Chapter 6

My quaters are quiet and dark. I turn on the light and look around to find out if there is also a laptop in my quaters.

There's no. I am about to leave my quaters when I hear this strange male voice again.

"Can I help you with somthing?"

"Wh-", I freeze in front of the door.

"You want your memories back, don't you?"

I turn around, but somehow I know there's none to turn to.

"Maybe it's a trauma..."

"Hey, I'm not in your imagination!"

Now the voice sounds sad and angry.

I still don't believe that there is anyone so I just ignore the voice.

I leave my quaters.

"Hey! You can't just ignore me!"

I start walking faster and try to find someone to ask for a computer. I walk into a corridor and into someone. Before I can hit the ground the someone grabs my arm and pulls me back up.

"I'm sorry", I say and walk around the person whithout even looking.

"Wait a second", a familar male voice says.

I turn around and look into the face of the man I met today before the briefing and who found me on the planet. The man with the messy, brown hair.

John, I think for a second, but than I remember. No, he is dead now...This is someone else.

"Why are you running around like a cat which got kicked by a horse?"

I raise my eyebrow. Is that a modern form of the dog getting stabbed by a tarantula?

"I just searched someone to ask for a computer", I say.

"Why don't you come to me? I anyways wanted to go to my quaters", he smiles and I think about that a few seconds. It would cost more time to ask someone else and why should I?

I agree.

"Nice! Follow me."

He leads the way back into the corridor my quaters lay in. His quaters are right next to mine, I realise.

"Seems that we're neighbours", I say pointing at my door.

The man laughes.

Before the door I stop. "I don't even know your name", I say smiling,"Don't you think I should given that I will be all alone with you in your quaters?"

"Yes, you should. My name is Jack Sheppard", he says.

"Hm... so I was right...", I think loudly.

" 'Bout what?"

"Nothing. You just look like someone I once knew. His name was John Sheppard. He was my 2IC and my friend", I say.

Even when I can't remember him fully, I know that he was more for me than a colleague and I'm sad about that, because I know I won't be seeing Teyla or him again.

"Hey", he says and lays his hand on my shoulder,"I can't see woman cry. Please."

I smile a little.

"I never cry", I say and go inside.

The other Sheppard shakes his head.

"The computer is at the desk. You can use it while I write my report, ok?"

I nod and sit down.

It feels like someone is mentally poking in my arm.

"Hey!!!!!! I'm still here! Why don't you ask me?!"

I open the computer and start a computer search.

I type: How to regain memory after descending?

There are articles about this Daniel Jackson who needed a month to fully regain his memories.

Other ones are about a Goa'uld device that can make you remember everything, but it causes pain sometimes and also brings up bad memories.

To be honest, I don't really care if that hurts. Everything that matters is to remember. I can't wait a month!

"Erm...Mr. Sheppard", I start looking in his direction.

"Uff... now I feel old... Call me Jack. Please."

"Ok. Do you know if you have a Goa'uld device for getting memory back?"

"A what?"

"Obviously not..."

He still looks dumbfounded and I have to bite back a laughter.

"Heeeeeeeellooooo!", the voice is now loud next ro my ears,"Trust me, I can make you talk to me. Just wait..."

"Oh no...", I wisper when I find myself on the balcony, "How did I get here?"

"Noooow you will be talking to me", the voice states.

"Who are you?!"

"Guess."

"I don't have time for this!", I turn around myself. I really want to know who keeps annoying me. I'm beyond angry.

"Oh, we have all the time in the world",  it sounds as if the owner of the voice was grinning.

"Ok, that's enough. I'm out of here!"

I run towards the door and off the balcony.

I'm falling! The gateroom is not there anymore and so is the sea, the floor or anything that could have been below me. I scream. My pulse quickens and I try to get something by moving my legs and arms, but there's nothing.

Suddenly I stand on the balcony again. One last scream escapes me.

Scrared I grasp the rail.

"You listen now?"

"I-if you th-think you get me to listen to you by this... you're wrong", I say out of breath.

"You can't guess my name? I thought you were smart...", the voice becoms quieter.

"Hey! I've never heard your voice before. How could I know? And how did you make all this?"

"Do I really have to explain all to you?", the voice signs,"Ok. First, we are in your mind. That means time has no relevance like physics and such stuff. And second, you wanted to know my name. Where's your physical body right now?"

"In Jack's quaters."

"Yes, but where excactly?"

"In Atlantis. What is this all about?"

A young man with long, silver hair and shining, oceanblue eyes apeares in front of me.

"I'm  Atlantis", he says and touches my forehead with his while he grabs both of my hands in his.

At once all my memories come back...