The fact that I will not exist anymore in just seven short days, may be absolutely terrifying... but now I finally have the courage I need to act without regard of the consequences. And I already know what I'm gonna do first.
It's a cliche, I know. He is my best friend, and I know that he doesn't want to be more than that, but I have to tell him what I feel, or I can't die in peace. I will do it after school... The school which is full of anxious and confused teens. The teachers and our principal are trying to act as if they are calm, but you can see the fear in their eyes as well.
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There he is. He's sitting on a bench, looking around and I decide to sit down next to him.
"Hey Joe. What are you doing..here?" I'm confused as to why he is sitting on the bench, he could've just gone home.
"Hi, Charlotte. I'm just thinking about how it would be if some things had gone differently..."
"I think you're not the only one there... Listen, Joe... As we're all going to meet the end soon, I want to tell you something, and you have to let me finish. Alright?" I'm already nervous and I feel my cheeks get some color. "Okay..?" there's a questioning sound in his voice.
"Well then. I don't know about your feelings towards me, neither if there even are any. But since I know you, nobody has touched me the way you do. Your smile makes me doubt I've ever seen anything as beautiful. Every time I looked you in the eyes, I wished to be more than your best friend... but I kept it to myself, because I was sure I'd ruin everything with telling you. I thought I would ruin our friendship.
"I love you, Joe..."
He was staring at me with a blank face. Thousands of thoughts went through my head, that maybe he'll just stand up and leave, that I just ruined everyth- "Charlotte."
"Yeah?" I asked carefully and my heart skipped a beat. Then, surprisingly, he placed a hand on my cheek and kissed me, as if it was the only thing that he still had to do.
When the kiss ended, my cheeks had finally caught fire and I looked up at him.
"I love you, Charlie, and I was scared because of it, but now that I know you feel the same... nothing can distance me from you."
For the first time since receiving the news of our death, I was happy.