceeded to Luther's condominium with no one talking. They sat on the couch and she glanced at Luther and it's like he hasn't calmed down yet, even though he looks so calm outside.

"You want water?" said Yana, breaking the silence. But the lad just looked at her.... With rage. "Wait, are you mad at me?"

The lad mumbled something looking away, still looking so angry. She just heard faint words "... Let them treat you that way... Surely kill them."

"What?"

"What?"