Chapter 2: Her

Kevin's POV:

I woke up to my phone ringing. I rolled over to turn it off. It rung again. I finally picked it up and discovered why it was ringing. It was my alarm clock. I groaned then sat up. I rubbed my eyes. Mmm something smells good. I smelled bacon. Go on down there and get some. I really don't feel like it Randy. Fine then starve. Either why we're gonna die anyway. True.

I looked around for my blades. This time I'm gonna do it. Thus time it'll work. "Looking for these?" Said a voice. I looked over and saw one of my many caretakers Manny holding all of my blades in a big Ziploc bag. I frowned then rolled my eyes. "Whatever man." I said then laid back down. He pulled the covers off me. "Oh my God dude." I said.

"Get up. You got school." He said. "Judge said didn't have to go back till September 16th." I said, as I tried to warm myself in a fetus position. "That's today." He said. "No its not." I said. It was muffled because I had my face in my pillow. "Look at your phone." He said. I picked it up:September 16, 7:35. Oh God. I sighed. "Alright I'm getting up." I said. He just stood there.

"Ok you can leave. I can dress myself." I said. "Nope can't trust ya kid. Last time one us left you alone to change, you jumped out of a window. Not risking it." He said. Oh my God, they are on my ass. Try to sneak away. I looked around for anything that could get me a way out. "Don't even try anything kid. There's people on the roof, outside, all watching you." He said. Never mind. That plan's out. No kidding. "Fine I'll just get dressed in front of you."I said, as i went to the bathroom.

There was another dude in there. I sighed. "Hey Terrance." I said. "Hey kid. Don't do anything." He said, as he was on his phone. "Man when are y'all gonna leave me alone?" I asked. "Til you get better. Which is never." He laughed. I stared at him. It took everything in me not to punch him. People like him are the reason I'm trying to kill myself. I took my shower then put on some clothes.

I looked out the window. There was two dudes staring at me. Whoa. He wasn't joking when he said there was people on the roof. No kidding. Damn can I do anything without being watched?  I walked downstairs and saw my mom cooking. "Hey baby. I hope you slept well. Here's your breakfast." She said all cheerful. I was staring at the stove. It was still on. She followed my gaze and quickly turned it off. I rolled my eyes. I wasn't gonna do anything that involved the stove. I want my death quick and painless not long and painful.

"Why are you so cheerful this morning?" I asked her. "Because you're going back to school today." She said excitedly. I stared at her. She doesn't want me here? "But I mean that in a good way baby. Its just that I wanna go back to work without having to worry about you. I mean I worry about you but -" I cut her off. "I get it mom. Just stop. Please." I said and walked off. I grabbed my keys and walked outside. "Uh uh. I don't think so kid." Manny said. Oh my Jesus Christ. I can't do anything. A few more guys got in.

I found out they were there to be in each of my classes. This is gonna be a long day. Yeah no shit. I didn't like being constantly babysat. I got on my phone and seen I was tagged in a LOT of news. All about my suicide attempts. This day could not get worse. I used my Irish Intel to figure out why i was tagged. It was all because of a video of me crying and cutting myself. Charlotte!! I used my intel to find out where the video started off and to have taken down.

They couldn't do anything about it. Its been viewed and shared so many times they couldn't take it down. And this is why I keep trying to kill myself. To escape this world. "Yo Kevin. Let's go." Said Manny. I groaned and got out. I walked to the cafeteria to get breakfast. I didn't want to eat my mom's after what she said. Can't believe she said that. And was happy about me leaving. Please Lord just let me kill myself. Then smelted a familoar scent. Cinnamon. Ugh Charlotte. I decided to confront her about the video. I know she recorded it. I noticed everybody was staring at me, muttering about me. "Fuck y'all looking at?" I yelled. They ran away.

"Chill kid. Just get through today. You might as well get used to it until you get better." Manny said. "I thought you were here to help me?" I asked. "No I'm here to make sure you don't kill yourself. But I do care about ya kid. No homo though." He said. I always favored Manny more than everyone else. No matter what, I always wanted Manny to be there 24/7. No homo though.

I smelled cinnamon again. I walked towards it. They she was Charlotte. My eyes zoned in on her. I walked up to here. There was another girl in front of her but I didn't care.  Charlotte rolled her eyes. "Why are you here?" She asked. "Why did you upload the video?" I asked, trying to hold my temper. "Oh come on. Did you really think I would waste a good video? Besides, I'm helping you. Now people know the truth." She said, as she blew a bubble. She closed her locker. "Charlotte that wasn't for anyone to know about." I said. "Well now they do." She said and walked off.

My anger took over. The lockers started rumbling. Calm down dude. She's a female. We can't hit her. I know. If she wasn't, I'd beat the shit out of her. I noticed everyone was still looking at me. "And what the fuck y'all staring at?" I yelled. They quickly scrambled away. I walked outside to breathe in fresh air to calm me down. "Ya know kid? That may be your girlfriend, but why is she such a bitch?" Manny asked. "I don't know. But she's not my girlfriend. Not anymore." I said. "How did she get the video?" He asked. "She hid in my closet. I didn't know she was there. She told me about the video and said she'd delete it if I had sex with her because she was starving. So I did." I said.

"That's cold." He said. "I'm going to the library." I said. We walked to the library. I've always loved books. I can never get enough. Call me a bookworm, but I get books more than people. I get there and some other kids were there. Then I'm hit with a sweet, delicious, vanilla smell. "Mmm, what's that smell?" Manny asked. "Smells like vanilla." I said.

We followed it to an aisle. My aisle. There was a black girl with purple curly hair in my seat. They smell is coming from her? "Um you're in my seat." I said politely. She jumped at the sound of my voice. She looked around then sat back down. "So you just gon sit back down?" I asked her. She turned around and saw me. Holy shit dude. She's gorgeous. She's beautiful. Wait what am I saying?  She didn't say anything. She just looked at the ground.

"What? You can't speak?" I asked her. She still didn't answer. "Freak." I said under my breath. She must've heard it. "At least I'm not a suicidal, disrespectful, maniac." She snapped at me. She grabbed her stuff and took off. "Kid, you didn't have to say that to her." Manny said I was in stunned silence. She talked back to me. To me. ME?! It turned me on. I've never had anyone do that that. Not even Charlotte was bold enough to do that.

Just then the bell ranged. "Come on kid. Let's get to class." He said. "Alright." I said. Who is that girl? Is she new? I've never seen her around here before. Whoever she is, she got balls. I walked to my next class. It was boring. Everyone pretty much  stared and talked about me. Then bell ranged. I went to my next class. I went early. There was no one else here. I noticed the caretaker guys stand at back and front of the room.

God I feel like a child with them around me. Then the sweet smell of vanilla hit me again. I looked up from my phone and saw her. I glared at her. She rolled her eyes and sat down in the front. I don't like her yet I feel drawn to her. What is it about her that attracts me to her? More students filed in , all staring at me. So did the teacher. He greeted me. I responded. I told him I had loose ends to tie up. I was referring to killing myself again, and finding out who this chick was.

She rolled her eyes and stuck middle finger up at me.  This girl truly got balls. And it turned me on. I bit my lip. Who is this girl really? I noticed Tyler, one of the caretakers at the front of the room was eyeing her. He bit his lip and undressed her with his eyes. I felt a growl build up inside me. Wait why am I getting jealous? I don't even know this chick. The class went by fast. I found out that I have 4 other classes with her.

School ended finally. That girl was still on my mind. You know you gotta find out who she is. And why the hell would I do that? Because she makes you hard. Piss off Randy.  Walked with Manny to my car. All the other caretakers took forever to get here. "Alright Kevin. Wanna go home?" Tyler asked me. I suddenly felt a sudden dislike towards him. "Yeah." I said. As he drove, I eyed him. I read his mind. He was thinking about that girl. He was thinking of ways to fuck her. Tough luck for him. She's underage. I smirked.

We arrived home and I got out and walked to the front door. I went in and saw that my mom was gone. There was food on the table. And a note.

'I'm sorry for what I said. Please forgive me. I made your favorite food. Enjoy. Love, Mom.'

I sighed. I guess she means well. I sat down and ate the food. It was good. I had some blood to wash it down. I got up and walked around. My mind wondered back to that girl. I font like her at all but im so attracted to her. Why? I wanted to read something to get my mind off of it. I then I remembered my mom didn't buy the house with the library in it. I walked around to find Manny so he could take me to the public library.

"Hey Manny, can we go to the library? I'm bored." I asked. He nodded and Tyler came too. We drove to the library. It looked depressing but it is a library. I walked in and the sweet smell of vanilla hit me again. Oh no. Don't tell me she's here. I followed her scent to an aisle. I asked her something but she didn't hear me. I looked closer. She doesn't have earbuds in so how come she didn't answer me? I got to talking with her. I was lost in her beautiful brown eyes.

And her hair was so thick and curly. She then got smart with me. I threatened to tell on her. She finally got in line. I had her take me to the the thriller section. I made her pick some out for me. I threatened her again and heard her voice crack. She bout to cry? My heart broke for me. For some reason, I didn't like seeing her cry. But I like being in control of her.

I told her that I'm buying all of R. L. Stine's books. Her and her bosses, some old couple stared at me like I was crazy. I wanted to buy the books. As I was being ringed up, she said she had to pick up her little sister. She didn't have a ride. I offered to take her. She seemed hesitant at first, then she came around. Tyler grabbed her and told her that she couldn't go out there by herself. I growled. Apparently it was loud enough for everyone to hear.

We got in the car and she gave Manny directions to her sister's school. It was silent on the way there. I wanted to talk to her but didn't know what to say. I looked over at Tyler, who sat in the back with me. He normally sists in the front on his phone. She must really have his attention. Just like she has yours. Shut it. I read Tyler's mind. Her scent was driving him wild. I'm not gonna lie, it's driving me wild too but I'm not over here thinking of ways to fuck her a million ways to Sunday.

Luckily she say in the front with Manny, to give him directions. I read Manny's mind, to see what he thinks of her. All he was thinking about was to get home to his boyfriend. Whoa. I didn't know Manny was gay. I have no problem with gay people but I just never figured Manny for one. He never acted like it. I tried reading Angel's mind. We found out her name was Angel Starlight.

For some reason, I couldn't read her mind. What is this Twilight? How come I can't read her mind? Then Tyler's thought got loud as hell. I covered my ears. Good thing it's dark so no one could see me. Tyler was actually thinking of ways to fuck this girl. He doesn't even know her. And she's ours, not his. Duh. Wait what? Angel then got out the car and ran inside the school. When did we pull up? Angel then walked out with a little girl who looked like her.

She sat in the front with Angel but kept low so no one could her. Does she not want her sister back here safe? But I guess I know where she's coming from. I wouldn't want my little sister in the backseat with a bunch of stranger dudes. Speaking of which, I hope my mom picked Jordan up from soccer practice. I noticed the little girl was staring at me. I read her little mind. She recognized me as the suicidal boy from the news. Great. There goes my good mood. The girl was still staring at me.

I'm trying my hardest not to yell at her for staring at me. I don't like being gawked at. I glanced at her. She was still staring. That's it. I looked at her and made my eyes turn red. She started crying. Aw shit. "Tasha what's wrong?" Angel asked. She pointed at me. I played dumb. "What did I do?" I asked. She kept crying. That'll teach her for staring. "Tasha its not nice to point or stare. Its okay. Calm down." Angel cooed her. Tasha actually calmed down. She stopped crying and wiped her face. She laid her head back down on her lap.

Wow. She actually calm her down. She's really good at this. I wonder if she's good at parenting? Why do you wanna know? Shit she could mother our kids. Why would I want to have kids with her? Why I would I want have kids at all? I'm not ever having kids. I'm killing myself and that's that. Hot headed jackass. I looked over at Tyler.

He was still having his fantasies about her. I growled lowly. Tasha must've heard it. "Angel is there a dog in here? I'm scared of dogs." She said. "No sweetie there's no dog." Angel assured her, though she looked around. I noticed we pulled up back at the library. "Whoa Manny. I thought we were taking them home?" I asked. "Yeah but Angel wanted me to drive them back to the library." He said.

"Look I appreciate the ride but I rather go back to the library. Besides my shift doesn't end till 9:00." She said. I glanced at Tasha. She was staring at me. She turned away when she saw me looking. I read her mind. Angel told her that they were going to the library and then walk home. Angel didn't trust a whole bunch of dudes to know where she lives. Especially me. What are you hiding from me Angel?

They got out and walked inside. I tried to read Angel's mind again. Still couldn't. I heard a whistle. "Damn. What a body on that one eh Manny?" Tyler asked. Manny was lost in his mind. "Hmm? Oh yeah nice body." He said. His mind was still on his boyfriend. Maybe Manny hasn't come out yet. Its gotta be the reason he's acting like this. Tyler then crawled into the front seat. "Yo her scent is driving me crazy. I wonder how old she is?" He asked. "Too young for your old ass." I said, without thinking. They both stared at me.

Quick think of something to put him off. "Tyler your talking about an underage girl dude. You mess with her, you going to jail." I said, hoping he would stop talking about her. "Manny what you think man?" He asked. What the fuck man? Manny had his fist up to his temple. "Dude, I honestly don't care. I'm tired,  I'm hungry, and I wanna go home." He said. The ride back was quiet. We got out and entered the house.

I ran but stopped. Last time I ran somewhere, they all tackled me. It hurt like hell. Felt like someone literally dropped a house on me. I walked upstairs. I heard my mom. It sounding like she was crying. I was mistaken. I walked to her bedroom. It was her riding some dude. Fucking gross man. I went to take a shower, then climbed into bed. As I drifted off to sleep, Angel filled my head. What is it about this girl that has my attention?