I turned from my bride and as soon as I could I made sure to bury myself far away deep in the old temple halls
Where I could be totally alone
Alone with my miserable self
I try to meditate but I keep losing focus and becoming frustrated
I fall into my hands and I feel as if I might either break out sobbing like a child or smashing every object in sight to splinters
Every time I try to close my eyes and forget about him
He is there
Pale face with dark hair and midnight eyes
His touch was cold
As if he wished to be warmed
And I wanted to warm him
I wanted to take him into me
I wanted to see into the darkness of him
But…
I can't hurt him!
I just can't
No matter what!