Birth
Waking up to many women around me and someone tightly grabbing my hand. "You will survive my child, be strong!" Everything is so hazy but I can tell I am in my bed. I feel terrible cramps and pressure. "Push my lady push" I hear women repeating. So I do push. Immediately pain radiates up my body and I screamed out. Oh my goddess no! This is horrible. What if I die like my sister.....Mingyu? "My child it's going to be okay you are strong and the faster you push the child out the quicker this is over" someone said in my ear. Feeling more determined to fight through the pain I pushed really hard, the pain getting more intense. "Keep pushing my lady" and once more I pushed really hard and then the sound of my child crying.
The women next to me holding my hand released and grabbed the baby to hand her to me. I realized it was the Empress Dowager. "A princess my child, I'm sure the next will be a prince" she said and then added "she is most beautiful...like her mother" and she smiled. Holding my little princess I looked at her...so precious. So perfect.
The the Emperor rushes in "Imperial doctors how is she!?" Bowing to report "Your majesty despite the early birth she and the baby are healthy and strong." Relieved he came and sat next to me and our princess. "She's perfect, our little princess. I will allow you to name her since she is a princess. I will name our princes. What shall it be?" he said smiling. Hmm I suppose I never thought. Something special to me and beautiful like her. "Liena shall be her name" I decided. "Princess Liena. As beautiful as a lotus flower. I agree with this choice, very fitting." The Emperor replied.
The nurse then took my perfect baby to be fed, I already felt her absence. "You should get some rest and I will come visit you soon." The Emperor said to me as he left not so cheerful anymore. I know he is happy but I also know he wants a prince. I suppose he also just lost his concubine and child to be. My sister....then I noticed a tear fall. I decided to let myself cry, hard. I needed to let the sorrow out. She was such a close friend and some things will never be the same. I wasn't prepared for this loss and honestly didn't think it a possibility. I am so naive to think that everything would be perfect. I feel silly. I am now a mother and need to act accordingly. Wiping my tears I decided to have a good long rest. Then I shall wake up to be the mother I'm meant to be and live well for my Sister Noble lady Mingyu.