Decision

"I want to know the reason why. But at the same time, I don't think we need to think too much into it."

Lila's cheeks puffed into a pout at that comment, and his sweat fell.

"Hmph, if that's the case, let me go."

The ice queen behaviour again? She was about to leave his lap, but he wrapped his arms around her waist.

"You know, I still need to get used to you behaving this way."

"I've always been like this! It's just you were too preoccupied to notice."

No, no. He spent a very long time looking at only her before. There is no way he would have missed something like this.

Haruka caressed her cheeks. "Don't sulk so much. We are finally reunited. I don't want to waste more time-fighting."

He regretted it a lot after she left him. All those moments they spent fighting with one another? They could have easily spent it in each other's arms.

Lila bit her lip and wrapped her arms around his neck as she placed soft kisses on his neck.

"It's not like I want to fight. But, I'm just cautious about your words now." Lila admitted.

"How come?"

"In the past, I used to let you get away with a lot of things. Because of that, I didn't realize the signs. So now, whenever you say anything, I'm analyzing your words. I don't want to miss anything anymore."

"I understand, Lila. But, you can just ask me. I won't hide things from you anymore."

"Okay."

'She still seems a bit weird. Is it because she doesn't feel well?'

"Is there anything else?"

"Just now, when I saw Akari and Takehiro-kun's condition, it made me realize how cruel Sophia truly is."

Haruka didn't miss the regret in her tone. She does not have to blame herself for this.

"When I left you, with my own hands, I decided I would end it all. But, when I arrived in Star town, I realized that wasn't enough. Even if I did what I wanted, it wouldn't solve the overall problem. In fact, if I did act the way I wanted the moment I got here, then there is a higher chance of me worsening the situation."

Haruka did not say anything and continued to caress her hair.

"There were all sorts of articles, debates about what I would do here. But after so many months, the numbers of the people who believed in me diminished. Many blame me for marrying you, for choosing you over Kiryu. 'If she chose Kiryu, this wouldn't have happened. There are comments like that." She turned to him with a weak smile. "Do you also think that?"

"There was a time where I did," Haruka admitted. "I thought if you chose Kiryu from the beginning, you would have taken down Zane immediately. Sophia would not have had to join since I wouldn't be involved with you."

The main reason why Sophia even acted was him. She behaves that way because she realized how he was serious about Lila. If he didn't get together with Lila, things would remain how they were. Him sleeping around with other women and living a deranged lifestyle.

"But?"

"But I realize even if we didn't get together, Sophia would have noticed it eventually. I was always watching you, after all. Even if we didn't become a couple, she would have gotten rid of anything I was fond of."

"Fond of huh?" Lila fiddles with his shirt buttons and again brings her lips to his neck. "If you were that fond of me, you should have come to meet me sooner."

"Well, I had my reasons."

"Even when I was with Kiryu, it always felt like something was missing. That missing part was you." Lila mumbled.

"I see. I'm sorry." Haruka paused when he felt her kissing his neck. No, she was sucking and biting. "What are you doing?" He said softly.

"Right now, each choice I make will weigh heavily on my fingertips. That weight prevents me from acting the way I want; otherwise, I would have long destroyed that woman." Lila mumbled. "But Haruka, you don't want me to just kill her, right?"

"I don't want you to kill anybody."

He does not want to expose his wife to such things.

"But I already have." Lila laughed weakly. "Haruka, I had no choice. But that does not change the fact that I have stained my hands with blood already."

Her sudden revelation did not surprise him. After all, he understood that not even Lila can remain safe without fighting back with the world as crazy as it is nowck. It is hard to fight and keep the other opponent alive, especially when they use their hanyou powers.

She must have struggled.

Haruka leaned forward and kissed her forehead, eyelids, and nose. When he realized she was crying, he licked her tears away. "Salty."

"Haruka."

"I won't suppress my hanyou side anymore. In order to protect you, no to fight alongside you." Haruka clarified. "I need strength. I have been thinking this a lot, Lila. I know you don't like it, but please allow me to go off and train for a while."

At those words, her tears flowed more, and he bit his lip. "I'm sorry, I know we just reunited. But in my current state, I cannot protect you."

"Will you go alone?"

"Please allow Zane to come with me. I know he is supposed to be under watch, but-"

"I will allow it." Lila sobbed as she kissed his lips lightly. "The moment I saw you again, I should have confined you so you wouldn't have such foolish thoughts."

"I won't leave right away. I need to finish the medication first. But, it will be soon."

Until then, he will spoil her rotten.

...…..

Unfortunately for him, finishing the medicine didn't take as long as he wanted. He almost destroyed the finishing product to delay leaving, but Zane caught him and stopped him from doing so. Zane just finished explaining how the medicine works to Lila and how much she needs to take.

"You better come back soon." Kiryu approached him with a frown. "Not like it makes a difference; she already turned me down."

Right, he heard about that. He didn't think Lila would do that now, especially with the current circumstances. Haruka sent Kiryu an apologetic look, and he shook his head.

"If three months go by and you are not back yet, Hyou4 will brand you two as traitors."

This was the condition for him to go training, not bringing Zane along. It is normal for the members of Hyou4 to act this way. He does not know how Lila persuaded them, but she must have sacrificed something.

Three months is not a lot of time, and if he rushes it and something goes wrong, it could take longer. Those guys are doing it deliberately. They want him to fail; they want him to exceed the time limit.