I’m afraid of death

For the majority of my life I've been wanting to disappear.

I tried, and I tried, and I tried, so hard to make things work.

So when I finally looked up again,

Life's unpredictability hit me like a brick,

And the fear of accepting my past and then disappearing,

The fear of wanting to do everything I've ever dreamed of,

yet to be stopped in my tracks before I could even try,

Have filled my days with anxiety,

And for that reason,

I am afraid of death,

Even more than I ever had before.