Chapter 35: Poked

With her body pressed underneath Ian, Lisa had made herself clear. She wanted to be with him, and he was not going to reject her. She watched Ian reach under his pillow.

The day before, Zane had pressed something into Ian's hands as he was leaving. Ian had tried to give it back, but Zane would not take it. He told Ian he would rather him be safe than sorry.

At the time, Ian thought that Zane was overreacting to his budding relationship with Lisa. Not knowing what to do with the package, Ian had put it under one of the pillows in his study. He did not think he would need them the very next day, and right now he was happy he had taken them. When Lisa saw what he was holding, she gently reached out to hold his arm.

"Do you think we need it?" she asked. Ian looked down at Lisa in disbelief of her question. He had often thought of marrying Lisa, but he had never imagined anything beyond that. Did he even want children? All of this ran through Ian's mind in a split second before he nodded his head. He was in no way ready for children. Seeing that Ian's mind was made up, she knew it would be hard to change it; but just then she 'remembered' something.

"Ian, this is our first time together, I don't want anyone to disturb us. Can you make sure the door is locked?"

Ian knew that no one would enter his study if the doors were closed, but he remembered the new maid who interrupted his breakfast to hand him a newspaper. He did not want Lisa to feel embarrassed, so he got up and went to lock the door of his Study.

While Ian was gone, Lisa pulled off one of her earrings and poked several holes in one of the small packages and quickly put it back under the pillow. When Ian returned, he only saw Lisa removing her earrings and thought that maybe they were uncomfortable.

He was not sure where to start, so he laid beside her and waited for her to take the initiative. Once again, Ian was pressed on top of Lisa's body. He was aroused, but he also felt guilty. Although he had pictured this moment many times, the real thing somehow felt wrong.

Ian was studying Lisa's face looking for any trace of resignation but there was none. He pressed his lips against hers again and slowly reached for one of the two tiny packages. As he fumbled with the wrapper, Ian could feel an oily substance on the plastic. He pushed that one away and reached for the other.

He used one hand to open it and put it on without removing his body from Lisa's. She looked down at his body and her eyebrows arched up. She was seeing this part of the love of her life for the first time. Ian pressed his body onto Lisa's and whispered in her ear.

"Are you sure you want this?" He asked

Lisa was sure. She did not answer with words, but instead stretched her neck up to passionately kiss his lips. She was overwhelmed with excitement. She had known Ian for ten years and today was the first day she was tasting his lips.

She was tasting his lips and taking his body, she really wished this were her real first time, but she had lost it years ago. Ian would never know this. He had never been with a woman and did not know what to expect. Lisa spread herself out and invited Ian inside.

With Ian's motions, Lisa moaned loudly. She threw back her head and made all the sounds she remembered making back then. She tightly grabbed his shoulders and tried to do her best to pass this off as her first intimate encounter. Ian was put off by her antics.

At one point, Ian had even stopped moving but Lisa continued to moan and groan. Her eyes were shut, and her face was buried in his neck. Ian was not sure how he knew, but he was sure he was not the first man in Lisa's life. The thought slightly bothered him, but she had never told him that it was her first time. She had only ever said it was their first time, and it was.

Ian tried to continue to try and enter her, but the more he moved, the more ridiculous noises she made, and it was beginning to affect his pride.

'Does she think I can't tell she is faking it?!' He thought.

Before Ian could push himself inside, he lost it and he could not get it back, but it took Lisa a few seconds to realize that he had even stopped. The girl looked up at him innocently and her eyes slightly glistened. In that moment Ian was reminded of Mina and his body reacted positively. Guilty, he quickly rolled off Lisa, who abruptly sat up in bed. He picked up his clothes and began to put them on, leaving Lisa scared and confused.

Panicked, Lisa wrapped the blankets around herself and stood in front of Ian. She looked at him with concern and his heart hurt for her. He did not want to tell her that he did not want to be with her right now. The simple truth was that he wanted someone else, but Lisa had gotten the wrong idea and misread Ian's glum expression.

"Ian, don't worry. I read that men often finish quickly their first time. We can always do it again." Ian's gaze darkened but he quickly returned to his senses.

Ian casually laid in the bed and patted the space next to him, indicating to Lisa that he wanted her to lay beside him. Her face brightened and she quickly snuggled up to him. They laid there in silence as Ian struggled to think of ways to tell Lisa they were over, but when he opened his mouth to speak, Lisa had already started Speaking.

"I saved myself for you. I always knew you would be my first." Ian's face turned to stone. He knew she was lying but he did not have the heart to ask her outright. Besides, he had also betrayed their silent agreement. He could only stay quiet and sort his emotions. On one end he loved Lisa and he knew she loved him, but on the other end they had both sought comfort from someone else. In Ian's case, he was not given a choice, but she likely chose to give herself away.

Ian could not think about it anymore.